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I didn't have time to think about Gerard for most of the next day. After shopping all morning with Alicia, on just a few hours of sleep, I crawled into my bunk and slept until we reached the next venue. Once there the rush to get things set up was crazy. I loved it. Things moved at such a fast pace and the people I was working with were great. Another Meet and Greet had to be set up for the Band and their fans. This event was my responsibility.
As I made sure things were in place for the band I heard my name being called. It was Gerard's fiancée Eve. "Laura, I would like to have a word with you."
I looked around hoping to see someone I could claim I need to talk to. Just my luck she and I were pretty much alone. "What is it?"
Eve's smile couldn't hide the hatred she felt toward me. "So you and my fiancé seem pretty close."
I picked up my clipboard and pretended to study the printed list. "I hardly know him." I lied.
She laughed, "Oh you know him. I'm just surprised he took up with you. You 're not exactly his type."
I was trying so hard to control my temper. "Look, I don't know what you are talking about."
"I'm talking about the fact that I know you are fucking Gerard. Not that I really care. I'm just surprised cause unless I'm wrong you don't have a penis. That makes you not his type."
I tuned to this vile woman and gave her my full attention. "So you think I'm screwing your fiancé who you also think is gay?"
She leaned against the table we were standing next to and studies her perfect nails. "Oh he's not just gay. I know he tries with woman. Believe me, I've suffered through it."
Shit, I was gonna loose it. I tried to remind myself how much I loved this job. I didn't want to punch her in the face. That would definitely be the end of my career. "Eve, can't you find someone else to talk to? I really don't have the time."
"I'm trying to do you a favor. I know you've been with him and I want to save you from anymore unsatisfying sex."
I broke in, "Unsatisfying?"
"The only kind Gee can give a woman" she said smiling. "Have you ever met a man who fucks so bad? Shit, just the thought of getting between the sheets with him turns my stomach." She laughed, "of course most of the time he can't even get it up."
I shook my head wondering who the fuck she was talking about. The man was a fucking sex machine. Suddenly I remembered him looking into my face and asking if what he was doing really felt good. Holy shit this bitch had made him think he wasn't good. No telling what lies she had told him about his lovemaking. I opened my mouth to tell her she was a world-class cunt when Gerard walked into the room. Eve saw him and smiled. "Hey honey. Are you done with the sound check already?"
He had walked in with the other band members and several members of the press. "Yeah, we're done." Walking up to her he dropped a kiss on her lips then put his arm around her.
I turned away hoping that the anger I felt couldn't be seen. I began to walk away when Eve spoke, "Laura, it was good talking to you. Maybe tomorrow we can get together for lunch."
Fuck it, I could play her game. I turned back and smiled, "I would love to but I have so much to do. Maybe another time." I walked out of the room inwardly shaking. That fucking bitch needed to go away. Alicia had said she would be returning to California soon. Shit, I hoped she was right.
The concert and Meet and Greet both went off without a hitch. I was proud of how well things had turned out. As I walked back to the bus I was feeling totally amped. Maybe it's because I took a nap today, I thought.
"Laura, can I talk to you for a moment?" I didn't recognize the voice and turned to see Ray Toro standing a short distance from the bus smoking a cigarette.
I walked up to him, "Sure, what can I do for you?"
"It's not what you can do for me, it's what you can do for Gerard," he said talking another drag.
Well shit, I thought to myself, does this guy know about Gerard and me, too? He looked at me a moment then spoke. "Gee is gonna marry Eve, you know that right?"
"Yes" I answered slowly, "I know they are engaged."
"So you understand that you have no chance with him?" In the shadowy light coming from the bus I could see him watching me.
"Why are you asking me this?"
"Too many people use Gee. I just want to make sure you understand you've got nothing to gain by being with him."
I didn't know what to say. Did he really think I was trying to use Gerard for some sort of gain? "I don't know what you have heard but I have no desire to USE Gerard."
Ray flicked the cigarette butt away and took a step closer. "That's good to hear. When he fucked your fiancé we all covered for him but it was getting harder. The press is always trying to figure out his sexual preference." He laughed "Fuck, all of us have tried to figure that out for years."
I knew my mouth was hanging open. I snapped it closed but it didn't stay that way, "Does every fucking person here know about Alan and Gee?"
Ray lit another cigarette, "No, like I said he all try to hide his oddities. The things and people he does."
I was suddenly tired. I didn't want any more drama for the night. "Look Ray I'm not out to get anything from Gerard. You don't have to worry about it." I walked towards the steps.
"Laura, he needs you." Ray's voice stopped me.
I turned to glare at him. "Excuse me? Weren't you just warning me away from him?"
"No, I just wanted to see how you would react."
I was still angry. "Well did I fucking pass? Is it okay if I continue to act as his whore?"
Ray moved out of the shadows and towards me. "Whatever the two of you have going on is what both of you need. I just care about he guy and I know how fucked up he is. I don't want him hurt."
"I'll remember that " I said turning and going up the steps and on to the bus. I reached my bunk in the dark and sat down. An arm reached out and pulled me down. His had clamped over my mouth. "Shut up, Laura"
I tried to slow down my heartbeat and he removed his hand. The rest of the bus was already sleeping so I whispered. "What are you doing here?"
"I'm here for sex," he whispered back. "And that was your question for the night."
I started to tell him to fuck off when his hand moved behind my head to push my lips to his. Like the kiss last night it was soft and sweet. His tongue almost shyly entered my mouth. His other hand slid under my t-shirt to cup my breast. He thumb gently rubbed my nipple. He deepened the kiss then broke away from my lips so that his mouth could travel to my neck. He gently sucked the soft skin under my ear. I had to force myself not to moan as his tongue flicked out to circle my ear. I did make a mewing sound when he gently nipped at my earlobe. He breathed into my ear, "Hush"
I lifted my hips as his fingers pulled at my sweats. When they were removed he then lowered my panties. My own hands pulled at his sweats and soon I had them pulled down his legs along with his boxers. My fingers stroked his penis marveling at how hard he was already. He pulled me over towards the center of the bunk and rolled over to position himself over me. When he pushed himself into me I arched my hips to meet him. The feeling was heavenly. He moved slowly, in and out, in and out. Occasionally he would lower his head and kiss my open mouth. When it happened we came together.
Gerard rolled off me but instead of pulling his clothing back on he pulled me into his arms for a few brief moments. I put my head against his chest and could hear his heartbeat. I felt cherished. "I have to go," He actually sounded sad.
"One more question?" I whispered.
He sighed, "What?" I didn't like the way his voice had changed.
"What was this?" What we had just done wasn't what had been going on between us. It was much more.
"I told you this was sex" he pulled on his sweats. "I didn't have time to prepare our movie event. Don't make this into something it's not. It was sex, nothing more."
I wished I could see his face but the darkness prevented it. "You're wrong. It wasn't sex. We made love."
I could feel his body tense, "I don't fucking do love. I told you once, I'm ugly on the inside and I can't feel love. If that's what you want then stay the fuck away from me."
He stood and walked down the hall. I heard the bus door open then close. I buried my face in my pillow to hide my tears.