FicWad

I want all of my creativity back
The natural gleam I had in my eyes
The true happiness I felt
and real smile that tugged at my cheeks

Is happy really a feeling
that has became to hard to grasp
When it seems as tho saddness
has pulled me under the water

Can someone make sense of it
I can't explain why it's easier to let
a tear fall from my eyes
then a smile form on my lips

Nightmares are no longer in my sleep
but running through my head
in thoughts i never presumed would form
replacing the happy ones that frolicked

I guess the darkness of depression
is easier to accept
but when all you want is happiness
why is depression so hard to let go of?

It is surely not a friend of mine
No friend makes you suffer
and silently scream "I hate you"
So why do I let it stay?

Depression has become all I know
and seems like what I have to feel
but I will call back my happiness
I promise depressions not here to stay