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The lights, the pyro, the roaring pool of people, and my love singing on the stage as I swivel my hips from side to side along to the beat. I stand in the wing of the stage, listening to him serenade girls in the crowd; all of them falling “in love” with him. Sometimes I can’t take it, but then I realize once he steps foot off the stage he is mine. This is my first time on tour with him and I’m not so sure if I will make it through the whole tour. The abundance of drugs, booze, and screaming girls is enough to make me want to off myself. But I was a screaming fan once, I just got lucky. The girlfriend of Gerard, the follower of My Chemical Romance, I’m Heidi…welcome to my world.
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Light Up the Liquor Bar

“Heidi…uh hello world to Heidi!” I can hear someone talking but my thoughts are drawing me in. I slowly turn around, its Emily of course; Frank’s girlfriend…always worried about me. I’m sitting at the table in the hotel room staring off out the big bay window, she joins me. I turn my attention towards her and smile, but not one of those honest smiles. “ Hi Emily.”
She giggles annoyingly. “ Came to check on you, I know how this tour thing is.” I nod, trying to brush her off. “Yeah…” she scoots closer to me. “ So how what’s the story with you and Gerard?” “ I’m his girlfriend…?”
“Oh silly! I know that, but when did you guys meet? You’re not some groupie whore are ya?”
I cringed and got up form the table. “Um…I’m going to smoke a cigarette.”
“I’ll go with.” I put my hand up. “ I’d rather go alone.” She followed me out the door and we went our separate ways. Thank god. I don’t think Emily and I are going to be friends anytime soon. I grabbed my cigarettes out of my back pocket on the way out the lobby.
I sat on one of the worn down benches.
I’m sure you’re wondering where I did come from and how the hell I got with THE Gerard Way.
Well, I’ve always been on the sidelines waiting, just waiting for him to notice me. But things change when you are front row and have a meet and greet. It wasn’t long ago that I was in the front row screaming my lungs out. I guess it helps when one of your friends are with on of the band members.: Kylie and Ray that is. We met, we talked, when on dates when ever he could find the time, and this is how I got here.

As I watched the smoke form my cigarette float in spirals my phone vibrated.
“Hey…looking for Emily?” It was Frank obviously.
“ I guess, where is she now?” I laughed. “ Well just awhile ago she barged into my hotel room…” He sighed. “ Sorry about that. I’m not sure if I should have brought her along. But anyway, Gerard said you should get ready for the red carpet and the party tonight.” I rolled my eyes. “Fine. I’ll meet up with you in the front lobby around 7.”
“ Okay, bye.”
“Bye.” Great. I have to get all dolled up for the cameras, I can’t wait till this tour really starts. I stomped out the glowing embers of my cigarette and made my way back to my room. On my way to the elevator I spotted Emily at one of the lobby tables. With a guy…a guy that’s not Frank, and it doesn’t look like he’s just a friend. Unless she rubs her friend’s knees, kisses them , and plays footsies under the table with them. At one point she caught my eye and stopped, but I kept on going. I’m sure she will confront me later begging me not to tell Frank. Frank never chooses the right girl; that boy deserves the best.

Once in my room I found a dress laid out already for me, of course by wardrobe. It was some frilly rose colored dress, not Heidi at all. I shoved it off the bed replacing it with one of my own dresses. The one Gerard bought me; dark red with black lace and amazing beading down the front. Took a quick shower and attempted to do something with the mess on my head. Then I applied light makeup, no need to put ten pounds of foundation on my face. After this I looked pretty decent. Grabbing my dress I slipped it over my head and tied the back up, put my black pantyhose on, and my black ballet flats. I put my phone and cigarettes away safely in my clutch, and took the ride down to the lobby to wait for the boys. I could hear someone walking behind me, almost stomping it sounded like. Turning around I spotted him; my “hard ass” turned to puddle of mush. He always has this affect on me, when he’s near me I have no control. I turn into a complete pansy. Smiling goofily I stood up holding out my hand. He laughed. “ Thank you for the hand shake Heidi. But I’d rather take a kiss; no shame here.” Blushing like an idiot I wrapped my short arms around his neck as far as they would go. I brought my self into an unexpected kiss; it was sloppy, too wet, out of synch, and tasted like liquor.
Not the way to start the night.
I can see this tour ending short for me.
I glared at him letting go and stomped off to the limo waiting outside.