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I arrived back in New York around 6pm. I didn't bother to turn my cell phone back on until I was back in my apartment. I hit the power button, set the phone on the coffee table, and then carried my bags into the bedroom. I changed into one of Pete's old hoodies and some sweat pants before returning to my phone. I knew I needed to at least let Joe know I was okay. I'm sure he was worried by now.
I had a bunch of text messages and a couple voice mails.
Pete: please let me know when you make it home. i'm worried about you
Pete: i love you more than anything kiley
Pete: please call me when you get home
Joe: why is your phone off? call me damn it!
Patrick: Hey, Joe and Pete are freaking the fuck out. If you could at least let one of us know you're safe, that would be awesome.
Pete: please call or text me before the show. i'm so worried about you
Joe: youre pregnant!?!?!?!? you better fucking call me when you get off that plane
Jesus. They really were freaking out. I decided to call Joe. Their show wasn't for a couple more hours, so I should at least let them know I am home safe so they don't put on a shitty last show. I dialed Joe, not wanting to talk to Pete.
"About fucking time, sis!" Joe said into the phone I could hear Pete in the background asking a million questions.
"Well, I was on a plane, so I couldn't turn my phone on! I'm fine, I just got home. And yes, I'm pregnant."
"Are you okay?" Joe asked me. He knew all about the fights Pete and I had about waiting to have kids.
"Yes. I actually am really excited to have a baby. Once I heard the little heartbeat, I was sold. It's such a surreal feeling to know that I am growing a little human." I admitted honestly.
"I can't believe I'm going to be an uncle," Joe stated and I heard some shuffling.
"Kiley, I'm so glad you're okay." Pete said and I hung up. I couldn't talk to him right now. I turned on the TV and watched How I Met Your Mother reruns for about two hours before getting hungry. I walked into the kitchen only to realize that I'd been gone a couple of weeks and had nothing to eat. I walked into the bedroom and put on some skinny jeans, a big scarf and boots before grabbing my purse. I loved this Chinese place down the street, so I figured I'd grab something there and grocery shop tomorrow. I shut the door behind me and turned to lock it.
"Hey Kiley," Gabe's voice startled me.
"Oh fuck! You scared the shit out of me Gabe!" I said, my hand over my chest.
"Sorry," he said honestly.
"What are you doing here?" I asked.
"Pete asked me to come check on you."
"Figures," I replied sarcastically. "I'm grabbing some Chinese, wanna walk with me?"
"Of course." He said and we walked to the elevator and hopped on. "Do you want to talk about what happened?"
"I don't know. What did Pete tell you?" I was curious to know if Pete was being honest with people.
"That you two got into a huge fight and you left. Oh and that you are pregnant. Congrats on that, by the way." Gabe answered and gave me a sweet smile. He genuinely meant it.
"Thanks," I replied and the elevator doors opened. We walked out of the lobby and into the cold New York City night. Gabe held his arm out for me and I linked my arm through his, keeping warm. "Pete left out why we fought, doesn't surprise me."
"Why did you guys fight?"
"He's been talking with Sarah's friend. Some Meagan chick. Anyways, I came home from my secret doctor's appointment to find her confessing her love to Pete and she said how she would give him what I wouldn't."
"No fucking way, Pete wouldn't cheat on you." Gabe seemed in disbelief, but definitely believed I was telling the truth.
"He says he didn't. I believe that he didn't physically cheat on me. But he admitted to having feelings for her." I let out a sigh, still feeling the sting from Pete's admission.
"God damn. Yeah, he definitely left this information out."
"Yeah I asked him if he wanted her and he said not more than me. He also said to her that he was married 'still' when she confessed she wanted to be with him. Like it was a temporary situation."
"My god, Kiley, I'm so sorry," Gabe gave my hand that was on his arm a gentle squeeze.
"I wanted to kill that bitch. I threatened her to make her leave."
"Oh, I have no doubt you would have killed her."
"I wanted to. I was supposed to stay with Pete and go with him to Europe, but not anymore." We got to the restaurant and went inside. We both ordered food and Gabe paid for it. Such a gentleman. We walked back to my apartment and sat down in front of the TV and put some more How I Met Your Mother on Netflix and began talking again.
"Are you leaving Pete?" Gabe asked between bites.
I sighed. "I don't know. Knowing that he might have possibly left me for another woman is so painful. I'm not sure if I'll be able to get over it. Or trust him to even be friends with a girl ever again."
"That's understandable."
"I also fear that he's trying to hold on to our marriage now because I'm pregnant. I don't want to trap him because of the baby. That would almost be more painful than getting divorced." I said and Gabe nodded. We were silent for a minute, just eating and watching TV. In the episode, Ted is confessing that he still has feelings for Robin years after they've been broken up and it makes me think of Gabe and I. "Gabe?"
"Yeah?" He asks me.
"Do you ever wonder how your life would be different if we'd stayed engaged?" I took a bite of food, waiting for his answer.
"From time to time," he replied with an honest answer.
