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AN Gonna do something a little different. I'm going to do a series of diary entries. Tell me if you like them. I might do them every few chapters if you do. Thanks for reading.
Willow's entry
Dearest diary,
Something unexpected has been happening to me. I had really tried to ignore it. No one wants to be different. Especially when you are a geek freshman. So being even more different would be, well, even more painful than it already is.
But I've been feeling so different lately. And I think I realized what it is. I kinda told Faith of all people about it. Yeah, I know. I'll be lucky if the whole school doesn't find out about it. But she kept pushing me.
I'm getting ahead of myself. You see, what this unexpected thing is, I've been finding myself attracted to other girls. I used to have a big time crush on Xander. And he even finally asked if we could start dating. But I said no. I couldn't understand it. Not really. Not until she came along.
She is like this blonde goddess I've been waiting for all my life. When I saw her sitting outside of Principal Snyder's office, my heart did this little flip. I was afraid that Xander would notice. Fortunately, he was checking out our other new friend, Buffy who just moved from LA.
The girl's name is Tara. And I think there was this instant connection between us. If I believed in any of those supernatural things that you see on tv, I'd say that we connected the minute our hands touched. Or that there was something that brought the two of us together.
But there is no such thing as fate. But she is here now. But she is so distant. I've tried talking to her (granted it has only been one day), but she seems afraid to open up to me. And I don't think it's because she knows I'm attracted to her.
There is something about her. I don't know what it is. I hope she'll someday trust me enough to confide in me. As I told Faith, if friendship is all that we ever have, that'll be enough for me. But I want so much more. Am I a selfish person to think that way?
I wonder if there is a way that I can break the ice. I don't think she has a date for the dance. Maybe I can suggest we go together, just as friends. We can make fun of all the popular people. I'm not sure. I just want to spend time with her.
Well, I think I've babbled long enough. Please, tell me I'm not insane. I just want to be happy. And I just want to see her happy. After one day and I'm already feeling this way. What is happening to me?
Willow Rosenberg
Tara's entry
Dearest diary,
I really should be asleep. Dad had me move most of my furniture in by myself tonight. I also took mom to her doctor's appointment. They told me the same thing as they always do. She's not getting any better. She really should be in a hospital. I have to tell them thank you, but we can't afford that right now. They always look at me like I'm crazy. I would love to tell them that I want her in the hospital, that it's my selfish father that won't allow it.
But there is something good going on. Something I never thought would happen in a million years. I've met someone. She's the most beautiful person I've ever seen. Her red hair matches her emerald eyes. And she is so wonderful. She checked on me when I got upset when someone made fun of me. And she wasn't freaked when she found out that I might be gay.
I am gay. I've known for a little while now. And I think she might be too. She said that I was very pretty and she would be flattered if I were the one asking her out. And she had been having some feelings. Oh, but if she were only. We could maybe.
No. That won't happen. After all, I'm Tara Maclay. I've been destined since I was born to be my brother's keeper. To take care of my mom and dad. And to be an all around slave. That's just the way things are. And there is no changing them.
If nothing else, I've got a new friend. Maybe even a few new friends. But there will never be anyone like Willow. That's this special girl's name, by the way. I feel so drawn to her. And we've only known each other for a day. This is all so weird.
I'm having trouble keeping my eyes open. And I don't want to miss school. If I miss school, it means I won't get to hang out with her. And school is the only way I can do that. You know that dad won't let me leave the house. I feel like such a prisoner. My life is my prison.
Simply Tara
Buffy's entry
Dear diary,
Things sure happened weird on my first day of school. I went from hanging out with the popular kids, to hanging out with three outcasts. It was really weird. Mainly because it was my choice. I'm the one that walked away from Cordelia, one of the most popular girls in school.
But these guys are so much better than she is. They pretty much accept you for who you are. Granted, it's only been one day. But they seem like they are going to accept me, faults and all.
This never would have happened back in LA. I never would have given up the popular crowd for anything. I was even spazzing over the fact that I have last year's clothes this morning. But that isn't what matters. Or, it shouldn't be what matters.
