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the beginning of the end
frank and gerard have been close friends since they were little and frank has always had a soft spot for mikey (gee's little brother) now that they're older, frank cant control his feelings, or his...
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hiya guys, new story time i guess, just to let you all know, this story contains self harm and eating disorders, some parts get kinda touchy but don't worry, it all gets better.
chapter one
franks p.o.v
The warm autumn breeze blows around me, carrying a whirlwind of colourful leaves spinning around the floor and across my tattered converses. i sigh quietly to myself as i take a long drag of my cigarette and feel the smoke burning at my lungs. i look up and see gee's house just a couple of minutes away so i take a last drag and throw the cigarette butt on the pavement and grind it with the heel of my shoe. i walk up the pathway to their front door and knock quietly, i shuffle my feet and gently chew on my lip ring as i wait for either of the way brothers to open the door. it creaks open and im pounced upon by mikey, as he flings his arms around my neck, my heart jumps in my chest so i wrap my arms back around his skinny frame and hold him close to me, "hiya frankie" he whispers, i smile and whisper into his jumper "hiya mikes" he pulls away and pulls me inside, slams the door behind us and turns to me as if he is about to say something but then i hear a loud shout from the end of the hall and i turn to see gee rushing towards me. He jumps on me and i fall backwards onto mikey and we all end up in a heap on the floor and everything goes quiet... mikey giggles and thats it, we all start laughing and rolling around on the floor. At some point, mikeys hand brushes against my thigh and i freeze and look at him, he just smiles innocently at me, that fucker! i pounce on him and start to tickle him, gee see's what im doing and joins in. pretty soon we have mikey in hysterics, we stop after a while and let him sit up to catch his breath and wipe the tears from his eyes and sort his glasses out. We all look at each other, red faced and smiling, then head towards the kitchen for a much needed drink. We stand in the kitchen as gee pours coffee into mugs and when he pours the hot water in, all i can smell is heaven. he passes me mine and hands mikey his and we all just stand for a moment, inhaling the scent of complete perfection that surrounds us. mikey suddenly giggles and walks over to the cupboard and pulls out a box of pumpkin pop tarts, my absolute favourite, he puts them in the toaster and looks at me, i look into his eyes and see sadness there, and hurt. I wonder why, my blood suddenly runs cold and i wonder if he's figured out my secret... well, one of them. He couldn't have, i've kept it hidden so well, the baggy clothes, the not eating around them, hmm... I'm about to ask him when suddenly a pop tart appears before me and i look up into mikeys pleading eyes, "please eat it frankie, i'm worried about you" i look at him. My heart is pounding so loud i'm afraid that they are going to hear it. i cant, i cant eat it but mikeys pleading look is melting my heart, i look over at gee and see the same kind of look, i wonder if they really know. i pick up the poptart and take a tiny bite, mikey gives me a small smile and i manage to eat half of it before i say, " i'm full dudes, i had a massive breakfast before i came over" they look at me as i place the half eaten pop tart on the counter, "just gonna go to the bathroom guys, be back soon" i head off down the hall and enter their bathroom and lock the door behind me and sink to the floor. i crawl over to the porcelain white toilet and lift the rim with shaky hands, i cant keep doing this i tell myself, its destroying me yet i cant seem to stop, its uncontrollable, it controls me. i stick my fingers shakily down my throat and bring up the half eaten pop tart and carry on to make sure there is nothing left and as usual thats when the blood starts coming up and i feel so dizzy i have to stop. i flush the chain and lean my head forward onto the rim of the toilet lid. i wait for the room to stop spinning and stand up slowly, i make my way over to the sink and wash my hands, dry them off and take a deep breath, i unlock the door and jump slightly when i see mikey standing there with tears streaming down his face "why frankie?"
gerard's p.o.v
After we watch frankie walk away to the bathroom and lock the door, mikey turns to me and i can see a look of confusion and hurt in his eyes, "whats wrong mikes, what is it?" i put my hand on his shoulder as i see the tears spring to his eyes, threatening to spill over. he takes his glasses off and rubs his eyes, taking deep, shuddering breaths. "frankies killing himself gee, i know he is! hes not been eating and he goes straight to the bathroom after he manages to eat anything at all! hes all bones now and hes been hiding it under the fucking baggy clothes, i love him gee and i cant stop him hurting!" with this confession, he sinks to the floor and i crouch down next to him and pull him into a hug, as his sobs fade into hiccups, i wipe his tears away and pull him up from the floor and look him in the eye, "i know you love him mikes, i've always known and i know he loves you too, you should go try talk to him" i give him a small smile and hug him gently, i watch him walk down the hall and go pour myself another mug of amazingness and take it into the lounge. i sit down on our old leather couch and let myself sink into the softness and drink my coffee quietly, i can hear quiet talking and crying coming from the hallway, i place my coffee cup down and place my head in my hands and sigh, i know what frankie has been doing and i havent said anything to him, i should have, and im pretty sure that throwing up isnt the only thing he's been doing as he always wears long sleeves and hoodies now. i close my eyes as i feel the tears forming, i force myself to breathe deeply and calm down, i am not gong to let them see me being weak, i need to be strong for them, i cant break again. i open my eyes and look back towards the kitchen, i can still hear muffled voices but the crying seems to have stopped. i pull myself up from the couch and take my empty coffee cup back to the kitchen and drop it in the sink. i make my way towards the bathroom but stop as i see mikey and frank cuddling on the floor, leaning up against the wall. i could see frankie shaking from here, and mikey stroking through franks hair gently and whispering to him, he catches my eyes and gives me a sad smile. i return the smile and head back towards the living room to leave them to their minute alone, i hope that they are happy and that neither of them gets hurt, i really hope that it works.
