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A/N: There's something in the way a baby looks at the world, like it doesn't know just how big it is -Unknown

I managed to stumble into the kitchen where a girl named Kate was drapped over some guy, she spotted me and squeeled. Kate lept into my arms, but i was more interested in finding Gerard. I couldn't exactly ask anyone either. So I made an appearance in every room, showing off my southern charm.

"Devon!" Alicia called.

"Hi there," I replied.

"Where's Frank?"

"Back home, what happened on the way over here?"

Alicia motioned me to a quieter part of the room.

"He got really silent, asked Mikey stuff about Gerard and when Mikey answered he said he was going home."

I glanced down.

"What stuff about Gerard?"

"Stuff like, if Gerard wanted something from you, like money," She took a swig of her drink, "He kept thinking you were being black mailed or something."

I softly chuckled.

"No, I'm tutoring him, it's not going so great...," I pointed to my eye.

"Devon! Why didn't you tell us that?"

I shrugged. Heck if i was lieing now, might as well hit a home run.

"I didn't want to make a big show out of it, I can handle myself...please don't tell Mikey or Frank. I don't want them to get upset."

Alicia nodded in a knowing way. This is why I prefered to be friends with girls, they tended not to get hysterical right away. Guys blew their steam off by fighting, at least some girls kept their promise and didn't talk about secrets. I hoped Alicia wouldn't say anything.

We parted and I headed to the upstairs of the house, I needed to get away from the music and people. It wasn't easy pretending everything was okay...I kept worrying where Gerard was and if Frank was okay. I managed to find a dark room, I closed the door behind me and locked it. Gerard spoke in the silence.

"I'm glad I chose this room," he said, I jumped.

"I've been looking for you."

"And you've found me."

He smelt like achohal like myself. Gerard pulled me into a hug and kissed my neck, he was so gentle...like he didn't want to scare me off. I sawyed slightly and he caught me.

"Lets get you home," he whispered in my ear.

"No," I grabbed my stomach and felt really sick, "I can't go home like this, take me somewhere else."

Gerard pulled my bangs out of my eyes, I had gone completely white.

"Where can I take you?" He tried to hold me as I toppled to the floor, he pulled me against his chest, "You can hardly sit up let alone stand."

I pushed him away and crawled over to the bed pulling me up to stand, he was right behind me. I grabbed a small blanket off the bed and stuffed it under my coat. Gerard laughed as I put another blanket under his shirt.

"What are you doing?"

"Let go to that place in woods," I mumbled and headed to the door.

"Are spot?" he said softly helping me unlock the door.

I nodded, and then he took my arm and swung it over his shoulder.

*

After a very long session of vomiting outside of Hannah's house and a corresponging bus ride Gerard and I had managed to stumble into the woods. I wasn't as drunk as I was before, Gerard had given me some gum to chew. I was thankful for that, I could get the taste out of my mouth.

We pulled the blankets we'd stolen out of our coats lying one on top of the other. I lay down next to Gerard and he stroked my hair. I wasn't sure what we were going to do, the attraction was really strong between us.

"Devon," Gerard said softly, "can I kiss you?"

"You, don't even have to ask," I whispered back.

He grabbed my hips and pulled me on top of him, we kissed, hard and pressured he pulled me next to him after a while and slowly put his hand under my shirt. Gerard pulled it up and made a move to bit my hip again, his teeth grinding against my bone.

Bits of the night went before me, I found myself kissing every bit of Gerard I could find. It wasn't untill he'd turned me around that I knew he wanted me completely for his own. Gerard pulled down my pants and kissed my back as he prepared himself. I grabbed his sweater and pulled a bunch in my mouth, when he entered I bit hard on the sweater.

He rubbed my back reassuring me the worst of the pain was over, I kept blacking out and i'm sure the achohal was dampering the pain. When he and I finished we cuddling into the blankets and cold for warmth. I passed out cold.