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When we walked into the kitchen, everyone had stopped talking. Gerard and I both looked at each other and then at the others. I put my head down, grabbed a slice of pepperoni pizza, and then walked back to the living room. Everyone else stayed behind. I could hear Gerard speaking. He had told Mikey, Ray, and Frank that he wanted to speak to them privately. He sent Bob out to check on me. "Hey Des, is that okay if I call you that?" "Yeah, that's fine." "Okay cool. Are you okay?" "I'm all right." I mumbled quietly. Bob sat down next to me and put his arm around me. "Listen, I know everyone stopped talking as soon as you two walked in, but it was nothing bad. I will admit that we were talking about you guys, but I can swear on my life that we were just talking about how glad we are for Gerard to find someone as beautiful and nice as you are." I half-smiled and began to cry. Gerard walked into the room and grabbed my hand to pull me up. We me eye to eye so I quickly turned away to wipe my eyes. He pulled me closer. "Every thing is okay, I promise." He said as he looked deeply into my eyes. Bob got up to go back into the kitchen. Before he left, he touched my shoulder and told me that we would talk later. I nodded, but never took my eyes off of Gerard. I ran my fingers through his short, black hair and pulled him even closer. I then could not
help myself any longer and kissed him passionately. We finally broke apart when Jazz and Ray walked into the room. We both blushed and smiled at each other. "WHOOPS! Sorry for interrupting, we'll leave you two alone." Jazz said. "No, no. It's okay. You guys can stay here." Gerard replied. "Are you sure, it seemed like you two were enjoying that too much?" Ray asked as he wrapped his arms around Jazz. Gerard laughed "You're right, I did enjoy that, but you guys can stay in here." "All right, if you insist" Ray said. So we all sat down and finished eating our pizza. Everyone started to come back into the living room. Gerard and I moved down the couch to make room for Frank and Bob while Mikey and Alicia decided to take a seat on the floor. "So, what do you guys want to do?" Frank asked. Everyone just shrugged. "OH COME ON GUYS!! GET SOME ENERGY LIKE I HAVE!! LET'S DANCE!" Frank said as he jumped up and down. He went over to Ray and shook him. "WAKE UP TOROSAURUS!!" Ray just looked at him and shook his head. "Man, you're crazy." "Yes, I am!!!!" Frank screamed. He went to the stereo and turned on some music. "I just feel like dancing!" I laughed and said "I can see that." "OMG, SHE IS ALIVE!!" Frank said as he ran over to me and pulled me. "LET'S DANCE!" He spun me around and started jumping up and
down. I began to join him. Alicia jumped and grabbed Mikey. "C'mon honey!" They began to slow dance even though Frank was still jumping up and down with me. Ray and Jazz were the next to get up and started slow dancing too. Frank grabbed my hand, spun me around, and dipped me. "Oh, fancy stuff!" I said laughing. He began to slow dance with me also. Bob and Gerard looked at each other. "Shall we?" Bob asked. "Oh, please yes." Gerard said laughing. They got up and pretended to dance with each other. We were all laughing at them. They both spun around in circles holding their arms in the air, but not touching one another. When the song ended, Jazz and Ray continued
to dance. Mikey and Alicia decided to go for a walk outside. Frank took a bow. "Thank you, Desiree for the lovely dance." I giggled. "Anytime FRANKSTER!" Gerard walked over to us and said "Do you mind if I cut in?"
