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The day after we got married most people were headed home. All the extended family and friends had plans to fly back home that day. Mom and Ryan were also planning on leaving that morning. Peter and Dale weren’t leaving until the day after. That’s when we would be leaving too.

They helped Rose and her team clean up the mess from the night before. Both Dale and Amy tried to keep me from helping. They didn’t want me to do too much because of the babies.

All I heard from them was “Grace, you can’t lift that, think of the babies.” Or “No, you need to go sit down. I’ve got this.” Or “You need to stop thinking you can still do everything. You can’t. Remember the babies.” It was frustrating. I was healthy and had been told by my doctor that I could do all the normal stuff. I got fed up and ended up walking away from the house to get away from them. If they wanted to make more work for themselves, so be it.

Pete found me a little while later. I was in my favorite spot.

“Hey Baby, why’re you hiding out here?” He asked as he sat beside me.

I gave a frustrated huff and said, “Needed to get out of the way. They won’t let me do anything. It’s like now they know it’s twins, I’m just supposed to sit and do nothing. I can’t handle that. I’m pregnant, not disabled.”

“Well, we only have today and then we go home tomorrow. I know you’re not disabled. You’re gonna be running circles around me and the kids all while you’re eight months pregnant with twins. And not only will you have more energy than us, you’re gonna be beautiful and sexy while you do it. They both just want you to relax and take it easy. They want the best for you.”

“I know that. That’s why I’m so frustrated! I know there’s gonna be a time that I won’t be able to do everything I normally can. But I’m not there yet. I’m not even halfway through the pregnancy.” I looked at him hoping he would have some magical answer.

All he could do was smile and say, “I know Baby, I know. We’re going home tomorrow. And you only have to deal with Mom and Amy for a few more hours.”

“I love it here. But I’m ready to go home.” I told him.

This statement surprised him. “The Girl in the Moon actually wants to be home and not traveling, having adventures?” He teased me.

“This Girl in the Moon wants to just be with her husband and kids. And not with her overly excited and caring Mothers.” I told him with a small smile.

He grinned at being called my husband. “Tomorrow. Once we get on the plane it’ll just be us. We’ll go home and get ready for the twins. We’ll travel as we want. And until you tell me you can’t do something, I won’t tell you to stop. You know your body best. All I ask is that you listen to it. I think it’s been so long since any of the moms have been pregnant they’ve forgotten what it feels like.” And then he chuckled.

“I want the privacy of our room at home. I’m so… “ I sighed heavily. “I’ve hit the stage in the pregnancy where I’m always horney. I just want to fuck you all the time. All. The. Time. More than normal. And I already have a hard time keeping my hands off you.” This was another part of my frustration. The hormones were hitting me hard. I already found him irresistible. But the last few days I just could not get enough of him.

He barked out his big hearty laugh. “Oh, Baby, that’s not a problem.” He reached up and cupped my cheek, running his thumb over my cheekbone. “I’ll gladly fuck you anytime you need me to. Anytime, you just have to let me know.” He gave me his ‘I’m going to ravish you’ look. “Ya know, we could sneak back to the house right now if you want.” He leaned in and kissed me. That only made it worse. I know I moaned into his lips.

“No, everyone’s there. And I can’t take you out to the back pasture because they’re cleaning it up.” I was letting myself get frustrated again. I was picking at the grass aggressively.

“Hey, stop.” He reached over and placed his hand on mine. “Come on, I can help you right now. Let me make you feel good.” He said before he kissed me again.

I didn’t answer, I just nodded my head. I needed his attention. He stood up and offered me his hand. I’m glad he did, I needed the help getting off the ground.

“Come on my wild, adventurous, fearless, cowgirl. Let me take care of you.” He led me back further into the wooded area.

When we were far enough from the house that we couldn’t hear anyone, he found a place where we could have some privacy. He found a fallen tree that made a good seat. He sat and pulled me into his lap. He kissed and touched me in a way that didn’t take me long to be ready for him. Pushing me off his lap he quickly pulled down my leggings and panties just far enough to give him access. He unzipped his jeans and pulled them down enough to give me access.

“Like this. Come on.” He turned me around and pulled me back into his lap. “Save a horse, I’m your cowboy after all.”

I was on him faster than a bee to honey. He kept his word and he made me feel good. I did feel better after an orgasm. I wasn’t fully satisfied, but I wasn’t as frustrated.