"Me too. Mainly when Pete and I have major blowouts, like this one. And at your wedding."
"Really?" He seemed surprised.
"Why?"
"I don't know, I always just assumed you were over me long ago. Like, completely over me, not that you aren't over me." He corrected himself.
"Gabe, I'll always have some feelings for you. You were my first fiance, you know?"
"True. I mean, you were the first girl that I really ever loved. Kinda explains why I rushed into getting engaged." Gabe's phone rang and he pulled it from his pocket. "It's Pete." He touched the screen and then put the phone to his ear. "Hey... yeah, I'm with her now... she's fine... I don't think she wants to." Gabe looked at me. "Pete wants to talk to you."
"Why? Is Meagan busy?" I replied bitterly, loud enough for Pete to hear.
"I assume you caught that... okay. I'll call you later." Gabe hung up the phone and looked back at me.
"What?"
"I hate seeing you this hurt," he admitted to me and I just nodded. I set my food on the coffee table and got up.
"I'll be right back," I said and I went into the bathroom. I put the lid down on the toilet, sat down and cried into my hands. I tried to be quiet but I must have failed, because Gabe came into the bathroom a minute later and pulled me into a big hug. After a few minutes, I pulled away and wiped my eyes. I looked up at Gabe and he kissed my forehead.
"I have to get home, but you call me or come over if you need anything at all. I mean anything. Doesn't matter what time, okay?"
"Okay." I replied with a nod. I walked Gabe to the door and said goodbye before locking it behind him. I noticed the notification light on my cell phone was blinking. I picked up my phone and opened the messages.
Pete: please talk to me. please
I decided to reply to him. I didn't want to hear his voice yet, but I could do text.
Kiley: why? is your girlfriend busy?
I felt like being bitter towards him.
Pete: she's not my girlfriend and i would never cheat on you. i love you
Kiley: well you suck at showing it then
Pete: i told meagan that nothing could ever happen with her. i want you kiley. only you
Kiley: funny how you only want me once i want space
Pete: i never stopped wanting you. i never intended on leaving you, i just wanted you to know how important these issues were to me
Kiley: so getting involved with the slut was just an accident? just happened to take place when you left me?
Pete: that happened after and for the record, she pursued me, not the other way around
Kiley: doesn't matter. you still have feelings for her.
Pete: barely.
I didn't reply. My phone beeped a few minutes later.
Pete: i'm flying to nyc in the morning
I didn't reply to that either. I honestly didn't know what I wanted to do with our situation. I just don't know how I'll ever be able to fully trust Pete again.
I arrived back in New York around 6pm. I didn't bother to turn my cell phone back on until I was back in my apartment. I hit the power button, set the phone on the coffee table, and then carried my bags into the bedroom. I changed into one of Pete's old hoodies and some sweat pants before returning to my phone. I knew I needed to at least let Joe know I was okay. I'm sure he was worried by now.
I had a bunch of text messages and a couple voice mails.
Pete: please let me know when you make it home. i'm worried about you
Pete: i love you more than anything kiley
Pete: please call me when you get home
Joe: why is your phone off? call me damn it!
Patrick: Hey, Joe and Pete are freaking the fuck out. If you could at least let one of us know you're safe, that would be awesome.
Pete: please call or text me before the show. i'm so worried about you
Joe: youre pregnant!?!?!?!? you better fucking call me when you get off that plane
Jesus. They really were freaking out. I decided to call Joe. Their show wasn't for a couple more hours, so I should at least let them know I am home safe so they don't put on a shitty last show. I dialed Joe, not wanting to talk to Pete.
"About fucking time, sis!" Joe said into the phone I could hear Pete in the background asking a million questions.
"Well, I was on a plane, so I couldn't turn my phone on! I'm fine, I just got home. And yes, I'm pregnant."
"Are you okay?" Joe asked me. He knew all about the fights Pete and I had about waiting to have kids.
"Yes. I actually am really excited to have a baby. Once I heard the little heartbeat, I was sold. It's such a surreal feeling to know that I am growing a little human." I admitted honestly.
"I can't believe I'm going to be an uncle," Joe stated and I heard some shuffling.
"Kiley, I'm so glad you're okay." Pete said and I hung up. I couldn't talk to him right now. I turned on the TV and watched How I Met Your Mother reruns for about two hours before getting hungry. I walked into the kitchen only to realize that I'd been gone a couple of weeks and had nothing to eat. I walked into the bedroom and put on some skinny jeans, a big scarf and boots before grabbing my purse. I loved this Chinese place down the street, so I figured I'd grab something there and grocery shop tomorrow. I shut the door behind me and turned to lock it.
"Hey Kiley," Gabe's voice startled me.
"Oh fuck! You scared the shit out of me Gabe!" I said, my hand over my chest.
"Sorry," he said honestly.
"What are you doing here?" I asked.
"Pete asked me to come check on you."
"Figures," I replied sarcastically. "I'm grabbing some Chinese, wanna walk with me?"
"Of course." He said and we walked to the elevator and hopped on. "Do you want to talk about what happened?"