"Go for it my man." Frank stepped aside and ran over to Bob and jumped on him. "I LOVE YOU LITTLE DRUMMER BOY, YOU ARE MY FAVORITE!" Bob fell onto the couch and pushed Frank off of him. "Ah, okay, okay! I get it! I'm your favorite. NO MORE SUGAR FOR YOU TONIGHT!" Frank stood up once again and ran outside to go attack Mikey. "MIKEY!!!!!!!!! WAIT FOR MEEEEE!!!!!" he yelled as he ran outside. "There is something wrong with that boy." Ray said. "Tell me about it, cutie." Jazz said. She then stood on her tip-toes to plant a kiss on Ray's lips. "Oh!! I think it is time for us to leave now!" Gerard said. I laughed. "Yeah, I agree." "Come on, we'll go into my bedroom and watch a movie" he said. "Okay, sounds good." I said. We left Ray and Jazz to themselves as Bob went up to his room to play x-box. Gerard closed the door behind him. "Make yourself comfortable." So I sat on the bed as Gerard looked through his dvds. "Hm, what would you like to watch?" "Oh, it doesn't matter to me." "How about From Dusk Til Dawn?" he asked. "That sounds good to me. Ilove that movie." Gerard grabbed the movie and grabbed the dvd out of the box. "So do I, it's one of my favorites." He said as he put the movie into the dvd player. After he put the movie on, he came and sat on his bed against the headboard. "Come here." I kicked
off my shoes and sat back next to him. He put his arm around me and I placed my head on his shoulder. Gerard played with my hair softly and I heard him sigh. Even though I did not know about his past and what he has been going through, I could tell that I was making a difference in his life.

I must have fallen asleep during the movie because the next thing I knew that it was morning. I found myself still in Gerard's arms from the previous hours. I slowly got up so that I wouldn't disturb him. I stretched out and then left the bedroom. I went downstairs and straight into the living room to find Ray and Jazz sweet on each other. They didn't notice that I was standing there and were talking about some things they did last night. I left the room because
to me, it was a little too much information. I went into the kitchen and noticed that Frank and Bob were eating breakfast. Frank saw me and jumped up. "Hey sweetie. Did you sleep good?" "Yeah, I did. I did not even know I fell asleep because I slept right through the night." Bob looked up with a spoon in his hand. "Uh huh, sure you slept all night." He said. I laughed. "Oh stop it. I am sure that I did." Frank and Bob smirked. "Yeah, that doesn't surprise us." Frank said. "Gerard isn't one of those guys to just go and sleep with anyone." "Well, good, because I am not that type of girl." Frank put his bowl in the sink. "Do you want anything to eat or drink?" "I'll just have some water with ice, please." "Damn girl, stop drinking all of that water!" Frank teasingly said. "Before you know it, you'll be your own personal pool." I smiled. "No, I doubt that will ever happen or as a matter of a fact, could ever happen!" "Eh, yeah. I guess you're right when you're right." Frank laughed. He grabbed a cup, put ice cubes in it, and filled it with water. "There ya go. Now excuse me, I'm going to go jump in the shower before all of you ladies take it over." As Frank was walking out of the kitchen, I sat down across from Bob. Bob finished his cereal and milk and then wiped his mouth with his hand. "So, I want to tell you something that I am sure Gerard will tell you later on, but it has to do with why we were all talking about you two last night." "Okay," I said not knowing if this was going to be a good or bad thing, "shoot." "Well, you see, Gerard has had it real tough time when we were in high school. He was into drugs and drinking. He had a serious problem. He was hurt by many people and has not really been able to trust anyone real easily." I just nodded my head as he continued to speak. "All of us are just really surprised that he made a first move, because he does not usually do it. We all usually have to talk him to actually have a conversation with another human being outside of our group. For him to actually come up to you first, that's just amazing. You must have something that he is looking for or ..." He stopped. "Or what?" I asked. "Or maybe you are just that somebody." I could feel myself blush. "Well, it's too early to tell I guess." I replied. "God, I hope he's right" were my exact
