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Help me fill these wounds, even though it's not your fault.
Frankies POV on what he is going to do.
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A/N: YOU SHOULD FEEL LOVED!...its halloween...HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRANKKKIE! and my friend is teasing me with candy!! im like a 3 year old when it comes to candy! anyways here is a halloween treat...CHAPTER 6!! enjoy!
Frank’s POV
Well I have decided to tell the others, Gee knows I told him ages ago, everyone is getting sus about my sus behavior and Gee’s behavior! I have spoken to Gee and he agrees, I should tell everyone, and maybe this might stop, well I hope it will, at least Gee will be by my side for every step of the way. God I sound like a fucking Pansy, no wonder I have it burnt into my flesh; there is no better way to tell a person what you think of them than to burn it into their flesh, and that is why I have “Pansy” burnt into my inner thigh. Well I have no fucking clue how to tell the others. As I lay here in Gee’s arms I haven’t felt more safe in my life, but I know that he can’t tell them for me I have to do this for myself he even said so himself. Well all this thinking and not doing is making me scared shitless of what I am about to, how will they react? Will they laugh at me? Will they go spaz? How will they react? That is what is scaring me the most. I guess Gee could see my discomfort so he started to rub soothing circles on my back, it felt really nice, I almost fell asleep but Gee whispered in my ear gently that is was time.
So after we got all the guys in the back lounging area it was time for me to talk. As I stood in front of all three of them, I couldn’t help but try to squish myself in to Gerard’s side to hide from them all, never in all this time of knowing these guys have I wanted to hide away from them, never have I been so afraid of them, I was like a little kid who is scared of the boogey man, I was like a little kid hiding behind their mother or father when they are meeting someone new, some one strange. I knew it was time for me to talk when Gee gave me a gentle squeeze of reassurance. So I looked at them all, they all looked back concerned but to me it was like them looking at a strange animal, god I have to stop thinking like this! As I took a deep breath in Ray ask what I had to tell them and could I please hurry it up cuz he felt like he was going to be sick. So I took another deep breath and held on tight to Gee. I told them what happened as calmly as I could
“Guys, I’m so sorry for killing our band for the past twelve months, I’m so sorry for killing you all for a year, but there is a reason, a horrible reason and Gee knows what it is.” That’s as far as I got before the water works turned on. I let out a little sigh as Gee wiped the tears from my face and I continued
“ The reason being, I have been getting abused by my fiancé. By Jamia, it all started before I asked her to marry her, I told her it was over because I’m Gay, she didn’t want that, so she started to bash me, starve me, lock me up and so on, she told me to ask her to marry her otherwise someone that I loved dearly would pay, so for the past twelve months I’ve tried to put on an act no matter the pain I’m in. I’m so sorry I kept this from you but I needed to and now I’m going to the cops, I’m going to get rid of her and I really need you guys to support me, please” and I just lost it after that, I was so emotional Gerard had to hold me up, They guys had tears falling as well as me, Gerard was crying as well, he held me as I cried from relief, embarrassment and pain. As soon as we finished crying and hugging we knew it was time to go to the cops, we made a special stop back in New Jersey so we could get Jamia arrested. We went straight to the cops and told them everything. I watched as they brought her into custody and then they insisted I go to hospital to get treated, then we could go on tour again until I had to testify in court. After the hospital, Gee got all my medication for the untreated injuries I had and left me with Mikes, Ray and Bob. They all looked after me, each giving me a big hug and making sure I knew that they are there to help me no matter what. God I love these guys so much.
So after taking my meds and sitting with the guys watching them play video games I ended up falling asleep in Gee’s lap, what can I say? He is warm and his embrace feels like home and love…its weird. Thank god that day is over, thank god, I can finally start to recover.
A/N: NOW IT’S RECOVERY TIME FOR FRANKIE!...sorry im a lil hyper because I can stop Frankie from being all pained and stuff now he can get better!!! If any of you guys have an idea on how this story should go, like should Jamia come back and attack Frankie? Should she hold the band hostage and kill them? Or would you like her to be sentenced and jailed and then Frankie fall in love? Who should he fall in love with? YOU TELL ME =D okay?? Who ever has the most creative continuation or the nicest or whatever will have the rest of the story dedicated to them and will receive something in an email…I don’t know what yet…so tell me your idea’s!!
