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I’ve been visiting Tracy in the hospital for nearly two weeks now. Everyone has, Except for Gerard.
Gerard isn’t doing to well…. He’s been getting drunk at pubs every night, Doing drugs and getting into fights. Yet, I couldn’t blame him, Tracy was his girlfriend, and he loved her more then anything.

“Can I see Tracy Hayward?” I asked the lady at the front desk.

“Sure” she chirped and led me to her room.

“There you go, sir” she smiled.

“Oh and by the way, your baby is absolutely adorable, is she yours?” she slightly gasped and smiled at Lily.

“Yeah, she is mine” I smiled back.

She smiled and left the room.

I sat down on a chair that was next to the hospital bed.

“Hey Trace” I sighed.

“Everyone misses you, you know” I bit my lip and looked at her pale, frail face.

“Don’t you think it’s about time you wake up?” I reached down and took hold of her lifeless, cold hand.

I looked at all the life support that was surrounding her and sighed. Listening to the
Beeping sound of the black box that was showing if she was alive or not.

“You can’t leave me Tracy…You just can’t …..I need you so much….and Gerard and the girls and even Lily….you can’t leave as well….I already lost Emily…. I can’t lose you too” I trembled as two tears rolled down on each cheek.

I just wanted her to say something, like she usually would. She used to always respond so fast to anything.

And now it was like she was dead. Not saying anything, just lying there in her hospital bed…. lifeless and fragile.

“Please…please just squeeze my hand to tell me you can hear me...and that you’re going to wake up”

I looked down at her hand, waiting for it to move.

But it didn’t move. It didn’t even twitch. I started to sob as I laid my head on her stomach.

I sat there crying for about half an hour until one of nurses came in.
“I’m really sorry, sir…but visiting hours are over now.” She said apologetically.
I lifted my head up slowly and nodded.

“Uh…I’ll just say goodbye then” I said plainly.

“Sure”

I looked at Tracy and pursed my lips together.

“Well. I guess we better say goodbye to Trace then, hey Lilz?” I leaned over and kissed Tracy’s forehead.

I decided to drop by Gerard’s to see how he was going.

I arrived at his apartment and got out the car. It suddenly started to poor down with rain. I zipped up my black hoodie and ran inside, holding Lily close to my chest, making sure she didn’t get wet.

“Gerard?” I said loudly. There were empty bottles of booze everywhere.

I noticed that the bathroom door was opened.

“…Gerard? I said as I entered the bathroom and saw him on the floor, completely wasted, with blood all over his wrists.

“GERARD!” I yelled and lied Lily down on the chair that was in the bathroom and ran to Gerard.

He wasn’t passed out, But close to it.

“Fuck, Gerard, what the hell have you done!?” I said frantically as I lifted him up and walked him to the couch and lied him down.

“H…hey Frankie” he slurred as he opened his eyes slightly.

“Hang on, Gerard lets get you fixed up” I said to him while I ran into the kitchen and soaked a cloth in water and started to clean his wrists. They weren’t too deep but they were pretty bloody.

“Holly shit, dude…you’re really hot” he laughed.

“Gerard, why did you this?” I looked into his eyes, concerned.

“Because it makes me feel better.” he giggled.

I grabbed a blanket from the bottom of the couch and laid it on Gerard.

“Get some rest, okay? Everything’s going to fine.” I said to him while I raided his apartment, trying to find any remaining drugs or alcohol. Anything I found, I destroyed and put it at the bottom of the trash can. I grabbed Lily and looked at Gerard.

“Shit” I mumbled as I left his apartment.
Shit.