thoughts. Bob just looked at me and smiled. "I think I know, but I do not want to get your hopes and you end up hating me because of some feeling I have." "I understand, Bob, I really do. I could never hate you. It wouldn't be your fault." He got up and got another glass of orange juice. "Good because that's not what I am trying to aim for." As he said that, Alicia came strolling in like a zombie. Bob could not help but laugh at her. Her black hair was all over the place and she had eyeliner underneath her eyes. "AH, ALICIA HAS WOKEN FROM THE DEAD!!!!" he yelled playfully. Alicia looked at him and rolled her eyes. "AH, don't talk to me in the morning. You know that I
always look like this." She then grabbed some bread, put it in the toaster, and flicked Bob. "HEY! What was that for?" "Picking on me" she said with a smirk on her face. "Oh Alicia, you know I love you!" "Yeah, yeah. I know." She then turned to me. "Don't mind me. I just am not the best person to talk to in the morning." I laughed. "It's okay. I can be the same way." Bob jumped up. "Uh oh, looks like we have another one." I threw a piece of crumbled paper at Bob. "Oh just shut up before I start on you too!" "Well ladies, I'm leaving the kitchen before all hell breaks loose." Alicia glared at him. "GOOD!" "I love you MRS. MIKEY WAY!" Alicia laughed. "I love you too
Bob-O." Her toast was ready so she got up to put some grape jelly on it. I decided to go back upstairs to Gerard's bedroom to grab my cell phone. "I am sure she has called 100 times since she's been up this morning." I thought. When I finally grabbed my cell phone, I was right about her calling because there were 10 missed calls from my house.

I decided to call back my grandmother. She answered on the first ring. "Desi, is that you?!" she cried out into the phone. I stood there speechless. For the first time in my life, I had nothing to say. How was to explain to her that I never wanted to come home again? I could not stand being around my family anymore. There is too much pain and memories of the past. I know that she would never understand how I met Gerard and how I feel for him already. My
grandmother yelling my name put me right back into reality. "Wh-what?!" I replied. "Where the hell are you?" "I'm at a friend's house." "What friend?! Who?!" "No one you know." "DESIREE ANNE MARIA!!" "Would you just stop!" I screamed interrupting her sentence. She stopped talking and I could hear her crying. I felt terrible for doing this to her. "I am such a horrible person. I am nothing." I thought to myself. "Just listen to me for once, okay? I just need some time away from everyone right now. This does not mean I will not see or call you again, but it is time for me to find myself." "But I can't help but worry about you." "I KNOW, but please I can promise you that I am okay." "How can you promise me? I have no idea who you are with or where you are." I sighed. "It doesn't matter. Please just trust me, okay?! Can you please just do that for me?" I was now begging her so I wouldn't have to have this conversation every time we speak. "Fine. Do whatever you want." She said. I then heard the line go dead. I slowly fell down to the floor and put my knees up. I began to rock back and forth. I began to talk to myself out loud.
"WHY GOD?! WHY DOESN'T ANYONE UNDERSTAND? WHY DOES EVERYONE ALWAYS HAVE TO DO THIS TO ME?" I cried quietly to myself. I hate myself for being so damn emotional.

While I was sitting on the floor, Gerard got out of bed. He grabbed me from behind and wrapped his arms around my body. He held me tightly to keep me still. "I'm sorry." I cried. "I didn't mean to wake you." "You didn't, I woke up on my own." I stopped crying and turned to face him. I placed my head on his chest and listened to the rhythm of his heart. We sat in complete silence for about five minutes. Gerard then began to sing to me. I let out a sigh of relief and placed his hand into mine. After he finished singing he looked down at me. "I heard everything you were saying. I know it wasn't any of my business, but I just wanted to stay nearby to make sure you were okay." "It's okay and thank you." "I just care so much about you. I don't know what it is about you, but something attracts me to you." I looked up at him and smiled. "I feel the exact same way." "I am so happy that I met you yesterday. I feel a connection between us that I have never felt with anyone before" he said, "and there is no one in the world like you, Desi." His words made me melt. How did I ever become so lucky to find someone like him? I would never have
thought that in my lifetime I would ever feel as loved and wanted as I do right now. Gerard kissed my forehead and he then promised me the world and all of his love eternally.