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The Unexpected Reveal

by TheDoctorsTARDISXO 0 reviews

Kayden is cross, very very cross with the Doctor. It's time for him to come clean or she just may leave.

Category: Doctor Who - Rating: G - Genres: Drama,Romance - Warnings: [?] - Published: 2013-08-13 - 3971 words

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Steven Moffat likes to drink our tears when we cry. The BBC backs him on that. Which is probably why the own Doctor Who and we don't. ~XO TheDoctorsTARDISXO

I was pacing around my room back on the TARDIS once more. I have not been able to sit still for a moment, not since I found out the truth about whom I was, and who the Doctor was to me. The TARDIS just seemed to know what I was going through; I felt her presence in the room with me, like a concerned friend who only wants to comfort you. I have to admit, I was grateful for her presence at that moment. The changes of opening the fob watch were still affecting me and I was unsure as to when they would stop. More and more memories that were once lost to me were now awakening and flooding my mind. There was no off switch, I couldn't stop what was happening to me nor would I ever want to. I finally found out who I really was and where I truly belonged in the universe. I kept hearing the Doctor's voice in my mind, "Please." That word, that one word had the power to break me. I was so angry with the Doctor and I have every right to be, but at the same time I couldn't stop myself from thinking about him. I just couldn't get that damned Time Lord out of my mind. I had a million questions I wanted to ask him about what happened after he dropped me back on Earth. How did he cope? Why didn't he ever come back, even if I couldn't remember who he was? Did he really still care about me? So many questions and no answers. I needed to talk to him though I was still cross. I needed I don't know, closure, validation, answers? All three? Honesty, that's what I needed. I needed the Doctor to finally be honest with me.

I stopped pacing in front of my floor to ceiling mirror. I still could not get over the physical change that had taken place. When the Doctor and I finally managed to make it out of that dungeon the Ponds were in such a state, and the Doctor was mere moments away from regeneration or worse, death. Amy and Rory were so relieved to see that we were unharmed; they also had heard every word of what went on behind that damned door. They were flabbergasted at seeing me when we emerged. At first I didn't have a clue what could be wrong but that all changed the moment I caught sight of my reflection in the mirror. Oh leaving Greenwich Palace was a breeze, the court had returned to normal, the spell of our deceptive enemy broken once the Doctor's mind was freed. They didn't acknowledge our presence though I'm sure there were whispers behinds gloves and fans. I again brought my eyes to stare at the reflection of the young Time Lady in the mirror looking back at me. It wasn't a dramatic difference, but enough of one to still shock me. My legs looked longer, my torso slimmer, arms more elegant and graceful. My skin was now as creamy as ivory and my freckles seemed to pop more. Hair was longer, down to the middle of my back, thicker and a more intense auburn color. My eyes were what shocked me most. They were no longer their sparkling hazel color but were now a very intense gray. My eyes reminded me of storm clouds before a thunderstorm. It made me look a tad fierce as funny as that sounds. A knock at my door startled me and I spun around as Amy poked her head in.

"Hey, I was just on my way from the kitchen to check on the Doctor and decided to pop in and see how you were. Mind if I come in?" She asked me with the most touching of smiles.

"Of course Amy." I waved her in and motioned that we both should settle on the corner of the bed to talk. I needed someone to talk to now more than ever, and Amy knew that. Kind, sweet Amelia Pond knew that right now more than ever I needed a friend.

She took my hand in hers as we made our selves comfortable and gave it a squeeze. "How are you feeling? I know you've been through a lot with finding out how you really know the Doctor and all."

"I'm holding up. No that's a complete lie Amy. I feel I don't know used? Betrayed? Abandoned? But also incredibly relieved and grateful to have the Doctor back in my life. Four years of dreaming of a man in a blue suit and adventures that would have gotten me sent to the nuthouse. All of it true. It's a lot to take in."

Amy smiled and laughed softly, "I know exactly how you feel there. I had four psychiatrists after I first met the Doctor when I was seven years old. No one believed for a minute that he was real, my raggedy Doctor. Everyone just referred to him as my imaginary friend but I alone knew the truth. My raggedy Doctor was real, and he did come back for me in the end though it took him fourteen years."