I went to this place called The Bronze. They had a great band. We were all having fun. Except that Tara, another new girl, wasn't able to come. I think that Willow (a red headed genius) was really disappointed. I'm not sure why. Xander (an all around goofball, but real sweetheart) seemed to be enjoying the fact that he was there with all these girls. And I met Xander's cousin Faith. She really let's you know what she thinks. She really cool that way. I also met these two big time jerks. Cordelia and her boyfriend Angel (they were part of the popular crowd). I just didn't feel comfortable around them. Especially the way that Angel had harassed Xander for no reason.
But I did meet someone really cool. I even danced with him. It was really something else. I'm not sure if I like him yet, but he is really nice. But he's Angel's little brother. Maybe he's putting on an act and is like his brother. I'm not sure. I really hope not. He's so cute.
I hope I'm not falling for him. Not yet, anyways. I've only known him one day. And things are still so confusing. One thing that is really good about the friends I've made, Willow is the smartest person I've ever met. Maybe she can help me not flunk all of my classes. One can only hope. Well, it's late. Mom has already asked that I go to bed like five times. I wish that she and dad were still together. But there is nothing I can do about that. Until next time.
B
Spike's entry
It's me. I'm only writing in this stupid thing because it's part of a class assignment. I've never been like a pansy and written anything down. Why would I want to?
Well, there might be one reason. Besides writing down how much I hate my brother. He is the reason that everyone thinks that I'm so stuck up. He's the spoiled rich boy. Yeah, I know, I'm technically rich too. But I don't have to go around riding in my father's brand new camero. I'd rather take the bus. I just like being around real people.
But back to the one reason that I would write in this very stupid thing. I've met somebody new. We even danced already. But one dance and one day does not make for a relationship. Even I know that.
But there was something special about that blonde girl. I watched her walk away from the populars (my brother and his dim-witted girl) and walk over to a group that most of the school would define as losers.
Not me. I like all of them. They are who they are and don't worry about what others think of them. That takes guts. And it's nice to see that they have each other.
Me, I seem to be alone. Can't rely on the family for anything, especially big brother. Maybe she and her friends wil let me join their little group.
Whatever. I'm a loner. And that's the way it's going to stay. Stupid frikin assignment. Can't believe I have to do more of these damn entries. Whatever.
Spike
Angel's entry
This is so lame,
Why should I, a senior, have to do this. Maybe I should just pay to have somebody do this. Just kidding. But it is stupid.
What is there to say? I date Cordelia Chase. My brother likes to get on my nerves. My parents don't give a damn about us. I hate losers. What else is there to say?
I'm me, and that's how I'm going to stay. I don't care what others think about me. Especially that blonde, Buffy Summers. I still can't believe how she stood up for lame ole Xander. Please. There are better things to do with one's time.
And to top things off, she totally blew off both me and Cordelia. What was the stupid girl thinking? She now has gone from potential hottie to loser in one swift movement. And even worse than that, Spike has got a thing for her.
I wonder if he's doing it to annoy me. I wouldn't put it past him. Anything to drive me insane. He's always trying to get me in trouble with our parents. I don't understand why. Maybe that's what younger brothers are supposed to do. If it is, he sure is good at it.
Well, I'm going to go now. Cordelia is waiting for me downstairs. My parents are gone. Time for the real fun to start.
Angel
Cordelia's entry
to whom it may concern,
And I'm not sure who that is. Why would my life concern anyone but me? I'm the one that should know about my life. Not some stupid teacher that's making me write this.
So, you want to know about my life. I'm popular and I love every minute of it. I have the hottest guy in the school as my boyfriend. Naturally. I hang with a very specified crowd.
And those that are losers will hang with just the losers. Something must be wrong with my radar. There's this new girl, named Buffy. I really thought, even with her clothing, that she could be an in girl. But what a huge disappointment. She chose the nerd herd over hanging with me.
