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Sorry Ry.
Yeah I’m sorry.
If only she hadn’t been there.

I don’t know why I just walked away.
I felt stupid afterwards.
I felt like a huge pile of shit, and I had just stepped in myself.

Oh...Oh God.
I wish to God I hadn’t stopped; I had been enjoying it so much.
I had enjoyed it so much; my trousers had become very uncomfortable.
Very...tight.

And...And...I suppose I had just alienated him even more, by walking away.
If only I hadn’t heard her voice.
Damn you Olivia.

I had to just leave Ryan there.
Slumped on the ground.
Like I didn’t care.

I feel terrible.
I don’t even know why I started it.
The kiss.
Why? Why Brendon?

God damn it.
School’s finished.
Walking home was never the best time of day for me.
Always gives me too much time to think.

I just kept walking.
Until there was a tap on my back.
Maybe it was him.
I turned, hoping to see his face.

Olivia.
It was god damn Olivia.
I glared inwardly at her.

“Hello Brenny!” She chirped happily at me.
“Hello...Olivia...” I pushed out.
“Did you hear about those two guys who were seen making out behind the bike sheds?”

My heart stopped.
Who...?
What...?
When...?
WHAT?

“What?” I asked sharply.
“Yeah, I wouldn’t believe it either, except I heard it.” She grinned at me.
“You....Heard it?” I replied. My voice was bitter.
“Yeah, it was some guy moaning a lot and I knew there was another guy cause when I went round the side, it was that freak Ryan Ross, you know him, and he’s gay. So you know. Common sense.”
She grinned again.
She thought she was so fucking clever.

“Oh...really.” I muttered and turned to walk away.
I took three steps before I saw him.
Ryan.
Great timing.

He had a weird look on his face.
A look of complete determination.
And he was heading straight towards me.

“Look, there he is now!” Olivia chimed in.
“Well done captain fucking obvious.” I muttered, making sure she didn’t hear me.
“He looks like he’s gonna talk to you.”

He looked like he was gonna do more than that.
I tried to shuffle away but he got to me before I could move.

I didn’t even have time to speak before he grabbed the back of my head.
He pulled me close and I felt his tongue slip roughly into my mouth.
My eyes shut instantly and a moan escaped my lips.

I could feel his breath quickening and I pulled him closer to me.
I reached for the buckle on his belt and started to undo it before I realised who was standing next to me.

I pulled away slightly, just enough to turn my head and see the look of complete shock on her face.
Olivia.
Go fuck yourself.

Ryan’s POV:

Olivia.
Go fuck yourself.

I didn’t care that she was stood right next to him as I approached.
I didn’t care what his reaction would be.
But I knew one thing.
I had to make him moan.
I had to make him sigh for me.

Like he’d done to me.

Like the dreams of him had done to me every night before this.
I had to make him want me.

I slipped my tongue into his mouth, not waiting for his permission.
Everything was going well.

A moan.
That was all I wanted.
But I got more.
I got his touch.
He pulled me closer.
And my heart beat raced.

I was going to have a fucking cardiac arrest if I wasn’t careful.

That’s how much I love Brendon Urie.