mikeys p.o.v
i walk towards the bathroom, not knowing what to expect and i pause outside the door , wondering if i should knock or wait. im about to knock on the door quietly when i hear the lock unlatch and then the door opens and i see frankie, he looks so frail and weak that i cant stop the tears coming to my eyes, "why frankie" i say as the tears fall down my face. he looks up at me and falls to the floor, i quickly put my arms around him and fall to the floor with him, keeping him close to me. His eyes begin to open and his eyes meet mine, he smiles lightly, "im sorry mikes, im so f..fucking sorry!!" he begins to sob and i hold him tight against me as he buries his head in my chest and tries to breathe steadily. i put my hand gently under his chin and lift his face up so i can see him, "frankie" i say quietly "i love you." i close my eyes as i wait to hear the rejection but i am taken aback and shocked when i feel his breath so close to my face, i open my eyes and i see frankie. Hes looking at me and his lips are a fraction of a centimetre away and that perfect little pink pout is so tempting but i wait, he puts his arms around my neck and whispers "i love you too mikes" and with that our lips connect, i close my eyes and pull him close as fireworks start to burn inside. i pull away and look at him "be mine frankie?" i say and he nods and hides his face in my chest and i realise that he is shaking so i wrap my arms tighter around him and hold him. i look up and see gee standing in the hallway and i give him a small smile and he smiles back before heading back to the kitchen. i turn my attention back to frankie and sigh 'i am going to get you through this' i think to myself as i realise that the small body pressed against mine is my whole world, he always has been and i am not going to lose him, i cant, because if i lose him, there will be nothing left of me. i gently lift frankie up, he has fallen asleep against me, he must be exhausted. so i carry him down the hall and as i enter the kitchen gee looks at me and looks at frankie in my arms and smiles before motioning for me to follow him to the lounge. he moves some of the cushions and i place frankie down and cover him with a blanket. i place a light kiss on his forehead and turn around to face gee and he is smiling at me, i walk up to him and hug him tightly. he wraps his arms around me and whispers " we will help him mikes, it will be ok"
well guys i hope you liked the first chapter, plenty more to come so yeah :) much loves for you all -rockerchick4life-
chapter one
franks p.o.v
The warm autumn breeze blows around me, carrying a whirlwind of colourful leaves spinning around the floor and across my tattered converses. i sigh quietly to myself as i take a long drag of my cigarette and feel the smoke burning at my lungs. i look up and see gee's house just a couple of minutes away so i take a last drag and throw the cigarette butt on the pavement and grind it with the heel of my shoe. i walk up the pathway to their front door and knock quietly, i shuffle my feet and gently chew on my lip ring as i wait for either of the way brothers to open the door. it creaks open and im pounced upon by mikey, as he flings his arms around my neck, my heart jumps in my chest so i wrap my arms back around his skinny frame and hold him close to me, "hiya frankie" he whispers, i smile and whisper into his jumper "hiya mikes" he pulls away and pulls me inside, slams the door behind us and turns to me as if he is about to say something but then i hear a loud shout from the end of the hall and i turn to see gee rushing towards me. He jumps on me and i fall backwards onto mikey and we all end up in a heap on the floor and everything goes quiet... mikey giggles and thats it, we all start laughing and rolling around on the floor. At some point, mikeys hand brushes against my thigh and i freeze and look at him, he just smiles innocently at me, that fucker! i pounce on him and start to tickle him, gee see's what im doing and joins in. pretty soon we have mikey in hysterics, we stop after a while and let him sit up to catch his breath and wipe the tears from his eyes and sort his glasses out. We all look at each other, red faced and smiling, then head towards the kitchen for a much needed drink. We stand in the kitchen as gee pours coffee into mugs and when he pours the hot water in, all i can smell is heaven. he passes me mine and hands mikey his and we all just stand for a moment, inhaling the scent of complete perfection that surrounds us. mikey suddenly giggles and walks over to the cupboard and pulls out a box of pumpkin pop tarts, my absolute favourite, he puts them in the toaster and looks at me, i look into his eyes and see sadness there, and hurt. I wonder why, my blood suddenly runs cold and i wonder if he's figured out my secret... well, one of them. He couldn't have, i've kept it hidden so well, the baggy clothes, the not eating around them, hmm... I'm about to ask him when suddenly a pop tart appears before me and i look up into mikeys pleading eyes, "please eat it frankie, i'm worried about you" i look at him. My heart is pounding so loud i'm afraid that they are going to hear it. i cant, i cant eat it but mikeys pleading look is melting my heart, i look over at gee and see the same kind of look, i wonder if they really know. i pick up the poptart and take a tiny bite, mikey gives me a small smile and i manage to eat half of it before i say, " i'm full dudes, i had a massive breakfast before i came over" they look at me as i place the half eaten pop tart on the counter, "just gonna go to the bathroom guys, be back soon" i head off down the hall and enter their bathroom and lock the door behind me and sink to the floor. i crawl over to the porcelain white toilet and lift the rim with shaky hands, i cant keep doing this i tell myself, its destroying me yet i cant seem to stop, its uncontrollable, it controls me. i stick my fingers shakily down my throat and bring up the half eaten pop tart and carry on to make sure there is nothing left and as usual thats when the blood starts coming up and i feel so dizzy i have to stop. i flush the chain and lean my head forward onto the rim of the toilet lid. i wait for the room to stop spinning and stand up slowly, i make my way over to the sink and wash my hands, dry them off and take a deep breath, i unlock the door and jump slightly when i see mikey standing there with tears streaming down his face "why frankie?"
