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I feel myself slipping away. Into oblivion. I feel all alone. I feel like no on can hear me. I dont know who to call on. I fight back tears that want to come as I place the razor along my stomach and push it down. The blood drips down onto the floor. I stare at myself in the mirror hating the reflection I saw.

I wanted to die but was held back. I was held back by he only man I had ever loved. He didnt know that he was sabing my life. He had no idea that my life was a living hell and the only bright thing was him. I long to hold him close. To kiss him.

"Hey man" He said snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Hey Gee" I said shyly smiling up at him.

We were at school. He was my friend and he didnt even kno what went on when he wasnt around. in fact he was my best friend.

"So what are your plans for today" He said smiling and knowing what my answer would be.

"Nothing" I said which was half of what I usually said. I had a feeling that today was going to be different. I felt that something was going to happen.

"Well thats unusaual. Wanna come over after school."

"Uh, sure but I have to go home first." There it was again. I had a pang of uneasyness.I knew something was going to happen.

"ok see ya later then." The bell had rung and I hadnt realized it. It was now the last period of the day. It was science. I hated science.

I could feel eye following me as I walked to the back of the classroom. I felt like I wanted to die again. But I knew i wasnt going to. I sat dow in the back of the class.

"Are you ok Mr. Iero" I hear snickers when the teacher says my name.

I didnt answer and he just turns to the board and tells us what we are going to d today. I ask to go to the bathroom. I take my bag with me knowing I wasnt returning.

I get there and look at myself in the mirror. I feel my body shaking with anger. Without realizing it I pulled my fists back and crash them into the mirror. It shatters. I feel the blood dripping down my arms.

I run from the bathroom and from the school. Knowing that if I was caugt not only would I be expelled but also have to pay for yet another broken mirror.

I start walking home but stop at a water fountain in the park to clean off my throbbing hands.

When I get to my house I see an unfamiliar car in the driveway. I live alone with my mother. My mother told me that my father had died in a car accident.I didnt know how much of it was true.

I walk into the door and throw my bag to the side. I walk into the living room only to see a fist being thrown my way. It crashes into the side of my face. I cry our in pain.

My eyes are closed when I feel a foot slam into my side. Art this point I realized that I had fallen on the floor. I could here my mom screaming at whoever it was tha was beating me.

The person stops. My mom runs by my side and helps me up to the couch. After regaining my composure and blocking the pain I open my eyes/ I see the eyes of a man. These eyes were full of hatred. He smells like boose.

"WHO the fuck do you think you are to come in here and beat on me, when I dont even know who the fuck you are." I said screaming at the man.

he seems taken back by the fact that I screamed at him. screaming was a bad idea because he throws another punch at me hitting my in the stomach.

"Im your fucking father you piece of shit." I look at him with wide eyes and then at my mother with shock.

"Your dead" I replied very calmly so that I wouldnt get hit again.

"I dead, Im dead" He said straining his voice. "So thats what you mother has told you. That im dead. Well boy im not. She left me when I was unconcious in a coma." He said. His tone drippiing with poison.

I turned to my mom, shocked, I said"You fucking lied to me. How could you lie to me."

"I lied because of this. because I left this. I left his drunkeness. I left his beatings. I didnt want you to grow up like this. But he found us and he wont leave." Her voice was shaking as well as her body.

I already hated my father. I didnt like when my mother was scared.

I went to leave only to be flung back on the couch by my father. "Wherethe fuck do you think your going."

"leaving. Im leaving this house and so are you. Go get in your fucking car and leave and never come back. Forget about us and get some fucking help you bastard. Your not my father. My father is dead. Now leave or I will either call the police or drag you out unconciuos." I said to him. I felt an intense pain and blacked out.

~Time Elaspse~

I woke up on the floor of my room. I felt an intense pain and remember what a happened. I go to get up but only fall back down. I saw a huge gash on my leg. I was freaking out because I didnt know how long Iwas out.

I looked over at my clock. It read 8 pm. It was only a few hours that I had been out.

I felt phone vibrate in my pocket. When i pulled it out I saw it was a text from Gerard.

"Where the fuck were you yesturday- Gee"

I texted back

"yesturday? - Frank

"Yea, yesturday. You never came over yesturday and you werent at school today. - Gee"

i started freaking again and tried to get up. this time I succeeded.

I texted him back

"Call te police and come to my house. dont ask ?s just do it- Frank

All this time I wanted to die and I almost did. I realized then that I didnt want to I just wanted the pain to go away and I wanted to live.

