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Well, looks like my attempt did not work. All that happened was me falling asleep after taking those pills. Anyways, I can then at least talk about some stuff that happened before I tried to kill myself. And no, the stuff I am going to write down is NOT the reason why I tried to kill myself.
For example, I had a bunch of dreams. Like me being a sniper (well, actually police officer) and killing my colleagues. Or a dream of me being friends with some well-known person and because of that getting chased by my classmates. That was actually scary. It had me waking up and breathing fast. That one terrified me. Yeah, uhm... I do not remember if I had any other dreams. After all, it has been a while since that. Yeah, uhm... I do not really know what else I am supposed to talk about. Oh! I have an appointment with my psychologist today. Not excited. I do not like my psychologist. She is annoying. I heard that usually these appointments go like 50 minutes. My first appointment was around that length. My last one was 20 minutes long. Why the hell? Anyways, I do not want to go. I am tired. And I am not talking to her about my problems anyway. Not because I do not want to, but because I can not talk about that. Besides, I do not like her anyway. For one, she just assumes things about me that are not true. Like that I am not capable of talking to others. I am capable of that, I also told her that. I do not think she cared. She wants me to practice talking with her. I do not need that! I do not want to go anymore. But I feel like I have to now. Let me just write my worries in this diary please...
Anyways, here you go with a bunch of blubs.
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Please, someone kill me already. Please.