We headed back to the house and I slipped upstairs. I needed more time away from Amy and Dale. I was glad Mom had already left. I know they meant well, but I was more than an incubator. I didn’t want to be treated like one.

I went back downstairs when I heard Rose’s truck pulling out of the driveway. I headed to the kitchen since it seemed that was where everyone was.

“Mom, can we go play in the fort for the rest of the day?” Saint asked as soon as I entered the room.

“Have you finished lunch and your school work yet?” I asked him.

“Yeah, all of my school work’s done.” He told me and then shoved the last of his sandwich in his mouth. As soon as he could, he swallowed and said, “and lunch is done.”

I smiled at him and said, “Then go play.”

Marvel looked at me and before she could ask I said, “Yes, you too Miss. Marvelous. Go play.”

Pete watched as I sent the kids off to play. They weren’t going to get the chance to play here for a long time. They may as well enjoy it as much as possible. Amy and Dale fussed over me and wanted me to eat lunch. I allowed them to make me something and I ate it.

But as soon as I was done I told the table I was tired and was going to lay down. I gave Pete a look and hoped he would follow me. I didn’t want to sleep, I just wanted to be away from the parents.

Pete did follow me. He seemed to want as much time together as I did. I had no intention of napping. I wanted to get us packed and ready to go. Pete had other ideas.

“Come here, let me take care of you the right way. No rushing in the woods.” He took the shirt I had in my hands away from me and kissed me softly. He did take care of me. By the time we were done, I finally felt like I didn’t need to fuck him right than and there.

We did finish packing our bags and got the kids things all packed up to. That night I made all the kids bathe and get their clothes for the next day ready. We also did a walkthrough of the house to make sure we didn’t leave anything behind.

We put the little kids to bed early. We had an early start the next morning. I also encouraged Bronx to head to bed early. He decided that was a good idea and didn’t stay up too late. I said all my thank yous and goodbyes to Dad and Amy as well as to Peter and Dale. As frustrated as I had been with them, I was still extremely grateful to them. We had had a wonderful week together. And I know the wedding never would have happened without them.

Pete and I headed to bed also. I was tired, but not yet ready to sleep. What I really wanted was him, again. But he’s not a teenager and I didn’t want to ask again. I did want, and asked for cuddles. I needed his touch anyway I could get it.

We were puttering around the room getting ready for bed and making sure everything was put away. He had a bag that he pulled a small jar out of.

“I asked Mom to pick this up for you today when she and Dad ran into town. It’s for your growing baby bump. Now that you're starting to show, I thought you could use it.” Pete said as he handed me the jar. It was a cream with shea butter, coconut oil, and other oils and butters that are good for the skin. This stuff said it could help keep you from getting stretch marks.

“That’s very thoughtful of you. Thank you.” I said as I took it from him.

“Let me rub it on you. Come on, get comfortable on the bed.”

I got comfortable and lifted my tee shirt up and pulled down the waistband of my shorts. He got on the bed next to me and opened the jar. His big, warm, calloused but gentle hands slowly rubbed the cream into the skin that was showing proof of the new lives growing underneath it.

“That feels really good.” I told him. It was very relaxing.

“I thought you might like it.” He said quietly.

I suddenly realized that he had done this before. For the first time I was jealous that I wasn’t the first. All of these things that I was going through were a first for me, but not for him. I knew that. Of course I knew that. And until then, I had been grateful he knew what he was doing. But I could never be the first for him and for some reason, that hurt me.

I was brooding over that as his hands wandered over the baby bump. “I know this is going to sound horrible, but I wish I wasn’t the only one that this was all new to. I wish some of this could be new for you too.” I blurted out.

His hands stopped and he looked up at my face. The look he flashed me let me know that had hurt him. “Honey, I'm sorry...” he started to say, but I cut him off.

“Don’t. Don’t you dare apologize for having a life before we met. And really, for the most part, I’ve been glad you knew what to expect. But, there isn’t anything new for just us. I’m the only one that hasn’t done this before. And all of a sudden, I realized that. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to hurt you. You didn’t do anything wrong. I just need to get over myself. I’m sorry.”

