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This is my December.
Central in winter. A gorgeous sight.
This is my time of the year.
If you don't live there, that is.
This is my December.
If you work there... That's twice as bad.
This is all so clear.
Don't even say "military"... That's the worst job to have in the winter.
Just wish that I wouldn't feel like there was something I missed.
There were other problems in winter for Edward Elric, however.
Just wish that I wouldn't feel like there was something I missed.
His auto-mail would act up, causing long nights with no sleep, and frequent calls from that damned Winry.
This is my December.
A tired Roy Mustang to deal with and an over-optimistic Alphonse.
This is my snow-covered home.
Over the three snow-covered winters Edward has endured through in his quest for the Stone, he's learned how to deal with this.
This is my December.
Shut everything out.
This is me alone.
And I
Just wish that I wouldn't feel like there was something I missed.
In due time, doing this year after year... The line between insanity and reality has grown thin, and about to crack. His disposition has worried many, and hurt those close to him.
And I
Take back all the things I said to make you feel like that.
Winry's stopped calling.
And I
Just wish that I wouldn't feel like there was something I missed.
If Alphonse were human, he would spend his hours crying.
And I
Take back all the things that I said to you.
And any day now, Mustang will kill him out of pure hate.
And I
Give it all away.
And Edward is okay with that. Because this is how he will save the world.
Just to have somewhere to go to.
Give it all away.
This mechanical way of finding the Stone is sure to just leave it on their doorstep. Having no emotions will make it so much easier to fix Alphonse.
To have someone to come home to.
This is my December.
This is his December.
These are my snow-covered trees.
This is his life now.
This is me pretending.
This is all I need.
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And I
Just wish that I wouldn't feel like there was something I missed.
He hasn't noticed Al sneaking knives upstairs, and shreds of metal shavings on the floor.
And I
Take back all the things I said to make you feel like that.
He hasn't noticed how people are liable to take days off when Mustang needs to call in Edward Elric.
And I
Just wish that I wouldn't feel like there was something I missed.
He didn't read the letter Winry sent him.
And I
Take back all the things that I said to you.
Or the suicide note that came after.
And I
Give it all away.
Just to have somewhere to go to.
All he does is work downstairs in the room he fashioned for himself...
Give it all away.
To have someone to come home to.
Making something to bring back someone he doesn't even care about anymore.
This is my December.
He's doing it to prove he can.
This is my time of the year.
He believes that without this motive, he would be nothing.
This is my December.
This is all
So clear.
It's extremely clear in his mind.
Give it all away.
Just to have somewhere to go to.
As he nears completion...
Give it all away.
He doesn't eat.
To have someone to come home to.
He doesn't sleep.
Give it all away.
He finishes.
Just to have somewhere to go to.
Showing the first emotion in a long time, he triumphantly carries the precious element up to Alphonse's room.
Give it all away.
To have someone to come home to.
Only to realize that the armor has been vacant for so long....