I flinched at the amount of time Amy went without the Doctor. My four years seemed like a walk in the park compared to what she endured. "He's not the greatest when it comes to time, is he? This is ironic since he's a Time Lord and all." Amy and I giggled at the thought of the Doctor being a bad Time Lord.

It was fantastic having Amy with me. I appreciated her taking the time to come and check on me. There was like this instant bond between the two of us, like we both knew we needed to look out for one another. Being the only two girls aboard the TARDIS would do that. Amy told me many funny stories of her and Rory's travels with the Doctor, all in an attempt to lift my spirits. As much as I hated to admit, it was working. I was feeling better and a little less cross with the bow tie wearing Time Lord. Amy asked me many questions about my Doctor. She said the Doctor very rarely if ever talked about his past regenerations or former companions so this was a treat. I told her about the first time I met my Doctor and how he saved me from a group of Weeping Angels. I told her everything she could possible want to know, his favorite food at the time, favorite color, how he looked, if he wore a bow tie, everything. I couldn't help but laugh when she practically did a dance over the fact that there were no bow ties present.

"You love him, don't you?" Amy stated matter of factly after another round of giggling that I was taken aback and caught off guard. I actually had the grace to blush before answering.

"I do. As absolutely mad as that sounds I am in love with him. He swore to protect me and keep me safe, and there was something about him, a madman with a blue box from the planet Gallifrey that I was swept off my feet."

"You know Kayden," Amy began as she rose to her feet to go and check on the Doctor, "don't hold this against the Doctor. As much as I am on your side for what the stupid bloke did to you wiping your memories like that, he did it to protect you, just like he promised to do. Go and talk to him and work this all out. You don't want to lose him now that you've just gotten him back, yeah? Trust me it'll all work out in the end." She game my shoulder a pat before going on her way. My talk with Amy helped to calm me down, I was less cross with the Doctor but still incredibly hurt. I wanted to forgive him, but how could I?

I couldn't take the pacing anymore. I finally decided to leave my room and just walk around the TARDIS. I was going stir-crazy and I just couldn't take the confines of my room any longer. I wandered around and ended up back in the console room without realizing it. More memories bled into my mind from the abyss, and I saw myself seated in the captain's chair of my Doctor's TARDIS laughing as he tried to get her to take us to ancient Rome. I walked around the console, fingers brushing buttons and levers and knobs as the TARDIS hummed at me. I settled myself in the captain's chair, completely lost in thought until I heard the sounds of multiple pairs of feet running up the corridor. Next thing I knew the Doctor stormed in looking a lot better than he did earlier, not a single scratch or cut anywhere, and two very annoyed Ponds behind him.

"Doctor, you can't be serious! We just barely escaped that bizarre enemy of yours and already your shipping us all off on another adventure. Shouldn't you take it easy and, I don't know rest a bit?" Rory asked as the Doctor began flipping levers and pushing buttons.

"Rest, hah! Who needs rest? Resting is dull and I hate dull. I have a mate who's in a bit of a bind. We need to go and help him out." The Doctor replied not stopping his work.

"What's going on?" I asked as I caught the look of worry that crossed Rory's face.

"The Doctor has this crazy notion that we need to go visit Salem, Massachusetts." Rory stated and I noticed Amy roll her eyes and grab on to Rory's arm.

"Come on now Rory, it's exciting! Going to visit Salem during the time of the Salem Witch Trials, think of the adventures."

"Yeah until they take one look at the Doctor and burn us all at the stake." I heard Rory mumble then flinch as Amy smacked his arm.

"Oi!" Her and the Doctor cried out at the same time and I couldn't help but laugh.

"Amy's right Rory, that does sound exciting," I chimed in earning a high five from Amy, "It's just the sort of fun we need right now! Besides this is the first adventure I get to go on as a bonafide Time Lady, it's exciting!"

"You're not going anywhere." The Doctor said as the TARDIS began to shake and materialize. The Doctor ran around as he attempted to keep his balance until he reached the Ponds. In his hands he held two very high tech looking watches. "This is a solo mission for our dear Ponds to go on. Amy, Rory this watches are your lifeline to the TARDIS, don't lose them or break them or else Kayden and I can't come back and get you."

"Wait what? You're seriously throwing us out in the middle of the Salem witch trials ALONE, with nothing but watches to protect us?" Rory cried out alarmed. He looked at the Doctor like he had completely gone mad. The Doctor just handed the Pond their watches before ushering them over to the TARDIS doors.