I walk down the stairs cautiously. I turn into the living room. I fell on the floor sobbing. On the couch was------

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I feel myself slipping away. Into oblivion. I feel all alone. I feel like no on can hear me. I dont know who to call on. I fight back tears that want to come as I place the razor along my stomach and push it down. The blood drips down onto the floor. I stare at myself in the mirror hating the reflection I saw.

I wanted to die but was held back. I was held back by he only man I had ever loved. He didnt know that he was sabing my life. He had no idea that my life was a living hell and the only bright thing was him. I long to hold him close. To kiss him.

"Hey man" He said snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Hey Gee" I said shyly smiling up at him.

We were at school. He was my friend and he didnt even kno what went on when he wasnt around. in fact he was my best friend.

"So what are your plans for today" He said smiling and knowing what my answer would be.

"Nothing" I said which was half of what I usually said. I had afeeling that today was going to be different. I felt that something was going to happen.

"Well thats unusaual. Wanna come over after school."

"Uh, sure but I have to go home first." There it was again. I had apang of uneasyness.I knew something was going to happen.

"ok see ya later then." The bell had rung and I hadnt realized it. It was now the last period of the day. It was science. I hated science.

I could feel eye following me as I walked to the back of the classroom. I felt like I wanted to die again. But I knew i wasnt going to. I sat dow in the back of the class.

"Are you ok Mr. Iero" I hear snickers when the teacher says my name.

I didnt answer and he just turns to the board and tells us what we are going to d today. I ask to go to the bathroom. I take my bag with me knowing I wasnt returning.

I get there and look at myself in the mirror. I feel my body shaking with anger. Without realizing it I pulled my fists back and crash them into the mirror. It shatters. I feel the blood dripping down my arms.

I run from the bathroom and from the school. Knowing that if I was caugt not only would I be expelled but also have to pay for yet another broken mirror.

I start walking home but stop at a water fountain in the park to clean off my throbbing hands.

When I get to my house I see an unfamiliar car in the driveway. I live alone with my mother. My mother told me that my father had died in a car accident.I didnt know how much of it was true.

I walk into the door and throw my bag to the side. I walk into the living room only to see a fist being thrown my way. It crashes into the side of my face. Icry our in pain.

My eyes are closed when I feel a foot slam into my side. Art this point Irealized that I had fallen on the floor. I could here my mom screaming at whoever it was tha was beating me.

The person stops. My mom runs by my side and helps me up to the couch. After regaining my composure and blocking the pain I open my eyes/ I see the eyes of a man. These eyes were full of hatred. He smells like boose.

"WHO the fuck do you think you are to come in here and beat on me, when Idont even know who the fuck you are." I said screaming at the man.

he seems taken back by the fact that I screamed at him. screaming was a bad idea because he throws another punch at me hitting my in the stomach.

"Im your fucking father you piece of shit." I look at him with wide eyes and then at my mother with shock.

"Your dead" I replied very calmly so that I wouldnt get hit again.

"I dead, Im dead" He said straining his voice. "So thats what you mother has told you. That im dead. Well boy im not. She left me when I was unconcious in a coma." He said. His tone drippiing with poison.

I turned to my mom, shocked, I said"You fucking lied to me. How could you lie to me."

"I lied because of this. because I left this. I left his drunkeness. Ileft his beatings. I didnt want you to grow up like this. But he found us and he wont leave." Her voice was shaking as well as her body.

I already hated my father. I didnt like when my mother was scared.

I went to leave only to be flung back on the couch by my father. "Wherethe fuck do you think your going."

"leaving. Im leaving this house and so are you. Go get in your fucking car and leave and never come back. Forget about us and get some fucking help you bastard. Your not my father. My father is dead. Now leave or I will either call the police or drag you out unconciuos." I said to him. I felt an intense pain and blacked out.

~Time Elaspse~

I woke up on the floor of my room. I felt an intense pain and remember what ahappened. I go to get up but only fall back down. I saw a huge gash on my leg. I was freaking out because I didnt know how long Iwas out.

I looked over at my clock. It read 8 pm. It was only a few hours that Ihad been out.

I felt phone vibrate in my pocket. When i pulled it out I saw it was a text from Gerard.

"Where the fuck were you yesturday- Gee"

I texted back

"yesturday? - Frank

"Yea, yesturday. You never came over yesturday and you werent at school today. - Gee"

i started freaking again and tried to get up. this time I succeeded.

I texted him back

"Call te police and come to my house. dont ask ?s just do it- Frank

All this time I wanted to die and I almost did. I realized then that I didnt want to I just wanted the pain to go away and I wanted to live.

I walk down the stairs cautiously. I turn into the living room. I fell on the flor sobbing. On the couch was------