“No, don’t be. I’m glad you said something. I, I think, I think I would feel the same if our roles were reversed. But, each pregnancy is different. Each one has its own unique things. We’ll still have some firsts together. Twins are a first for me. We do have that. I hope you know how excited and happy I am.” He sounded hurt, but more like he was hurt that he couldn’t give me what I wished for.

I nodded and said, “I know you’re happy and excited. I know that. I’m not questioning that at all. I’m just letting my jealousy and feelings of inadequacy get to me. I’m sorry, I’ll try to keep them under control.”

His hands were still on me and I didn’t want to be touched anymore. “Thank you for rubbing the cream on me. Let me have it and I’ll put it in my bag.” I held out my hand to him.

“It’s ok, I’ll put it away.” He said and got off the bed. He put it in his toiletries bag. I pulled my shirt down and the waistband up. I rolled over to my side facing away from him.

He got in bed next to me and spooned me. “You have nothing to be jealous about. I’m in love with you. Only you. I wish I had met you twenty years ago and we had all the firsts together. I’m sorry.” He said into my shoulder. Then he kissed me lightly on the back of my neck. Then he slipped an arm around me and his hand rested on the babies.

“Don’t be sorry. You have nothing to be sorry about. I’m just being a whiny little bitch. Don’t mind me.” I was trying to play it off, but really I wanted to cry about it. I had no reason to be upset or jealous. But I was and I couldn’t help it.

He gently rubbed over the twins. “Still, I’m sorry this isn’t the experience you wanted.”

As his hand continued to rub, I felt something. A fluttering feeling just under his hand. I gasped. “Did you feel that?!” I asked him.

His hand stilled, “No, did you feel them?” He asked excitedly.

I put my hand over his and kept it over the spot I had felt movement. “Right here. I think it was Jupiter. I don’t think they’ve switched places in there. Oh! There it is again.”

He spread his fingers out to feel more. “Oh, I felt that, I think, maybe. It was so little and soft. Barely there.” He whispered, sounding completely in awe. He leaned up and over me so his face was close to the babies. “Hello in there. Jupiter, don't kick your Mom too hard. And don’t fight with your sister. She doesn’t have much room either. I can’t wait to meet you both. I love you guys so much already. And your Mom, she’s been waiting a long time for you two. And she’s fucking amazing. I hope you two get her sense of adventure, and her fearlessness. She’s such a badass. She faced down a mountain lion to protect me and your brothers and sister.”

I rolled back over so he could talk to them a bit more comfortably. He didn’t move his hand at all, just moved with me. He continued to talk to the twins telling them about their brothers and sister. I fell asleep as he talked to them.

I woke up the next morning in a much better mood. I was still dealing with the ugly green monster called jealousy, but I had gotten control over my emotions. I wasn’t going to let it show again. He apologized for something that neither of us could control and I didn’t want him to feel like he needed to do that.

Before we left the room to get ready to leave, I apologized to him for the night before.

“Pete, I’m so sorry about last night. I shouldn’t have said anything to you about how I was feeling. There isn’t anything that can change the past. I just have to deal with my own emotions. I’m sorry I put them on you.” I told him sincerely. I was sorry I had said anything.

“No, don’t be sorry. I want you to tell me how you’re feeling. Even if I don’t like hearing it. And I am sorry you feel like we won’t have any firsts. We will, I promise you that. Last night was a first for me. I’ve never felt movement so early. It was the first time you felt them, wasn’t it?”

“Yes it was. I wasn’t sure if you’d feel it. But I’m happy you did.”

“See? That’s a first we have together. Grace, I’m sorry this isn’t the experience you want. I promise you I’ll do anything I can to make it as good for you as possible.”

“Stop, I don’t need you to apologize. Really I don’t. You’ve been fantastic through all of this. Absolutely amazing. And I can’t imagine having babies with anyone else. I really can’t. So I promise to try to keep my insecurities under control. I shouldn’t have let it get to me. Forgive me?”

The love that was showing in his eyes was all I needed. He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me tight. “Nothing to forgive. And remember, I only want you. No one else. Just you.” He said in my ear before kissing my neck. We were good.

We left Dads place pretty early as we had an early flight. Peter and Dale were going to leave after us since their flight was later in the day. I am grateful that our parents got along so well. Maybe this will mean holidays can be with everyone and not split up. I had that as a kid and I never liked it. One year with one set of grandparents the next with the other. Or even worse, all of them in one house at the same time. Mom’s mom and Grandma Ellen did not like each other.