"Yes Rory that is exactly what I'm doing. Just try to blend in and don't cause trouble. Kayden and I will be back for you two soon. Have fun and good luck!" The Doctor all but shoved the Ponds out of the TARDIS before closing the doors on an excited Amy and a very cross Rory. He then dashed back over to the console and before I could utter a word the TARDIS sprang to life and we were off leaving Amy and Rory stranded in Salem.

When the TARDIS finally quieted down I leapt to my feet to face the Doctor. What had gotten in to him? Was he seriously that injured that he had lost his godforsaken mind? He just stranded Amy and Rory in the middle of a rough period in time with no back up, just a watch that couldn't be much protection. The Doctor turned and looked at me with a huge boyish grin on his face. I could only stare at him wondering just how much blood he lost to make him act like this.

"Doctor are you sure you're okay? You just stranded you two best mates in the middle of a not so nice time period with dinky little watches are their protection. I know Amy is all for spur of the moment adventures, bless her, but Rory didn't seem too thrilled."

"Oh Rory the Roman will be fine! He has Amy to protect him if things get tough. Besides I needed to get them out of the way. Couldn't have them hanging around. You and I have a lot to discuss." He took my hand and led me away from the console room. I was just so flabbergasted that all I could do was follow.

He led me to the library and did not let go of my hand until both of us were settled on one of the main plush antique couches. I was a little nervous being alone with the Doctor after all that had just happened. Though I wasn't as cross as I originally was with him, I was still feeling very hurt and a bit betrayed. The Doctor seemed to be very nonchalant about this whole ordeal, like he had already forgotten what had transpired back at Greenwich Palace. He made a great show ever since we returned to the TARDIS of acting like nothing had changed. Even near death and possible regeneration he acted like this was all normal. Oh was he about to learn that he messed with the wrong Time Lady.

"Doctor, it's about time you start explaining yourself. I want honesty from you. I have so many questions that need answering and you're the only one who can give me answers. So start talking bow tie man."

The Doctor took both of my hands in his before he started speaking. He rubbed lazy circular patterns on my hands with his thumbs in an attempt to keep me calm. I was feeling anything but calm right now, and it was because he was treating this as some joke. "Kayden I am sorry, so sorry about what I had to do to you. I regret it even to this day, but it had to be done. My enemies would have never stopped hunting you, hunting us until they took you away from me."

"We could have handled it." I bit out hating the feeling of him painting me as a defenseless human; I was a Time Lady after all.

"Oh my brave Kayden Grey that's exactly what you told me after we returned to the TARDIS that day," a sad smile here and he squeezed my hands in his, "There was only so much the two of us could do, I knew the only way to keep you safe was to put you through the Chameleon Arch. I couldn't risk you losing your life because of me. You needed to live, and you had lived, still are."

"Doctor," I bit out with a warning tone in my voice, "who are you to decide all of this? Who died and appointed you God? Yes you're a Time Lord, the last of the Time Lords I get that. But that still gave you no right to do what you did even if it was to protect me. You feel like it's up to you to make decisions for everyone else without even consulting them. You took away the only life I ever knew and now you sit there saying that it was the only way and you had no other choice. Well here's a reality check, Time Lord, you are NOT God nor do you get to go around deciding peoples fates! It's unfair to them. You have no idea how used and betrayed I feel right now! You stole me away, showed me the most amazing things, then took it away like that." I wrenched my hands away from his and got up to pace around again. "You made me care about you, hell I STILL care about you, Doctor even though I feel like I shouldn't! You think its okay to go around and save people who are just as capable of being your equals and helping you. It's not up to you to play God, remember that."

The Doctor was up on his feet in an instant and stalked over to me looking so much like the Oncoming Storm that I felt my hearts skip a beat. I felt all of his emotions, such raw emotions, at that moment before he grabbed me and crushed me against him. I had to admit I was ready for a fight. I hit him where it hurt and he knew it. Hell hath no fury like a Time Lady scorned, and God knew I was scorned. I called him out and it was his turn for a comeback. I struggled to get out of grasp, but he wouldn't let me. He placed both of his hands on either side of my face and rested his forehead against mine. I stopped my struggling and felt my hearts begin to beat even faster. The thought of the Doctor kissing me crossed my mind so fast that I blushed like mad. Instead of him kissing me, however, I felt the same psychic connection against my mind like back in the palace.

