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Going In Blind; Coming Out Broken
Noel and Gerard have been going out for awhile when Gerard breaks up with Noel. Now will Gerards new lover take Noel to use poor Frankie; or will she just kill Gerard's Gf?
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“So where are we stoppin’ tonight?” Helena; my mom; asked
“I don’t know” I looked out the window; yawning “I sorta wanted to go home; I’m tired”
“Home it is”
Me and my mom we’re always the tightest; she was like my best friend; she’s the kind I don’t mind going to the mall with; yah; she’s that cool. Of course there are times when I wish she won’t alive but who doesn’t? We just don’t do it as much. My mom would take me everywhere; mall; ice cream shop; you name it… well; as long as she was allowed to go; if not; she don’t want a damn thing to do wit you. And then I’d have to drive myself; and I tend to get lonely. I really don’t know what I’d do with out her…
“So what are we doing tomorrow?”
I turned around in my seat and looked forward “I don’t know…movie maybe?”
She smiled “That’s nice; I want to go see that new movie that came out… what was the name again?”
We slowed to a stop light “Hmm; was it that one with Cillian whatever his last name was?”
“Yeah; the hot one; can’t think of the name though”
“Was it Red Eye?”
“Yeah!” she snapped her fingers “That’s the name!”
I laughed and fell back into the seat “I wanted to see that too; so tomorrow at 1:00?”
She looked in the backseat at me “Sounds like we got a date”
I laughed and watched the light turn green “Lights green” I nudged to the light
She turned around and started going when all of the sudden a loud horn; from a truck; started…
Looking on my side I could see a big tracker trailer going full speed towards us
“MOM!” I yelled; I could see her look over and the car try to speed up; but not fast enough
“Looks like that movie is on hold”
Those where the last words I herd until I felt the car roll and my eyes close…
That was three weeks ago. I was released last week but my mom never made the hit; she died at the scene; I was in coma for about three days; I awoke to my family but no mom so I ask where she went; but when I got the answer of tears and a few people leaving the room; I understood what happened; and I too broke down in my boyfriend Jeff’s arms. It hit me pretty hard. After two days; my dad went home and it was just me and Jeff; we broke up; I couldn’t handle a relationship right now and he understood; we’re just good friends now. My mom’s funeral is today; her favorite band was My Chemical Romance; so they are playing. I'm getting ready in my room; my black long dress; heavy mascara on my green eyes; and my black hair pulled back into a clip that flipped it up; with some hair hanging down in my face; I looked and twirled at the full length mirror; sighing; I looked so much like my mom it wasn’t even funny; it’s too bad I'm going to be the only one in the family looking like this now.
I grabbed my purse and keys off my bed and walked down the stairs and out the door; into the silver convertible my mom got me for my birthday last month.
As I sat in the car; I stared at the picture of me and my mom in one of those picture booths at the mall; a small smile crossed my face; that was a fun day…
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I got out of the car and slammed my door. I stood next to my car and looked up at the tall church building. It was beautiful; something my mom would like to be at; somewhere peaceful and quite; hopefully that’s where she’s at now…
I sighed and started at the church when some guy with long black hair stopped me
“Hello? Are you Noel Jackson?”
“I uh- yes; who are you?”
“I'm Gerard Way; lead singer of My Chemical Romance; I'm going to be singing at your moms… well…” he looked down at his feet
“Funeral” I finished “It’s, um, okay” I laughed; a sad little laugh “I got used to the word”
“Oh; well; it’s nice meeting you” he held out his pale hand; I waited a second and then took it; he smiled and then walked away
I sighed; wiping the tears that built up while I was talk to that man… Gerard was it? Well I lied; I never got used to the word; especially with my mom in it.
I walked to the large doors of the palace and stepped in slowly; finding the band doing sound check and everyone seated. I looked around for a seat when I saw way up in the front; my dad waving towards me to sit down. I walked over to him and sat like the seat was bound to break at any moment
“I'm sorry this had to happen to you Noel” my dad whispered to me
I just nodded and looked forward; for know that if I looked at my dad; I would bust.
“Your mom was the best” I twitched “She was so nice and beautiful I ju-“
“Well then why did you leave dad?!” I yelled at the lowest possible voice “Why did you leave me and her with no money at all; nothing?!!!”