Frank’s POV
Well I have decided to tell the others, Gee knows I told him ages ago, everyone is getting sus about my sus behavior and Gee’s behavior! I have spoken to Gee and he agrees, I should tell everyone, and maybe this might stop, well I hope it will, at least Gee will be by my side for every step of the way. God I sound like a fucking Pansy, no wonder I have it burnt into my flesh; there is no better way to tell a person what you think of them than to burn it into their flesh, and that is why I have “Pansy” burnt into my inner thigh. Well I have no fucking clue how to tell the others. As I lay here in Gee’s arms I haven’t felt more safe in my life, but I know that he can’t tell them for me I have to do this for myself he even said so himself. Well all this thinking and not doing is making me scared shitless of what I am about to, how will they react? Will they laugh at me? Will they go spaz? How will they react? That is what is scaring me the most. I guess Gee could see my discomfort so he started to rub soothing circles on my back, it felt really nice, I almost fell asleep but Gee whispered in my ear gently that is was time.
So after we got all the guys in the back lounging area it was time for me to talk. As I stood in front of all three of them, I couldn’t help but try to squish myself in to Gerard’s side to hide from them all, never in all this time of knowing these guys have I wanted to hide away from them, never have I been so afraid of them, I was like a little kid who is scared of the boogey man, I was like a little kid hiding behind their mother or father when they are meeting someone new, some one strange. I knew it was time for me to talk when Gee gave me a gentle squeeze of reassurance. So I looked at them all, they all looked back concerned but to me it was like them looking at a strange animal, god I have to stop thinking like this! As I took a deep breath in Ray ask what I had to tell them and could I please hurry it up cuz he felt like he was going to be sick. So I took another deep breath and held on tight to Gee. I told them what happened as calmly as I could
“Guys, I’m so sorry for killing our band for the past twelve months, I’m so sorry for killing you all for a year, but there is a reason, a horrible reason and Gee knows what it is.” That’s as far as I got before the water works turned on. I let out a little sigh as Gee wiped the tears from my face and I continued
“ The reason being, I have been getting abused by my fiancé. By Jamia, it all started before I asked her to marry her, I told her it was over because I’m Gay, she didn’t want that, so she started to bash me, starve me, lock me up and so on, she told me to ask her to marry her otherwise someone that I loved dearly would pay, so for the past twelve months I’ve tried to put on an act no matter the pain I’m in. I’m so sorry I kept this from you but I needed to and now I’m going to the cops, I’m going to get rid of her and I really need you guys to support me, please” and I just lost it after that, I was so emotional Gerard had to hold me up, They guys had tears falling as well as me, Gerard was crying as well, he held me as I cried from relief, embarrassment and pain. As soon as we finished crying and hugging we knew it was time to go to the cops, we made a special stop back in New Jersey so we could get Jamia arrested. We went straight to the cops and told them everything. I watched as they brought her into custody and then they insisted I go to hospital to get treated, then we could go on tour again until I had to testify in court. After the hospital, Gee got all my medication for the untreated injuries I had and left me with Mikes, Ray and Bob. They all looked after me, each giving me a big hug and making sure I knew that they are there to help me no matter what. God I love these guys so much.
So after taking my meds and sitting with the guys watching them play video games I ended up falling asleep in Gee’s lap, what can I say? He is warm and his embrace feels like home and love…its weird. Thank god that day is over, thank god, I can finally start to recover.
A/N: NOW IT’S RECOVERY TIME FOR FRANKIE!...sorry im a lil hyper because I can stop Frankie from being all pained and stuff now he can get better!!! If any of you guys have an idea on how this story should go, like should Jamia come back and attack Frankie? Should she hold the band hostage and kill them? Or would you like her to be sentenced and jailed and then Frankie fall in love? Who should he fall in love with? YOU TELL ME =D okay?? Who ever has the most creative continuation or the nicest or whatever will have the rest of the story dedicated to them and will receive something in an email…I don’t know what yet…so tell me your idea’s!!
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