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I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe

You deserve so much better than I could ever give you. I lied to you for the first time in my life. I told you that I didn't love you which is as far from the truth as I could get. You were.. are my everything I couldn't put you through a relationship where I was never there. Ive seen from my parents what that does to someone. I mean the band has been touring none stop since we left home over a year.



Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be

I started dating Jamia not long after we split. I know that it hurt you and I feel guiltier than shit about it. No matter what I would have done I would have hurt you in some way. But everything in the world reminds me of you. Nothing seems right without you in my life. I guess that's what happens when you fall in love with your best friend.


I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you

I told myself that I wouldn't miss you but I was just lying to myself. How could I not miss you. Especially after everything that we have been through together. Ive known you since I was in diapers. I could never forget even if I wanted to what it feels like to have you in my arms and to hold and kiss you.




I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

i miss the way that we would play fight and wrestle around. I miss the way that you were super ticklish. I am the only one that knows every single place you are ticklish at. I miss your kisses. You were my first kiss... hell my first everything. I was always happy around you. But you need to know that you can do soo much better than me.





While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took
That you were looking for

I keep a box of every note that you have ever written me along with some notes that I have written you but have never had the courage to give you. This one will join the rest for sure. I also have pictures of us that I took from you. Mikey told me that you were looking for them one day.




If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room

Do you remember that day? We were at the mall trying to find you a dress for gradutation. You made me try on dresses with you. We kissed in the dressing room. I know I saw fireworks. You would know about my feelings for a few months after that when Mikey told me if I didn't tell you then he would.



I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

I don't know why I ever thought that I could change how I feel about you. I mean we were... are best friends we have been through thick and thin together. You don't deserve to go through the shit I've put you through. I mean hell I am dating Jamia, a girl that I don't live when I should be with you, the true live of my life. You are the only one who holds the key to my heart.



The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over

I can be a real fucking idiot sometimes. I went and broke things off. That is the biggest mistake that I have ever made. I wish day and night that I could go back in time and change that night. I would have never said that its over/ my bed, hell my whole place is empty without you. I AM empty without you.



And I can't pretend... I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end

I cant act like I don't miss you anymore. The guys are starting to notice. Mikey is still ready to kill me for hurting you in the first place. He cant stand Jamia either. Actually I don't think any of the guys can. We promised each other that we would grow old together. We never really had a close to our relationship. Is till have feelings for you Katie . I am not going to let this be the end for us. We will one day end up back together. I love you



I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
(You deserve much better than me)