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The Fallen
0 reviewsA short Kaworu/Shinji fic... will be about 4-6 chapters. Shinji is the only one left in Tokyo-3 after the Third Impact. His angst over Kaworu.
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I do not own Eva... but I wish I had a Kaworu...
A/N This takes place after Rebirth... Auska died on the beach and Shinji is the only one left alive in Tokyo-3
A Long Ways Down
I screamed. I screamed like I had never screamed before. I poured all of my pain, anger, and heartache into that one scream. A scream that seemed to reverberate for miles and miles in the barren wasteland that was Tokyo-3.
I collapsed on the rubble filled shore of that lake and screamed. At some point, I can't remember when, those anguished screams turned to heart wrenching sobs. I curled up into a little ball on my side, facing the outcrop to my left. I studied that piece of twisted metal and concrete through teary eyes.
Memories flashed vividly before my eyes, blurring my already shaky perception of reality until I didn't know if I was dreaming or awake
Then I saw Him.
He was sitting leisurely upon the crumpled piece of metal, one knee drawn up to his chest. His hair glistened. It was a white as the first snows and as beautiful as spun silver. His crimson eyes stared out over the expansive lake that used to be down town. His delightfully angelic voice filled the crisp air with a wondrous melody that seemed to lift my very heart.
I picked myself up off the rubble, not even pausing to dust myself off. I took slow, apprehensive steps toward the figure before me. As I neared the apparition I reached out, fingertips begging for contact with the angelic being.
As my fingertips came within millimeters of his pressed and starched uniform, red eyes rounded on me, full of pain and despair.
I froze, fingers jerking back slightly, as if burned. His crimson gaze bore into mine.
"I'm disappointed in you, Shinji. I never thought you'd kill me. You murdered me, Shinji Ikari." he said.
And with that final, heart wrenching statement, he disappeared.
Suddenly I was on the ground once more, back ten feet away from the outcrop.
I looked over, scrambling to my feet, wishing with all my soul to see him there. But it was empty, as if God had whisked him away from me once again.
My heart fell. Despair washed over me.
"God!" I cried to the sky, "Why was he sent to me? What did I do that was so wrong, so terrible, that I had to fall in love him, just to have him taken from me the next day?"
As I cried to God, I fell to my knees, staring into the cloud covered skies, tears began to fall.
"Why?" I sobbed.
The tears streaking my face belied the growing anger I felt.
"Damnit God! I want him back! Give Kaworu back to me!" I screamed, cursing God.
**
Crimson eyes filled with tears. They fell gently onto pristine white robes. Shining white wings wrapped themselves around the Lilith in a comforting gesture.
Taking only a moment to ponder his next actions, Kaworu stood, emotions flying behind his eyes. He was tired. Tired of seeing this frail boy tear himself apart. It tore Kaworu's heart to shreds every time a tear slid down Shinji's face.
Kaworu unfurled his radiant wings, propelling himself forward. He flew with utmost haste towards his Creator.
"My Lord! I must speak with you." Kaworu desperately cried.
"I already know why you're here, Tabris." God replied, "I told you when you descended that you should not attach yourself to a Lilim. Now you must deal with the consequences of your action."
Kaworu felt a rage building in his chest, finally boiling over.
"Why is it so wrong? Why can't we love those made in your image? They are capable of loving others, so why are we deprived of that gift?" Kaworu bravely questioned.
"Because I made the Lilith to love me." God said harshly.
"Well you do not control my heart anymore." Kaworu said with a smirk, "That belongs to one Shinji Ikari."
Kaworu reached behind himself, gripping his magnificent wings at the base. With a wry smile towards God, Kaworu ripped his wings from his body, Falling from Heaven.
**
I had managed to drag myself from the edge of the lake, each footfall feeling heavier and more tremendous than the last.
Finally I had arrived at my destination. Kaworu's apartment, one of the few buildings that remained standing, if only partially, on the outskirts of town.
I stepped inside the doorway, slinging my Oxfords into the corner.
I was tired. So very tired. All I wanted to do was go to sleep. It was the only way I could sleep anymore, wrapped in Kaworu's thin gray blanket, which, even though it had been a month since he left, I could still smell his fresh, clean scent clinging to the tightly woven threads.
I stumbled through the kitchen when, suddenly, my sock soaked up something wet on the floor.