"Don't you dare Kayden, don't you dare. You want to know what it was like for me after I took your memories, fine I'll show you then maybe you'll understand why it had to be done."

Memories began to swirl around me and the pressure against my skull became worse. I had to squeeze my eyes shut to keep from breaking the link and running away from the Doctor. I was transported back to that day on the TARDIS, when the Doctor stole my memories, and my heart. I was seeing everything through the Doctor's eyes, my Doctor. I saw myself unconscious being held against him. He was in that same blue suit that I remembered so well with the red trainers. His brown coat was tossed aside as he just held me then not wanting to let me go. I felt his emotions like I was the one who was experiencing them. Intense sadness, guilt, anger and regret. The Doctor could not believe what he had done to me though he knew it was the only way to keep me safe.

"My brilliant, brave Kayden Grey. I wish it didn't have to end this way. We've been through so much together; you and I and you'll remember it. In your dreams I'll be there and we'll go on such amazing adventures together and visit places you never even knew existed. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry that it had to end this way. Live well my beautiful girl and remember that I will always be there protecting you though you'll never see me. Dream of me as I know I'll dream of you and the times we've shared."

The Doctor released my mind with such force that my knees actually gave out on me. I would have hit the floor if he didn't still have that grip on me. I was crying now, I couldn't help it. No matter how cross I was with the Doctor, how betrayed and used I felt I knew he was being sincere in what he said to me. He was the reason I dreamed of him for four years, remembering all of the adventures we went on. That was his gift to me, his way of allowing me to keep him close though I didn't know who he was. It was the only gift he could give me to make up for taking away the only life I ever knew, the only life I grew to want to lead.

"You see Kayden," The Doctor whispered now though his voice was coated in fresh pain, "I had to do what I needed to keep you safe. You never knew I was there but I always went back to keep you safe. You have no idea how many enemies went to earth looking for ways to find you and make you their weapon against me. The only thing that kept you safe was the fact that your true Time Lady nature was hidden and you were once again human. That's why I did it. I did it because I cared so much about you and couldn't bear the thought of losing you to my enemies. I've lost too many friends, companions, and loved ones to the enemy and I'd be damned if you were going to be next."

Again the Doctor crushed me against him, just holding me as I cried. The pain I was feeling ran deeper than I could ever have imagined. Hurt and betrayal were nothing compared to the fact that the Doctor was being so brutally honest with me, something I never thought would happen. Again that's when it hit me that this man, though he was the same man I had fallen in love with, was entirely different from my Doctor. How could everything be the same with this man when I barely knew him? This wonderfully mad, complicated Time Lord who I knew everything about was the same wonderfully mad, complicated Time Lord whom I knew NOTHING about. It was then that I realized I couldn't do this. I couldn't have all these memories and be this person, this Time Lady when my Doctor was gone.

"Doctor," I began trying to sound strong but failing, "I-I can't do this. It's just too hard. I thought this was what I wanted but I've realized now that it isn't. I'm in love with a Time Lord who isn't even here anymore, my Doctor is gone. You're a complete stranger to me even though you're the same person. I just-take it away Doctor. I gladly consent this time, take the memories away and send me home, please?"

"No Kayden, I won't." The Doctor shook his head and forced me to look into his eyes which were blazing with so much emotion and so much that was left unsaid between us, "It tore me apart to lose you the first time and now that I have you back I'm not going to let you go again."

"You see Doctor, this is what I mean. You make the decisions for everyone when they're not yours to make. It is MY choice, and I choose to forget it all. Do it Doctor. I don't want to fight, I just want to forget."

"My brave Kayden Grey, why can't you realize that I can't and won't do that? I refuse to let you go ever again. Is this the way I wished things would have played out? No, it isn't. If it was up to me you would have gotten your memories back under entirely different circumstances. There's nothing I can do about that now, but I will not let you throw it all away. I AM the same person that you care about and love, trust me. And trust me when I tell you that I feel the absolute same way. I love you Kayden and I'm not going to let you do this." Any reply that I had was cut off by the Doctor crashing his lips against mine.
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