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This is for the hero I can never be

The person I lock up

Deep inside of me

This is for my tears that I've never cried

This is for the person that I'm not

The part of me that isn't rotting away with sickness

All the times I try

I fail

I'm weak and pathetic

I realize this

I'm slowly vanishing into my own internal abyss

I don't feel like talking anymore

I don't want to be awake

I just want to die

And quit seeming so fake

Stop relying on me

I can't even rely on myself

I'm empty and hollow and alone again

No matter the price I pay

I can never seem to win

Lift me up and hold me high

My wings are broken and I forgot how to fly

My blood is flowing from my eyes now

My feet are planted firmly on the ground

I open my mouth and try to speak

But I can't make a sound

I'll be gone someday

But you'll be too busy being fake to notice my absence anyways

This is to the fake people like me

Who long ago stopped dreaming their own dreams

I'm ready to leave everything behind

I'm ready to stab my eyes to make me blind

I don't want to see how horrid this world is anymore

I'm tired of being bruised

Broken

And sore

So look away now

And turn your head

Let me compose my thoughts

Because soon I'll be dead