When I looked down at my foot, my eye's widened in shock.
My sock, normally white, was stained crimson. Covered in blood.
A/N This takes place after Rebirth... Auska died on the beach and Shinji is the only one left alive in Tokyo-3
A Long Ways Down
I screamed. I screamed like I had never screamed before. I poured all of my pain, anger, and heartache into that one scream. A scream that seemed to reverberate for miles and miles in the barren wasteland that was Tokyo-3.
I collapsed on the rubble filled shore of that lake and screamed. At some point, I can't remember when, those anguished screams turned to heart wrenching sobs. I curled up into a little ball on my side, facing the outcrop to my left. I studied that piece of twisted metal and concrete through teary eyes.
Memories flashed vividly before my eyes, blurring my already shaky perception of reality until I didn't know if I was dreaming or awake
Then I saw Him.
He was sitting leisurely upon the crumpled piece of metal, one knee drawn up to his chest. His hair glistened. It was a white as the first snows and as beautiful as spun silver. His crimson eyes stared out over the expansive lake that used to be down town. His delightfully angelic voice filled the crisp air with a wondrous melody that seemed to lift my very heart.
I picked myself up off the rubble, not even pausing to dust myself off. I took slow, apprehensive steps toward the figure before me. As I neared the apparition I reached out, fingertips begging for contact with the angelic being.
As my fingertips came within millimeters of his pressed and starched uniform, red eyes rounded on me, full of pain and despair.
I froze, fingers jerking back slightly, as if burned. His crimson gaze bore into mine.
"I'm disappointed in you, Shinji. I never thought you'd kill me. You murdered me, Shinji Ikari." he said.
And with that final, heart wrenching statement, he disappeared.
Suddenly I was on the ground once more, back ten feet away from the outcrop.
I looked over, scrambling to my feet, wishing with all my soul to see him there. But it was empty, as if God had whisked him away from me once again.
My heart fell. Despair washed over me.
"God!" I cried to the sky, "Why was he sent to me? What did I do that was so wrong, so terrible, that I had to fall in love him, just to have him taken from me the next day?"
As I cried to God, I fell to my knees, staring into the cloud covered skies, tears began to fall.
"Why?" I sobbed.
The tears streaking my face belied the growing anger I felt.
"Damnit God! I want him back! Give Kaworu back to me!" I screamed, cursing God.
**
Crimson eyes filled with tears. They fell gently onto pristine white robes. Shining white wings wrapped themselves around the Lilith in a comforting gesture.
Taking only a moment to ponder his next actions, Kaworu stood, emotions flying behind his eyes. He was tired. Tired of seeing this frail boy tear himself apart. It tore Kaworu's heart to shreds every time a tear slid down Shinji's face.
Kaworu unfurled his radiant wings, propelling himself forward. He flew with utmost haste towards his Creator.
"My Lord! I must speak with you." Kaworu desperately cried.
"I already know why you're here, Tabris." God replied, "I told you when you descended that you should not attach yourself to a Lilim. Now you must deal with the consequences of your action."
Kaworu felt a rage building in his chest, finally boiling over.
"Why is it so wrong? Why can't we love those made in your image? They are capable of loving others, so why are we deprived of that gift?" Kaworu bravely questioned.
"Because I made the Lilith to love me." God said harshly.
"Well you do not control my heart anymore." Kaworu said with a smirk, "That belongs to one Shinji Ikari."
Kaworu reached behind himself, gripping his magnificent wings at the base. With a wry smile towards God, Kaworu ripped his wings from his body, Falling from Heaven.
**
I had managed to drag myself from the edge of the lake, each footfall feeling heavier and more tremendous than the last.
Finally I had arrived at my destination. Kaworu's apartment, one of the few buildings that remained standing, if only partially, on the outskirts of town.
I stepped inside the doorway, slinging my Oxfords into the corner.
I was tired. So very tired. All I wanted to do was go to sleep. It was the only way I could sleep anymore, wrapped in Kaworu's thin gray blanket, which, even though it had been a month since he left, I could still smell his fresh, clean scent clinging to the tightly woven threads.
I stumbled through the kitchen when, suddenly, my sock soaked up something wet on the floor.
When I looked down at my foot, my eye's widened in shock.
My sock, normally white, was stained crimson. Covered in blood.
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