"I don't know. What did Pete tell you?" I was curious to know if Pete was being honest with people.
"That you two got into a huge fight and you left. Oh and that you are pregnant. Congrats on that, by the way." Gabe answered and gave me a sweet smile. He genuinely meant it.
"Thanks," I replied and the elevator doors opened. We walked out of the lobby and into the cold New York City night. Gabe held his arm out for me and I linked my arm through his, keeping warm. "Pete left out why we fought, doesn't surprise me."
"Why did you guys fight?"
"He's been talking with Sarah's friend. Some Meagan chick. Anyways, I came home from my secret doctor's appointment to find her confessing her love to Pete and she said how she would give him what I wouldn't."
"No fucking way, Pete wouldn't cheat on you." Gabe seemed in disbelief, but definitely believed I was telling the truth.
"He says he didn't. I believe that he didn't physically cheat on me. But he admitted to having feelings for her." I let out a sigh, still feeling the sting from Pete's admission.
"God damn. Yeah, he definitely left this information out."
"Yeah I asked him if he wanted her and he said not more than me. He also said to her that he was married 'still' when she confessed she wanted to be with him. Like it was a temporary situation."
"My god, Kiley, I'm so sorry," Gabe gave my hand that was on his arm a gentle squeeze.
"I wanted to kill that bitch. I threatened her to make her leave."
"Oh, I have no doubt you would have killed her."
"I wanted to. I was supposed to stay with Pete and go with him to Europe, but not anymore." We got to the restaurant and went inside. We both ordered food and Gabe paid for it. Such a gentleman. We walked back to my apartment and sat down in front of the TV and put some more How I Met Your Mother on Netflix and began talking again.
"Are you leaving Pete?" Gabe asked between bites.
I sighed. "I don't know. Knowing that he might have possibly left me for another woman is so painful. I'm not sure if I'll be able to get over it. Or trust him to even be friends with a girl ever again."
"That's understandable."
"I also fear that he's trying to hold on to our marriage now because I'm pregnant. I don't want to trap him because of the baby. That would almost be more painful than getting divorced." I said and Gabe nodded. We were silent for a minute, just eating and watching TV. In the episode, Ted is confessing that he still has feelings for Robin years after they've been broken up and it makes me think of Gabe and I. "Gabe?"
"Yeah?" He asks me.
"Do you ever wonder how your life would be different if we'd stayed engaged?" I took a bite of food, waiting for his answer.
"From time to time," he replied with an honest answer.
"Me too. Mainly when Pete and I have major blowouts, like this one. And at your wedding."
"Really?" He seemed surprised.
"Why?"
"I don't know, I always just assumed you were over me long ago. Like, completely over me, not that you aren't over me." He corrected himself.
"Gabe, I'll always have some feelings for you. You were my first fiance, you know?"
"True. I mean, you were the first girl that I really ever loved. Kinda explains why I rushed into getting engaged." Gabe's phone rang and he pulled it from his pocket. "It's Pete." He touched the screen and then put the phone to his ear. "Hey... yeah, I'm with her now... she's fine... I don't think she wants to." Gabe looked at me. "Pete wants to talk to you."
"Why? Is Meagan busy?" I replied bitterly, loud enough for Pete to hear.
"I assume you caught that... okay. I'll call you later." Gabe hung up the phone and looked back at me.
"What?"
"I hate seeing you this hurt," he admitted to me and I just nodded. I set my food on the coffee table and got up.
"I'll be right back," I said and I went into the bathroom. I put the lid down on the toilet, sat down and cried into my hands. I tried to be quiet but I must have failed, because Gabe came into the bathroom a minute later and pulled me into a big hug. After a few minutes, I pulled away and wiped my eyes. I looked up at Gabe and he kissed my forehead.
"I have to get home, but you call me or come over if you need anything at all. I mean anything. Doesn't matter what time, okay?"
"Okay." I replied with a nod. I walked Gabe to the door and said goodbye before locking it behind him. I noticed the notification light on my cell phone was blinking. I picked up my phone and opened the messages.
Pete: please talk to me. please
I decided to reply to him. I didn't want to hear his voice yet, but I could do text.
Kiley: why? is your girlfriend busy?
I felt like being bitter towards him.
Pete: she's not my girlfriend and i would never cheat on you. i love you
Kiley: well you suck at showing it then
Pete: i told meagan that nothing could ever happen with her. i want you kiley. only you
Kiley: funny how you only want me once i want space
Pete: i never stopped wanting you. i never intended on leaving you, i just wanted you to know how important these issues were to me
Kiley: so getting involved with the slut was just an accident? just happened to take place when you left me?
Pete: that happened after and for the record, she pursued me, not the other way around
Kiley: doesn't matter. you still have feelings for her.
Pete: barely.
I didn't reply. My phone beeped a few minutes later.
Pete: i'm flying to nyc in the morning
I didn't reply to that either. I honestly didn't know what I wanted to do with our situation. I just don't know how I'll ever be able to fully trust Pete again.
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