FicWad

What does it matter anymore?
I’m nothing, a failure,
I fuck up, I can’t help it,
I’m scared, terrified,
Dead inside,
Numb,
Yet, somehow, feeling everything,
Oh, why does no one see this?
Am I supposed to see that when I turn out the lights?
I don’t want to die,
I don’t want to,
But, how the fuck am I supposed to live like this?
Wishing constantly for a razors kiss,
For a friction burn,
For a bottle,
Some pills.
Fuck this shit.
Fuck it all.
But, seriously,
I’m not insane,
There’s nothing wrong with me,
I’m fine,
I laugh,
Laugh,
Laugh,
You’re delusional, surely,
Because I’m fucking fine.