“Noel I wa-“
“Just forget it dad” I turned to the preacher giving his speech and the dancers getting in there positions “Just fucking forget it”
“Noel!!” my dad yelled
“I said forget it; you wanted nothing to do with us; now I want nothing to do with you”
“You know what; fine; I don’t want nothing to do with you and if you go broke; don’t come crawling to me”
“Save the shit dad; it’s not going to work”
I grabbed my stuff and moved to the next set of seats; just as Gerard got up to sing; and as I sat down; I saw Gerard give me a sad look; he must of herd us…
(Go to http://youtube.com/watch?v=WcwweoJDkV0&playnext=1 and continue reading)
As Gerard started; Mikey came up and Frank; Bob and Ray all paid there respects to mom; even though they never knew her; and I could feel the tears start to roll down my cheeks. It was almost too much…
’Burning on; just like a match; you strike to incinerate the lives; of everyone you know’
The tears were falling now as the dancers danced to Gerard’s heavenly voice and the band played like there was no tomorrow; I know this was something my mom would love to see…
’What’s the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and good night;
So long and good night
Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight’
Just then; Gerard’s head went down to pray; along with the rest; and me… I could just feel mom’s spirit among us; as it gets ready to soar into the heavens; and some things are just to hard to let go; I could feel my whole body shake and tremble while we prayed; felt as though I was going to pass out. It was all too much… and to know my mom was here with me; it overwhelmed me
We all lifted our heads up and the band was taking my mom out to the car; I followed; I know we weren’t allowed; I know I can’t but I want to see my mom go.
Gerard and the rest of the band were making there way down the last flight of steps and I followed; a few steps behind; the rain making my black hair stick to my face; my hand up to my mouth; my face all twisted with tears and emotion. It was bad enough my mom dead and being put away in a grave; but with Gerard’s emotion and voice in the song; it was almost too much to handle.
I watched the band put my mom’s coffin in the back of the car and closing the door; I just couldn’t watch anymore; this was my final goodbye to my mother…
“MOMMA!!” I cried
I started running to the car when a bodyguard grabbed me by the waist and held me back. I squirmed and screamed but he wouldn’t let me go.
“LET ME GO!!” I cried
“I can’t do that; you need to stay away from the band”
That made me snap; he thinks I'm a fan girl; I don’t even know these people and he thinks I'm a fan girl!
“Excuse me??!!” the tears kept falling “That’s my mom and I want to say good-bye; I don’t even know these people; my mom does; now LET ME GO!!!!” my voice was cracking the whole time; I was twisting and flipping; screaming and crying; doing all in my power to get out but he wouldn’t let me go and I could see the car slowly go by
“Let her go” I opened my eyes to see the band and Gerard around me; some guy with red in his hair was telling the guy to let me go
“But Frank; sir-“
“Fucking let her go” Gerard stepped in
Right then in there; the bodyguard let me go and I started running after the car; that was a good 10 feet away
“MOMMA!!” I screamed after the car “MOMMA; MOMMA!!!” I screamed again
It hit me that the car was not going to stop “Mom” I fell to my knees; staring at the car turn the corner; out of my sight
“Momma; no” I shook my head “No, no, no, no” my shaking hands came up to my face; hiding the tears and muffling the sobs
Soon I could feel people around me; one hand on my back; another hugging me; I opened my eyes and moved my hands; letting my head fall upon the mans chest; he smelled good; smelled like soap and cigarettes; I closed my eyes; I felt safe; I felt… at home.
~~~~``````````Frank’s POV`````````~~~~
I looked up at the guys “Now what?”
The girl; Noel I think; stopped sobbing and her breathing seemed deep and regular; I think she fell asleep on my chest; I felt sorry for her; she misses the only person in her life; her mom; and from the fight me and Gerard herd; her dad doesn’t want anything to do with her
“I don’t know” Gerard took his hand off her back “We could take her back to the church”
“Dumbass” Bob slapped him upside the head “She’s not a pet shithead!”