Can you even imagine? But enough about her and all those losers. If I keep talking about losers I'm sure I'll start wrinkling or something. And what a waste that would be. My beautiful skin with wrinkles. Ewww!
Back to me. The only black thing about my great life is the fact that Angel's brother is always trying to get us in trouble. I hate that bleach blonde. He thinks his hair is so cool. And Spike? Puleez. William is his real name. So uncool. And to have a cool brother like Angel. Well, I guess not everything is inherited. And that's a good thing. My mom is looking really haggard lately. I hope I don't look like her when I'm older. Whatever. Ohh, I hear Angel coming down. Alone time at last.
CC
Anya's entry
Dear diary,
I'm not going to say much. I'm more to the point about things. School sucks. I really don't have any friends. No one seems to like the fact that I'm so honest all the time. That's their loss.
One good thing happened today. I met this guy. He's really goofy and kinda nerdy. But I really like him. He seems really nice and honest. The last thing I want is someone that won't be honest with me.
He has some interesting friends. Maybe we could all be friends. Not that I really care. Being alone isn't all that bad. But back to Xander. I got to dance with him. It was really nice. I hope that he asks me to the dance they're having this Friday. That would be so cool.
There's really not much else to tell. I live my life on my own terms. Even if Xander is sorta a geek, I will go out with him if I want to. Nobody will make any decisions for me. And that's the way that I like it. Hopefully Xander feels the same way.
Anya
Xander's entry
Wicked cool! That's how I would describe my first day of school. I got to hang with Willow. That's always of the good. But I also met some new girls. Buffy is pretty. She was with the pops, but decided to hang out with us. Interesting, right? There was this really shy girl that Willow really likes. I'm sensing there is a deal there. The girl hardly said anything at all. But I tend to talk too much.
Faith showed up at The Bronze. She was so making these eyes at the lead guitarist. I guess she could do worse. He seemed really nice. Not that I'm a good judge of guys or anything.
I still feel stupid that I didn't see Will's feelings for me sooner. Now she says that it is too late. I wonder what's changed for her so fast. Is there somebody else? There might be for me.
One of the new girls. Anya is her name. She even asked me to dance. It was so awesome. And she was a really good dancer. Maybe she and I could go to the dance on Friday. I'll have to get the courage up and ask her. Hopefully she'll she yes. Not sure. But I've got to give it a try.
Other than all that, life is life. My parents are who they are and school is school. At least I've got some real friends now. That's what's really cool.
Xman
Faith's entry
what's up?
Stupid journal. Oh, well. It's of the good, I guess. Not really much to tell. Sorta new to Sunnydale. Still learning the ropes. Xander isn't as annoying as I remember him. And Willow is still the sweet girl I remember.
With a big huge twist! The girl says she's gay. Never saw that one coming. Especially from her. But it's all of the good. I think she wanted me to keep it our little secret. She didn't even mean to tell me. Usually, my lips seem to flap all the time. But this is something big. This is something private. When she's ready, she'll share with everyone.
And there are a lot of everyone's. Two other newbies are now part of the group. Tara is so shy, I don't know a thing about her. Except that Will has a secret major league crush on her. Again, our little secret. Buffy seems cool. After all, she dissed Angel and Cordelia. Now that takes some guts. Anya is after my cuz. That's so weird watching a girl after him. Never been one for that. He's so the one acting a spaz and scaring off all the girls. It really is a brave new world.
And there might be somebody new for me. We didn't get to connect tonight. And that's a damn shame. I think I saw him checking me out while I was grooving on the dance floor. I know I was checking him out. Seems the quiet and stoic type. Not usually my type, but you only live once.
And you so now how I like to live. O.K., teach, you might not know. But I'm treating this as a real diary. One that's supposed to know you without saying certain things. Anyway, I hope that Oz and I can hookup for the dance on Friday. That would be of the good, that's for sure. Enough rambling. Peace man.
Faithfully, Faith
Oz's entry
Interesting first day. Band played at The Bronze. Spotted new girl. Intrigued. Have to try and hook up with her. Parents still suck. School is cool. Not much more to say. Hope to meet with Faith someday.
