Categories > Celebrities > My Chemical Romance > I will follow you into the dark
"Pony!” Lilly’s voice beamed through the house.
“Lily!” I moaned loudly as Lily sat on my back and started thrusting.
“Why don’t you go ride Stacey? I whined.
“But, daddy, Stacey’s awways sleeping” She whined back and pouted.
If you’re wondering, Stacey is her rocking horse. Along with the other 50 toys she’s named.
Sunny
Dixie
Willow
Flower
Moonbeam & sunbeam
Ally
Annie
Rosie
Daisy
Meg
Alice
Madison
Barbie
Lesty(named after Celeste)
And Bambie.
Of coarse those weren’t even half of them.
They just happen to be her favorites.
For a five year old, she was quite creative.
She was always either drawing, or she was collecting rocks, catching butterflies and other insects that she though was pretty, or picking out the odd strands of grass that had two stems.
At the age of two, I caught her sorting out different kinds of flowers that she had collected from the backyard.
She’s quite, and she loves anyone who acknowledges her.
She was a spiting image of Emily.
She was a lot like her as well.
I knew Emily would’ve loved her.
I knew Lilly would have loved Emily.
“Lily, are you ready to go to Gerard’s and Tracie’s?”
I looked down at Lilly who had her pink nighty and one sock on.
“Yes” she smiled.
I sighed and rolled my eyes as I lifted her up on my shoulders and took her into her room to get dressed.
I took out her orange dress, with ruffles at the bottom.
“I don’t like owange” She said quietly.
“Fuck, Lilly what do you wanna wear then? I gotta go to band practice with ray, Bob, and Mikey.
Her jaw dropped and she covered her mouth quickly in shock.
“Daddy” she barely whispered as she continued to gasp.
“You said a naughty word” she whispered.
“Well….” I looked around the room, trying to figure out what to say.
“Come on, pick out something to wear and then we’ll leave”
I said, changing the subject.
“Okay” she chirped and picked up her little white dress with yellow flowers on it.
I Walked out her room to let her get changed.
“ Weddy!” she said happily as she came out her room, quickly brushing her long, black hair.
“Common then” I laughed and reached my arm out to hers.
As I was driving I looked over at Emily who had her window down, so the wind was blowing her hair everywhere, and she was squinting due the blaring sun that was beaming into her eyes.
She turned her head to me.
But it wasn’t Lilly.
It was Emily.
Emily?
“What the hell” I mumbled confusingly, still looking shocked at Emily.
“Frank! Watch the fucking road!” She yelled.
I quickly turned my head back onto the road as I swerved the car slightly.
I started to slow down at the red light that was coming up.
I looked back to see Lily.
Staring at me, looking slightly scared.
“Daddy?” she said, studying my face.
“Sorry, baby….I just thought I… saw …a cat… on the road” I replied, unsure of what to say to her.
Her face suddenly changed from confused to an interested kind of face.
“What kind of cat?” she asked excitedly.
“Um….uhh….a...black one” I stuttered.
“Oh” she said and continued to look outside her window.
I pulled up in Gerard’s and Tracie’s home.
They lived together.
They were also engaged.
Lilly got out the car, shut the car door behind her and skipped up to the front door.
I smiled at her cuteness as I followed her.
Tracy opened the door and bent down to hug lily.
“twacy!” Lily yelled and looked up at Tracy.
“Oh my god, Lily, I’ve missed you so much” Tracie laughed.
“Is that my pretty, pretty princess that I can hear?” Gerard came up from behind Tracy.
“gewawd!” Lilly yelled and hugged his legs.
“Wow, princess you’re getting tall” Gerard laughed.
“guess what Lily?” I was just to make blueberry nut muffins” Tracy smiled.
“can I help?!” she gasped.
Tracy and Lilly ran to the kitchen while me and Gerard where still standing in front of the house.
“Thanks Gerard, for looking after Lilly” I said, breaking the awkward silence.
“No problem, Tracy loves Lilly” he shot back.
“Well um, I better get going, see ya, Gerard” I said.
“Bye” Gerard replied before shutting the door.
Every since that day I found Gerard nearly passed out on the bathroom floor, it’s been awkward and different between us.
[[Tracy’s pov]]
Lilly and I were splashing milk and flour everywhere, attempting to make blueberry nut muffins.
I looked at Lilly who was completely focused on stirring the flour and milk.
She was so much like Emily.
Anything Emily started, she would finish it, and she would finish it damn well.
Just like Lilly.
She looked up at me, noticing that I was staring at her and looked at me innocently.
“What’s wong?” she asked me quietly.
I looked into her huge hazel eyes, which she must have gotten from frank.
“Nothing, baby, I was just thinking about how much you’re like your Mom” I smiled and continued to crack some eggs.
“Why did mommy die?” she said quietly, still looking into my eyes.
I looked at the ground. I could feel my eyes going fuzzy.
No one ever told Lilly the whole story about how Emily died.
I guess because she wouldn’t have understood.
“Well, I don’t know…no one knows why people die” I said, not sure of where I was going.
“Did Mommy love me?” she asked quietly.
I blinked back the tears that were welling up and smiled back at her.
“of coarse she did….she loved you so, so much…even though she didn’t know you…she still loved you, and would have been so proud of you” I said and kissed her on her forehead.
She smiled and started to stir the flour again.
“Does Way love me?” she asked.
“Of coarse Ray loves you!” I laughed.
“What about Gewawd and Mikey and Bobby and Celeste and Cawa?” she said in one big slur.
I laughed at how she pronounced words with R’s to sound like W’s.
Like Way- Ray
Gewawd- Gerard
And Cawa- Cara.
“Of course they love you! Everyone loves you, Lilly!” I laughed and kissed her on her forehead again.