The trip home was thankfully uneventful. No delays, no meltdowns from the kids. The car was still in the lot when we got there. We headed home and were so ready to be home. Bronx would be going back to his Moms the next day.

The next morning before Ashlee came to pick him up, Bronx came up to me with a few memory cards in his hand.

“Moon, these are for you. A bunch of us filmed all week last week. I knew you were going to be busy and that you weren’t too sure how much of the lead up to and the wedding you were gonna film. So I got a few others to help me out and we filmed a bunch for you. Andy and Meredith did a lot of it. But Joe and Uncle Scott helped too. And I got a bunch from the reception. Marie filmed the wedding. I put all of it on these for you.” He told me as he put the memory cards in my hands. “And I asked everyone to send me any pictures they took too. I have a bunch that I’ll email you.”

“Bronx, you didn’t have to do that. But thank you very much for thinking of it.” I told him.

“You need to share this on your channel. I’ve been reading the comments and everyone wants to see the wedding. You have to share even though it’s personal.”

“I’ll look through the footage and see what I’m comfortable sharing. Thank you for giving me so many options.” I put all the memory cards in my pocket to keep them safe. “You all ready to head to your Mom’s?” I asked him.

“Yeah, I think so. But I’ll be back next week since nobody’s traveling. Makes it easy to go back and forth.” He said. “Are we gonna go on an adventure next weekend?” He asked.

“I don’t know. I’ll see what I can figure out for us to do.” I told him with a smile.

Ashlee arrived fairly early. She missed her son and wanted to see him. She greeted Pete and I warmly with lots of congratulations. She had told us she was very happy for us and she thought I was a great stepmother to Bronx.

After Bronx left, Saint was logged into his school for the day. Pete had dropped Marvel off at kindergarten. I took all the footage Bronx had given me and started going through it all. He had hours and hours of video. Somehow, they had managed to film almost everything. Including some very sweet interactions between me and Pete, our parents and us, and us and the kids. I decided to make a wedding post on the channel. It took me a few days to get it all edited.

When I had the video ready I filmed an intro.

“Hello everyone! If you’re new here, welcome! If you’ve been here before, welcome back! I’m Moom and this is my channel Adventures with Girl in the Moon.” I started the introduction.

“So the big adventure the family and I have been on the past few weeks was flying to South Carolina and having the wedding. Yes, it’s official, Pete and I are married. We got married on my father’s farm. We had a great time. I didn’t film very much the week leading up to the wedding or the wedding. I was a little busy. But, my awesome step son Bronx did and he got a bunch of our family and friends to film for me. What you’ll see next is some of that footage.”

I had put together a condensed version of the week before the wedding and then the wedding day. I did leave in most of the actual ceremony. In some ways I was claiming Pete. He was my husband now. Many of my new viewers were there because of him.

I also filmed the closing of my video to also announce not only my pregnancy but that we’re having twins.

“So, that was the wedding. And I’m sure some of you heard it in the video, but in case you missed it, I’m also pregnant, with twins. I hadn’t said anything on here for a few reasons. But, I’m in the second trimester so I feel safe announcing it. I’m due in February but I’m sure they will arrive sooner than that.

Until next time, be good to yourself, be good to others, be positive, and go live your own adventures. Bye everyone.”

I posted the video the Sunday after we got home. The views and the comments on it were the most I’ve ever had on any video before. Most of the comments were good wishes, congratulations, and the like. Lots of questions and suggestions on names. And speculations on the genders.

We fell into a routine of everyday life. The kids either went to school or did online. Bronx did a mix, Marvel went to school, and Saint did online. Pete worked a lot, and was very busy. The man's brain never shut off. I would find him working at all hours of the day or night. Sometimes you just have to get the ideas out. I know he had been sending lyrics to Patrick. The band was already working on a new album. I worked too, and the babies grew and grew. We took the kids and still went hiking, and traveling around the Southwest. We kept the adventures closer to home mostly because after a few hours, I was uncomfortable sitting or driving.

Before I knew it, it was almost Halloween. The holidays were coming and we were getting requests from the families about where and how we wanted to celebrate. I knew I was not going to be able to travel anywhere by the time Christmas came. But, I also didn’t want a full house of guests.