Oz
Willow's entry
Dearest diary,
Something unexpected has been happening to me. I had really tried to ignore it. No one wants to be different. Especially when you are a geek freshman. So being even more different would be, well, even more painful than it already is.
But I've been feeling so different lately. And I think I realized what it is. I kinda told Faith of all people about it. Yeah, I know. I'll be lucky if the whole school doesn't find out about it. But she kept pushing me.
I'm getting ahead of myself. You see, what this unexpected thing is, I've been finding myself attracted to other girls. I used to have a big time crush on Xander. And he even finally asked if we could start dating. But I said no. I couldn't understand it. Not really. Not until she came along.
She is like this blonde goddess I've been waiting for all my life. When I saw her sitting outside of Principal Snyder's office, my heart did this little flip. I was afraid that Xander would notice. Fortunately, he was checking out our other new friend, Buffy who just moved from LA.
The girl's name is Tara. And I think there was this instant connection between us. If I believed in any of those supernatural things that you see on tv, I'd say that we connected the minute our hands touched. Or that there was something that brought the two of us together.
But there is no such thing as fate. But she is here now. But she is so distant. I've tried talking to her (granted it has only been one day), but she seems afraid to open up to me. And I don't think it's because she knows I'm attracted to her.
There is something about her. I don't know what it is. I hope she'll someday trust me enough to confide in me. As I told Faith, if friendship is all that we ever have, that'll be enough for me. But I want so much more. Am I a selfish person to think that way?
I wonder if there is a way that I can break the ice. I don't think she has a date for the dance. Maybe I can suggest we go together, just as friends. We can make fun of all the popular people. I'm not sure. I just want to spend time with her.
Well, I think I've babbled long enough. Please, tell me I'm not insane. I just want to be happy. And I just want to see her happy. After one day and I'm already feeling this way. What is happening to me?
Willow Rosenberg
Tara's entry
Dearest diary,
I really should be asleep. Dad had me move most of my furniture in by myself tonight. I also took mom to her doctor's appointment. They told me the same thing as they always do. She's not getting any better. She really should be in a hospital. I have to tell them thank you, but we can't afford that right now. They always look at me like I'm crazy. I would love to tell them that I want her in the hospital, that it's my selfish father that won't allow it.
But there is something good going on. Something I never thought would happen in a million years. I've met someone. She's the most beautiful person I've ever seen. Her red hair matches her emerald eyes. And she is so wonderful. She checked on me when I got upset when someone made fun of me. And she wasn't freaked when she found out that I might be gay.
I am gay. I've known for a little while now. And I think she might be too. She said that I was very pretty and she would be flattered if I were the one asking her out. And she had been having some feelings. Oh, but if she were only. We could maybe.
No. That won't happen. After all, I'm Tara Maclay. I've been destined since I was born to be my brother's keeper. To take care of my mom and dad. And to be an all around slave. That's just the way things are. And there is no changing them.
If nothing else, I've got a new friend. Maybe even a few new friends. But there will never be anyone like Willow. That's this special girl's name, by the way. I feel so drawn to her. And we've only known each other for a day. This is all so weird.
I'm having trouble keeping my eyes open. And I don't want to miss school. If I miss school, it means I won't get to hang out with her. And school is the only way I can do that. You know that dad won't let me leave the house. I feel like such a prisoner. My life is my prison.
Simply Tara
Buffy's entry
Dear diary,
Things sure happened weird on my first day of school. I went from hanging out with the popular kids, to hanging out with three outcasts. It was really weird. Mainly because it was my choice. I'm the one that walked away from Cordelia, one of the most popular girls in school.
But these guys are so much better than she is. They pretty much accept you for who you are. Granted, it's only been one day. But they seem like they are going to accept me, faults and all.
This never would have happened back in LA. I never would have given up the popular crowd for anything. I was even spazzing over the fact that I have last year's clothes this morning. But that isn't what matters. Or, it shouldn't be what matters.