She giggled and continued make muffins.
I loved her so much.
“Lily!” I moaned loudly as Lily sat on my back and started thrusting.
“Why don’t you go ride Stacey? I whined.
“But, daddy, Stacey’s awways sleeping” She whined back and pouted.
If you’re wondering, Stacey is her rocking horse. Along with the other 50 toys she’s named.
Sunny
Dixie
Willow
Flower
Moonbeam & sunbeam
Ally
Annie
Rosie
Daisy
Meg
Alice
Madison
Barbie
Lesty(named after Celeste)
And Bambie.
Of coarse those weren’t even half of them.
They just happen to be her favorites.
For a five year old, she was quite creative.
She was always either drawing, or she was collecting rocks, catching butterflies and other insects that she though was pretty, or picking out the odd strands of grass that had two stems.
At the age of two, I caught her sorting out different kinds of flowers that she had collected from the backyard.
She’s quite, and she loves anyone who acknowledges her.
She was a spiting image of Emily.
She was a lot like her as well.
I knew Emily would’ve loved her.
I knew Lilly would have loved Emily.
“Lily, are you ready to go to Gerard’s and Tracie’s?”
I looked down at Lilly who had her pink nighty and one sock on.
“Yes” she smiled.
I sighed and rolled my eyes as I lifted her up on my shoulders and took her into her room to get dressed.
I took out her orange dress, with ruffles at the bottom.
“I don’t like owange” She said quietly.
“Fuck, Lilly what do you wanna wear then? I gotta go to band practice with ray, Bob, and Mikey.
Her jaw dropped and she covered her mouth quickly in shock.
“Daddy” she barely whispered as she continued to gasp.
“You said a naughty word” she whispered.
“Well….” I looked around the room, trying to figure out what to say.
“Come on, pick out something to wear and then we’ll leave”
I said, changing the subject.
“Okay” she chirped and picked up her little white dress with yellow flowers on it.
I Walked out her room to let her get changed.
“ Weddy!” she said happily as she came out her room, quickly brushing her long, black hair.
“Common then” I laughed and reached my arm out to hers.
As I was driving I looked over at Emily who had her window down, so the wind was blowing her hair everywhere, and she was squinting due the blaring sun that was beaming into her eyes.
She turned her head to me.
But it wasn’t Lilly.
It was Emily.
Emily?
“What the hell” I mumbled confusingly, still looking shocked at Emily.
“Frank! Watch the fucking road!” She yelled.
I quickly turned my head back onto the road as I swerved the car slightly.
I started to slow down at the red light that was coming up.
I looked back to see Lily.
Staring at me, looking slightly scared.
“Daddy?” she said, studying my face.
“Sorry, baby….I just thought I… saw …a cat… on the road” I replied, unsure of what to say to her.
Her face suddenly changed from confused to an interested kind of face.
“What kind of cat?” she asked excitedly.
“Um….uhh….a...black one” I stuttered.
“Oh” she said and continued to look outside her window.
I pulled up in Gerard’s and Tracie’s home.
They lived together.
They were also engaged.
Lilly got out the car, shut the car door behind her and skipped up to the front door.
I smiled at her cuteness as I followed her.
Tracy opened the door and bent down to hug lily.
“twacy!” Lily yelled and looked up at Tracy.
“Oh my god, Lily, I’ve missed you so much” Tracie laughed.
“Is that my pretty, pretty princess that I can hear?” Gerard came up from behind Tracy.
“gewawd!” Lilly yelled and hugged his legs.
“Wow, princess you’re getting tall” Gerard laughed.
“guess what Lily?” I was just to make blueberry nut muffins” Tracy smiled.
“can I help?!” she gasped.
Tracy and Lilly ran to the kitchen while me and Gerard where still standing in front of the house.
“Thanks Gerard, for looking after Lilly” I said, breaking the awkward silence.
“No problem, Tracy loves Lilly” he shot back.
“Well um, I better get going, see ya, Gerard” I said.
“Bye” Gerard replied before shutting the door.
Every since that day I found Gerard nearly passed out on the bathroom floor, it’s been awkward and different between us.
[[Tracy’s pov]]
Lilly and I were splashing milk and flour everywhere, attempting to make blueberry nut muffins.
I looked at Lilly who was completely focused on stirring the flour and milk.
She was so much like Emily.
Anything Emily started, she would finish it, and she would finish it damn well.
Just like Lilly.
She looked up at me, noticing that I was staring at her and looked at me innocently.
“What’s wong?” she asked me quietly.
I looked into her huge hazel eyes, which she must have gotten from frank.
“Nothing, baby, I was just thinking about how much you’re like your Mom” I smiled and continued to crack some eggs.
“Why did mommy die?” she said quietly, still looking into my eyes.
I looked at the ground. I could feel my eyes going fuzzy.
No one ever told Lilly the whole story about how Emily died.
I guess because she wouldn’t have understood.
“Well, I don’t know…no one knows why people die” I said, not sure of where I was going.
“Did Mommy love me?” she asked quietly.
I blinked back the tears that were welling up and smiled back at her.
“of coarse she did….she loved you so, so much…even though she didn’t know you…she still loved you, and would have been so proud of you” I said and kissed her on her forehead.
She smiled and started to stir the flour again.
“Does Way love me?” she asked.
“Of coarse Ray loves you!” I laughed.
“What about Gewawd and Mikey and Bobby and Celeste and Cawa?” she said in one big slur.
I laughed at how she pronounced words with R’s to sound like W’s.
Like Way- Ray
Gewawd- Gerard
And Cawa- Cara.
“Of course they love you! Everyone loves you, Lilly!” I laughed and kissed her on her forehead again.
She giggled and continued make muffins.
I loved her so much.
Sign up to rate and review this story