“Were dose she live?” Mikey asked
“Like we know” I said; lifting up with the girl in my arms
“We could take her back with us” Gerard added; stepping away from Bob
“I guess”
“Okay; we’ll do that”
I started walking towards the car; the band close behind; as I was walking; I looked down the Noel; she looked so much like her mom; she also looked a lot like Elena in her younger days; it must be hard for Gerard to look at her much less talk to her; but at least she’ll be sleeping in a bed; not a church…
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So Tell me; should i keep going on; or not? And this is a filler; next chapter will be about; lets say... well; tell me if you like it then you'll find out soon :) R&R&A (reveiw-rate-add!) Oh and; im 13; so im sorta new to this writing; so be easy!!! TTLY
“I don’t know” I looked out the window; yawning “I sorta wanted to go home; I’m tired”
“Home it is”
Me and my mom we’re always the tightest; she was like my best friend; she’s the kind I don’t mind going to the mall with; yah; she’s that cool. Of course there are times when I wish she won’t alive but who doesn’t? We just don’t do it as much. My mom would take me everywhere; mall; ice cream shop; you name it… well; as long as she was allowed to go; if not; she don’t want a damn thing to do wit you. And then I’d have to drive myself; and I tend to get lonely. I really don’t know what I’d do with out her…
“So what are we doing tomorrow?”
I turned around in my seat and looked forward “I don’t know…movie maybe?”
She smiled “That’s nice; I want to go see that new movie that came out… what was the name again?”
We slowed to a stop light “Hmm; was it that one with Cillian whatever his last name was?”
“Yeah; the hot one; can’t think of the name though”
“Was it Red Eye?”
“Yeah!” she snapped her fingers “That’s the name!”
I laughed and fell back into the seat “I wanted to see that too; so tomorrow at 1:00?”
She looked in the backseat at me “Sounds like we got a date”
I laughed and watched the light turn green “Lights green” I nudged to the light
She turned around and started going when all of the sudden a loud horn; from a truck; started…
Looking on my side I could see a big tracker trailer going full speed towards us
“MOM!” I yelled; I could see her look over and the car try to speed up; but not fast enough
“Looks like that movie is on hold”
Those where the last words I herd until I felt the car roll and my eyes close…
That was three weeks ago. I was released last week but my mom never made the hit; she died at the scene; I was in coma for about three days; I awoke to my family but no mom so I ask where she went; but when I got the answer of tears and a few people leaving the room; I understood what happened; and I too broke down in my boyfriend Jeff’s arms. It hit me pretty hard. After two days; my dad went home and it was just me and Jeff; we broke up; I couldn’t handle a relationship right now and he understood; we’re just good friends now. My mom’s funeral is today; her favorite band was My Chemical Romance; so they are playing. I'm getting ready in my room; my black long dress; heavy mascara on my green eyes; and my black hair pulled back into a clip that flipped it up; with some hair hanging down in my face; I looked and twirled at the full length mirror; sighing; I looked so much like my mom it wasn’t even funny; it’s too bad I'm going to be the only one in the family looking like this now.
I grabbed my purse and keys off my bed and walked down the stairs and out the door; into the silver convertible my mom got me for my birthday last month.
As I sat in the car; I stared at the picture of me and my mom in one of those picture booths at the mall; a small smile crossed my face; that was a fun day…
~~~~```````````````````Funeral``````````````````````~~~~
I got out of the car and slammed my door. I stood next to my car and looked up at the tall church building. It was beautiful; something my mom would like to be at; somewhere peaceful and quite; hopefully that’s where she’s at now…
I sighed and started at the church when some guy with long black hair stopped me
“Hello? Are you Noel Jackson?”
“I uh- yes; who are you?”
“I'm Gerard Way; lead singer of My Chemical Romance; I'm going to be singing at your moms… well…” he looked down at his feet
“Funeral” I finished “It’s, um, okay” I laughed; a sad little laugh “I got used to the word”
“Oh; well; it’s nice meeting you” he held out his pale hand; I waited a second and then took it; he smiled and then walked away
I sighed; wiping the tears that built up while I was talk to that man… Gerard was it? Well I lied; I never got used to the word; especially with my mom in it.
I walked to the large doors of the palace and stepped in slowly; finding the band doing sound check and everyone seated. I looked around for a seat when I saw way up in the front; my dad waving towards me to sit down. I walked over to him and sat like the seat was bound to break at any moment
“I'm sorry this had to happen to you Noel” my dad whispered to me
I just nodded and looked forward; for know that if I looked at my dad; I would bust.
“Your mom was the best” I twitched “She was so nice and beautiful I ju-“
“Well then why did you leave dad?!” I yelled at the lowest possible voice “Why did you leave me and her with no money at all; nothing?!!!”