I went to this place called The Bronze. They had a great band. We were all having fun. Except that Tara, another new girl, wasn't able to come. I think that Willow (a red headed genius) was really disappointed. I'm not sure why. Xander (an all around goofball, but real sweetheart) seemed to be enjoying the fact that he was there with all these girls. And I met Xander's cousin Faith. She really let's you know what she thinks. She really cool that way. I also met these two big time jerks. Cordelia and her boyfriend Angel (they were part of the popular crowd). I just didn't feel comfortable around them. Especially the way that Angel had harassed Xander for no reason.
But I did meet someone really cool. I even danced with him. It was really something else. I'm not sure if I like him yet, but he is really nice. But he's Angel's little brother. Maybe he's putting on an act and is like his brother. I'm not sure. I really hope not. He's so cute.
I hope I'm not falling for him. Not yet, anyways. I've only known him one day. And things are still so confusing. One thing that is really good about the friends I've made, Willow is the smartest person I've ever met. Maybe she can help me not flunk all of my classes. One can only hope. Well, it's late. Mom has already asked that I go to bed like five times. I wish that she and dad were still together. But there is nothing I can do about that. Until next time.
B
Spike's entry
It's me. I'm only writing in this stupid thing because it's part of a class assignment. I've never been like a pansy and written anything down. Why would I want to?
Well, there might be one reason. Besides writing down how much I hate my brother. He is the reason that everyone thinks that I'm so stuck up. He's the spoiled rich boy. Yeah, I know, I'm technically rich too. But I don't have to go around riding in my father's brand new camero. I'd rather take the bus. I just like being around real people.
But back to the one reason that I would write in this very stupid thing. I've met somebody new. We even danced already. But one dance and one day does not make for a relationship. Even I know that.
But there was something special about that blonde girl. I watched her walk away from the populars (my brother and his dim-witted girl) and walk over to a group that most of the school would define as losers.
Not me. I like all of them. They are who they are and don't worry about what others think of them. That takes guts. And it's nice to see that they have each other.
Me, I seem to be alone. Can't rely on the family for anything, especially big brother. Maybe she and her friends wil let me join their little group.
Whatever. I'm a loner. And that's the way it's going to stay. Stupid frikin assignment. Can't believe I have to do more of these damn entries. Whatever.
Spike
Angel's entry
This is so lame,
Why should I, a senior, have to do this. Maybe I should just pay to have somebody do this. Just kidding. But it is stupid.
What is there to say? I date Cordelia Chase. My brother likes to get on my nerves. My parents don't give a damn about us. I hate losers. What else is there to say?
I'm me, and that's how I'm going to stay. I don't care what others think about me. Especially that blonde, Buffy Summers. I still can't believe how she stood up for lame ole Xander. Please. There are better things to do with one's time.
And to top things off, she totally blew off both me and Cordelia. What was the stupid girl thinking? She now has gone from potential hottie to loser in one swift movement. And even worse than that, Spike has got a thing for her.
I wonder if he's doing it to annoy me. I wouldn't put it past him. Anything to drive me insane. He's always trying to get me in trouble with our parents. I don't understand why. Maybe that's what younger brothers are supposed to do. If it is, he sure is good at it.
Well, I'm going to go now. Cordelia is waiting for me downstairs. My parents are gone. Time for the real fun to start.
Angel
Cordelia's entry
to whom it may concern,
And I'm not sure who that is. Why would my life concern anyone but me? I'm the one that should know about my life. Not some stupid teacher that's making me write this.
So, you want to know about my life. I'm popular and I love every minute of it. I have the hottest guy in the school as my boyfriend. Naturally. I hang with a very specified crowd.
And those that are losers will hang with just the losers. Something must be wrong with my radar. There's this new girl, named Buffy. I really thought, even with her clothing, that she could be an in girl. But what a huge disappointment. She chose the nerd herd over hanging with me.
Can you even imagine? But enough about her and all those losers. If I keep talking about losers I'm sure I'll start wrinkling or something. And what a waste that would be. My beautiful skin with wrinkles. Ewww!
