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I. Dark

Here in my darkest corner...jealousy runs amok with fear.
On one side, I am haughty and superior; on the other, I am infected with self-doubt.
The cries and screams of desperation, that no one sees me for what I really am.
Emptiness and cold...in the very pit of my soul...a persistent darkness continues to grow.
Hide yourself away from me now, or run the risk of sharing in my pain.
All I want for now is to be alone...no one is to see my fear, my envy, my disappointment.
Such things are beneath me -- why must I be involved in them?
I fear the truth is something no one will ever know.

No one will know I was meant to be Queen -- omnipotent and sovereign --
Because I was too afraid -- to proclaim it.
No one will know the glory that should have been mine --
Because I was too afraid -- to fight for it.
No one will know my children -- those who will never be born --
Because I was too afraid -- to seek their father.
No one will know my love -- for the one who has touched me the most --
Because I was too afraid -- to embrace you.

Loss and bereavement have left an indelible mark.
Perhaps I will no longer be able to hold on...turning within myself...
Finding nothing left to give -- a deplorable detachment.
I drive myself further into the pit, and I can't get out.
The lights extinguish -- I cannot see my way.
Yet, still...I cannot imagine that my soul is completely irretrievable.
There are always possibilities that transcend this dark hell.
I can see them just beyond the horizon, reflected in the light.

II. Light

Here in my brightest chamber...compassion leaps about with joy.
On one side, I am nurturing and humble; on the other, I am replete with confidence.
The shouts and songs of jubilation, that all can see me for what I really am.
Fulfillment and warmth...in the centre of my heart...a scintillating light grows steady.
Open yourself to me now, and feel the thrill of sharing in my joy.
All I want for now is to be with you...and all who would accept my love, my caring, my concern.
Such things are my purpose -- I wish to be involved in them!
I feel the truth is something all should strive to know.

Now all will know I was meant to be Music -- artistic and dramatic --
No longer too afraid -- to proclaim it.
Now all will know the passion that one needs to live --
No longer too afraid -- to reach out for it.
Now all will know the children -- those whose lives I have touched --
No longer too afraid -- to be their teacher.
Now all will know my love -- for the one who has touched me the most --
No longer too afraid -- to embrace you.


Love and acceptance have left an indelible mark.
Perhaps I will always find love in my heart...turning within myself...
And your love is always there -- a spectacular attachment.
I draw myself further into ecstasy, and I want to stay.
The lights grow brighter -- as far as I can see.
Yet, still...I cannot imagine that my heart is completely unbreakable.
There are always possibilities that endanger this bright paradise.
I can see them just beyond the horizon, hiding in the darkness.