“Noel I wa-“
“Just forget it dad” I turned to the preacher giving his speech and the dancers getting in there positions “Just fucking forget it”
“Noel!!” my dad yelled
“I said forget it; you wanted nothing to do with us; now I want nothing to do with you”
“You know what; fine; I don’t want nothing to do with you and if you go broke; don’t come crawling to me”
“Save the shit dad; it’s not going to work”
I grabbed my stuff and moved to the next set of seats; just as Gerard got up to sing; and as I sat down; I saw Gerard give me a sad look; he must of herd us…
(Go to http://youtube.com/watch?v=WcwweoJDkV0&playnext=1 and continue reading)
As Gerard started; Mikey came up and Frank; Bob and Ray all paid there respects to mom; even though they never knew her; and I could feel the tears start to roll down my cheeks. It was almost too much…
’Burning on; just like a match; you strike to incinerate the lives; of everyone you know’
The tears were falling now as the dancers danced to Gerard’s heavenly voice and the band played like there was no tomorrow; I know this was something my mom would love to see…
’What’s the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and good night;
So long and good night
Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight’
Just then; Gerard’s head went down to pray; along with the rest; and me… I could just feel mom’s spirit among us; as it gets ready to soar into the heavens; and some things are just to hard to let go; I could feel my whole body shake and tremble while we prayed; felt as though I was going to pass out. It was all too much… and to know my mom was here with me; it overwhelmed me
We all lifted our heads up and the band was taking my mom out to the car; I followed; I know we weren’t allowed; I know I can’t but I want to see my mom go.
Gerard and the rest of the band were making there way down the last flight of steps and I followed; a few steps behind; the rain making my black hair stick to my face; my hand up to my mouth; my face all twisted with tears and emotion. It was bad enough my mom dead and being put away in a grave; but with Gerard’s emotion and voice in the song; it was almost too much to handle.
I watched the band put my mom’s coffin in the back of the car and closing the door; I just couldn’t watch anymore; this was my final goodbye to my mother…
“MOMMA!!” I cried
I started running to the car when a bodyguard grabbed me by the waist and held me back. I squirmed and screamed but he wouldn’t let me go.
“LET ME GO!!” I cried
“I can’t do that; you need to stay away from the band”
That made me snap; he thinks I'm a fan girl; I don’t even know these people and he thinks I'm a fan girl!
“Excuse me??!!” the tears kept falling “That’s my mom and I want to say good-bye; I don’t even know these people; my mom does; now LET ME GO!!!!” my voice was cracking the whole time; I was twisting and flipping; screaming and crying; doing all in my power to get out but he wouldn’t let me go and I could see the car slowly go by
“Let her go” I opened my eyes to see the band and Gerard around me; some guy with red in his hair was telling the guy to let me go
“But Frank; sir-“
“Fucking let her go” Gerard stepped in
Right then in there; the bodyguard let me go and I started running after the car; that was a good 10 feet away
“MOMMA!!” I screamed after the car “MOMMA; MOMMA!!!” I screamed again
It hit me that the car was not going to stop “Mom” I fell to my knees; staring at the car turn the corner; out of my sight
“Momma; no” I shook my head “No, no, no, no” my shaking hands came up to my face; hiding the tears and muffling the sobs
Soon I could feel people around me; one hand on my back; another hugging me; I opened my eyes and moved my hands; letting my head fall upon the mans chest; he smelled good; smelled like soap and cigarettes; I closed my eyes; I felt safe; I felt… at home.
~~~~``````````Frank’s POV`````````~~~~
I looked up at the guys “Now what?”
The girl; Noel I think; stopped sobbing and her breathing seemed deep and regular; I think she fell asleep on my chest; I felt sorry for her; she misses the only person in her life; her mom; and from the fight me and Gerard herd; her dad doesn’t want anything to do with her
“I don’t know” Gerard took his hand off her back “We could take her back to the church”
“Dumbass” Bob slapped him upside the head “She’s not a pet shithead!”
“Were dose she live?” Mikey asked
“Like we know” I said; lifting up with the girl in my arms
“We could take her back with us” Gerard added; stepping away from Bob
“I guess”
“Okay; we’ll do that”
I started walking towards the car; the band close behind; as I was walking; I looked down the Noel; she looked so much like her mom; she also looked a lot like Elena in her younger days; it must be hard for Gerard to look at her much less talk to her; but at least she’ll be sleeping in a bed; not a church…
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So Tell me; should i keep going on; or not? And this is a filler; next chapter will be about; lets say... well; tell me if you like it then you'll find out soon :) R&R&A (reveiw-rate-add!) Oh and; im 13; so im sorta new to this writing; so be easy!!! TTLY
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