gerard's p.o.v
After we watch frankie walk away to the bathroom and lock the door, mikey turns to me and i can see a look of confusion and hurt in his eyes, "whats wrong mikes, what is it?" i put my hand on his shoulder as i see the tears spring to his eyes, threatening to spill over. he takes his glasses off and rubs his eyes, taking deep, shuddering breaths. "frankies killing himself gee, i know he is! hes not been eating and he goes straight to the bathroom after he manages to eat anything at all! hes all bones now and hes been hiding it under the fucking baggy clothes, i love him gee and i cant stop him hurting!" with this confession, he sinks to the floor and i crouch down next to him and pull him into a hug, as his sobs fade into hiccups, i wipe his tears away and pull him up from the floor and look him in the eye, "i know you love him mikes, i've always known and i know he loves you too, you should go try talk to him" i give him a small smile and hug him gently, i watch him walk down the hall and go pour myself another mug of amazingness and take it into the lounge. i sit down on our old leather couch and let myself sink into the softness and drink my coffee quietly, i can hear quiet talking and crying coming from the hallway, i place my coffee cup down and place my head in my hands and sigh, i know what frankie has been doing and i havent said anything to him, i should have, and im pretty sure that throwing up isnt the only thing he's been doing as he always wears long sleeves and hoodies now. i close my eyes as i feel the tears forming, i force myself to breathe deeply and calm down, i am not gong to let them see me being weak, i need to be strong for them, i cant break again. i open my eyes and look back towards the kitchen, i can still hear muffled voices but the crying seems to have stopped. i pull myself up from the couch and take my empty coffee cup back to the kitchen and drop it in the sink. i make my way towards the bathroom but stop as i see mikey and frank cuddling on the floor, leaning up against the wall. i could see frankie shaking from here, and mikey stroking through franks hair gently and whispering to him, he catches my eyes and gives me a sad smile. i return the smile and head back towards the living room to leave them to their minute alone, i hope that they are happy and that neither of them gets hurt, i really hope that it works.
mikeys p.o.v
i walk towards the bathroom, not knowing what to expect and i pause outside the door , wondering if i should knock or wait. im about to knock on the door quietly when i hear the lock unlatch and then the door opens and i see frankie, he looks so frail and weak that i cant stop the tears coming to my eyes, "why frankie" i say as the tears fall down my face. he looks up at me and falls to the floor, i quickly put my arms around him and fall to the floor with him, keeping him close to me. His eyes begin to open and his eyes meet mine, he smiles lightly, "im sorry mikes, im so f..fucking sorry!!" he begins to sob and i hold him tight against me as he buries his head in my chest and tries to breathe steadily. i put my hand gently under his chin and lift his face up so i can see him, "frankie" i say quietly "i love you." i close my eyes as i wait to hear the rejection but i am taken aback and shocked when i feel his breath so close to my face, i open my eyes and i see frankie. Hes looking at me and his lips are a fraction of a centimetre away and that perfect little pink pout is so tempting but i wait, he puts his arms around my neck and whispers "i love you too mikes" and with that our lips connect, i close my eyes and pull him close as fireworks start to burn inside. i pull away and look at him "be mine frankie?" i say and he nods and hides his face in my chest and i realise that he is shaking so i wrap my arms tighter around him and hold him. i look up and see gee standing in the hallway and i give him a small smile and he smiles back before heading back to the kitchen. i turn my attention back to frankie and sigh 'i am going to get you through this' i think to myself as i realise that the small body pressed against mine is my whole world, he always has been and i am not going to lose him, i cant, because if i lose him, there will be nothing left of me. i gently lift frankie up, he has fallen asleep against me, he must be exhausted. so i carry him down the hall and as i enter the kitchen gee looks at me and looks at frankie in my arms and smiles before motioning for me to follow him to the lounge. he moves some of the cushions and i place frankie down and cover him with a blanket. i place a light kiss on his forehead and turn around to face gee and he is smiling at me, i walk up to him and hug him tightly. he wraps his arms around me and whispers " we will help him mikes, it will be ok"
well guys i hope you liked the first chapter, plenty more to come so yeah :) much loves for you all -rockerchick4life-
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