Back to me. The only black thing about my great life is the fact that Angel's brother is always trying to get us in trouble. I hate that bleach blonde. He thinks his hair is so cool. And Spike? Puleez. William is his real name. So uncool. And to have a cool brother like Angel. Well, I guess not everything is inherited. And that's a good thing. My mom is looking really haggard lately. I hope I don't look like her when I'm older. Whatever. Ohh, I hear Angel coming down. Alone time at last.
CC
Anya's entry
Dear diary,
I'm not going to say much. I'm more to the point about things. School sucks. I really don't have any friends. No one seems to like the fact that I'm so honest all the time. That's their loss.
One good thing happened today. I met this guy. He's really goofy and kinda nerdy. But I really like him. He seems really nice and honest. The last thing I want is someone that won't be honest with me.
He has some interesting friends. Maybe we could all be friends. Not that I really care. Being alone isn't all that bad. But back to Xander. I got to dance with him. It was really nice. I hope that he asks me to the dance they're having this Friday. That would be so cool.
There's really not much else to tell. I live my life on my own terms. Even if Xander is sorta a geek, I will go out with him if I want to. Nobody will make any decisions for me. And that's the way that I like it. Hopefully Xander feels the same way.
Anya
Xander's entry
Wicked cool! That's how I would describe my first day of school. I got to hang with Willow. That's always of the good. But I also met some new girls. Buffy is pretty. She was with the pops, but decided to hang out with us. Interesting, right? There was this really shy girl that Willow really likes. I'm sensing there is a deal there. The girl hardly said anything at all. But I tend to talk too much.
Faith showed up at The Bronze. She was so making these eyes at the lead guitarist. I guess she could do worse. He seemed really nice. Not that I'm a good judge of guys or anything.
I still feel stupid that I didn't see Will's feelings for me sooner. Now she says that it is too late. I wonder what's changed for her so fast. Is there somebody else? There might be for me.
One of the new girls. Anya is her name. She even asked me to dance. It was so awesome. And she was a really good dancer. Maybe she and I could go to the dance on Friday. I'll have to get the courage up and ask her. Hopefully she'll she yes. Not sure. But I've got to give it a try.
Other than all that, life is life. My parents are who they are and school is school. At least I've got some real friends now. That's what's really cool.
Xman
Faith's entry
what's up?
Stupid journal. Oh, well. It's of the good, I guess. Not really much to tell. Sorta new to Sunnydale. Still learning the ropes. Xander isn't as annoying as I remember him. And Willow is still the sweet girl I remember.
With a big huge twist! The girl says she's gay. Never saw that one coming. Especially from her. But it's all of the good. I think she wanted me to keep it our little secret. She didn't even mean to tell me. Usually, my lips seem to flap all the time. But this is something big. This is something private. When she's ready, she'll share with everyone.
And there are a lot of everyone's. Two other newbies are now part of the group. Tara is so shy, I don't know a thing about her. Except that Will has a secret major league crush on her. Again, our little secret. Buffy seems cool. After all, she dissed Angel and Cordelia. Now that takes some guts. Anya is after my cuz. That's so weird watching a girl after him. Never been one for that. He's so the one acting a spaz and scaring off all the girls. It really is a brave new world.
And there might be somebody new for me. We didn't get to connect tonight. And that's a damn shame. I think I saw him checking me out while I was grooving on the dance floor. I know I was checking him out. Seems the quiet and stoic type. Not usually my type, but you only live once.
And you so now how I like to live. O.K., teach, you might not know. But I'm treating this as a real diary. One that's supposed to know you without saying certain things. Anyway, I hope that Oz and I can hookup for the dance on Friday. That would be of the good, that's for sure. Enough rambling. Peace man.
Faithfully, Faith
Oz's entry
Interesting first day. Band played at The Bronze. Spotted new girl. Intrigued. Have to try and hook up with her. Parents still suck. School is cool. Not much more to say. Hope to meet with Faith someday.
Oz
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