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Numbing feeling,
I feel inside.
My wounds are healing.
But scars aren't fading.

Now the chandelier fell from the ceiling,
Fell upon the bride,
Who was divorced the same day she was married.
All she did was cried.

So how does it feel to be damned?
Not be fake, but real,
but still used as societies next meal.

We are a generation,
who needs to be told they are loved,
to feel loved.
Being neglected is like a shove,
because we want to feel like we belong.

All we do is throw names,
back and forth.
I feel like this is just a game,
And I'm all to blame.

These demons trapped inside my head,
Dull my emotions.
The feeling of being dead,
Or drowning in the ocean.
Sometimes I think they're all because of you,
But there were so moments.
That I'd never redo.

I've never felt so broken,
Crumbled and shattered.
Or so outspoken.
But none of the matters.

Aspirin doesn't take away the mental pain,
But we take them anyway.

All I want is to tell you my secret.
But I can't escape the demon,
Taking over my mind.
And creating anxiety.

For just this one night.
May I just might,
Knock down these walls,
I've had up for so long.
Maybe you'll do the same.
And help me feel like I'm never in the wrong.
It'll feel like those fifteen minutes of fame.
When I'm happy again,
then you'll come up from the ground,
and throw me under the bridge again.

I'm procrastinating and feel like shit and urgh.