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I sat in the sat in the waiting room, scared to death.
I’ve never been so fucking scared in my whole life.
What happened?
Why did it happen?
And what’s going to happen?

I anxiously waited for a nurse to come and tell me what the fuck just happened.

“Mr. Iero?
I shot up and faced the nurse.
“What happened to my girlfriend? Where’s my baby?” I yelled frantically.
“Mr. Iero. You’re daughter is fine….But Emily….I’m so sorry but we….. lost her” she whispered apologetically.
“Wh.….what?” I mumbled, on the verge of braking down into tears.

Something had to be wrong. She couldn’t be dead. She was doing great. They must have had the wrong girl.
“I’m so sorry…..you see, Emily had a tumor in her abdomen, which can be quite common with young expecting mothers. We told her that if she didn’t proceed in the birth, than she would’ve been okay, but she chose to sacrifice her life to save her baby.” She told me.
I just stood there. Speechless. Like I was just in this stupid nightmare that I should wake up out of in any second. But I didn’t wake up. And Emily was gone.
“Why the fuck didn’t you tell me! I mean isn’t it like fucking illegal to fucking keep something this big from fucking loved ones?!” I spat.
“Mr. Iero, she told us to not tell you, or anyone. That was just her decision”
“Bullshit!” I yelled. I just broke down and slid down the wall that was behind me and put my head in my hands while I cried. I sat there for at least 45 minutes. I just couldn’t fucking believe that she fucking kept this away from me. She’s gone. And now I have a fucking baby girl that I’m going to have to raise by my self. How the fuck was I going to cope, how the fuck could she do something like this.
“Oh my God, frank!” Celeste ran towards me from the front hospital door, along with Gerard, Bob, Mikey, Ray, Cara, and Tracy.
“Oh my god, frank how did this happen!” Tracy cried and scooped down next to me and cried into my neck.
She had a fucking tumor. And she didn’t fucking tell me…and now she’s fucking dead and I have a daughter that will grow up with no fucking mother.
All the girls were crying hysterically. The guys were swearing and sobbing.
“I can’t fucking believe she’s gone” Gerard mumbled quietly.
“I loved her so much. Everything was going perfect. And out of fucking know where she just dies?” I cried without making any eye contact with anyone.
“I’m so sorry, frank” Gerard hugged me. I just sat there looking at the plain white wall that was across from were we were sitting.
“Guys, I just got off the phone to Emily’s Mom… I told her what happened.” Cara struggled to say through her trembling voice.
“How did she take it?” Mikey asked, trembling as well.
“Not too good” Cara replied wiping her light brown hair away from her eyes.
“Frank, are you gonna see how your baby is?” Bob looked up at me.
Shit. I had totally forgotten about her. I didn’t think I was going to be able to do it. Look at my daughter. Knowing that because of her, my girlfriend is dead.
“Um… I don’t know.” I said plainly.
“Well… dude, your kid might want to see her daddy” Ray said.
“I can’t….I just….-
“Frank, trust me, it’ll make you feel better” Celeste cut me off.
A single tear rolled down my cheek as I looked at the cold, hard ground.
“Okay” I said plainly as I got up.
“Do you want someone to co-
“No. I Think I should do this alone” I looked at Tracy who replied with an apologetic smile.
I asked a nurse were to find my daughter who led me to a glass window.
Inside the glass window were all these babies. The nurse pointed to this tiny little baby, which had a tag on it saying “Iero”. She left the room while I looked at my baby.
She had her eyes closed. She looked so much like Emily. Tears rolled down my face and I just continued to watch her sleep.
“I’m sorry…I…I’m sorry your going to have to grow up without a Mom. You would’ve liked her. She was amazing. Beautiful, smart...she would’ve loved you so much.” I started to cry and remembered what Emily wanted me to tell her.
“She wants you to know that she was sorry that she had to leave before you could even meet her…and she wanted to know that she loved you so much….and she’ll always be watching over you.” I started to tremble on my words.
“I promise I’ll take care of you. And I promise you I’ll try and be the best father to you. I love you so much, Lily. I sobbed and wiped away my tears.
I just stood there watching my daughter sleep for a while.
“Oh, frank she’s absolutely gorgeous” Gerard smiled as he marveled at Lily.
“Yeah, she’s beautiful” I smiled.
“What are you going to name her?” he said looking at me.
“Lily” I said looking back at Gerard.
“Lily? That’s real cute.” Gerard put his hand on my shoulder and looked at her.
“Emily wanted to call her Lily” I looked down at the floor and I felt my eyes watering up again. I blinked and cleared my eyes.
“Oh my god” everyone came in, gasped and looked through the glass wide eyed.
“She’s adorable, Frankie” Cara smiled and put her arm around my waist.
“What are you gonna call her?” Mikey asked taking his eyes off the glass.
“Lily Anastasia Iero” I smiled.
“ Naw Frankie, Emily would love that” Celeste put her head on my shoulder.
I Named her Lily Anastasia because Anastasia was Emily’s last name. And I knew she would’ve liked that. It was going to be really hard without Emily. But I was going to make sure that Lily will always feel loved.
No matter what.