... it's day 6.
- That was a tear jerker.
I think yes, it would of been able to stand on its own because it happened to gerard too so it would still of made sense but i think that because it is a personal experience and you can explain it better that way, that makes it more meaningful and deep. It also makes it easier for me as a reader to feel as though Im there.
I was wondering when Gerard was gunna even think about thanking Kat.
This chapter made me think about the rea Kat (the one I just found out about lol) And it made me see Gerard in a different light for a few moments. She went through all that with him and stayed with him and he just broke up with her? (If that is correct.)
Great chapter anyway, really cant wait for next day!
Author's responseThanks for your thoughts on this one (and the question I posted at the end).
I think that Kat and Gerard broke it off in 2005 ... so it wasn't right after he got clean or anything. And of course, who really know how much she was there for him when he was going through all that shit. I'm sure she was there, but only they know, ya know?
- Yeah I get you, I guess nobody will ever know apart from them two.
I was just wondering, cause you write this from personal experience and stuff, did you cut down on the drink or just stop all together?
I think I could live without alcohol forever, but then again I dont like it very much lol
Well, really everything that's happened so far, except for the MCR related stuff (and of course the locations because those of course were different) did happen to me. By day six here, it had been roughly 3 days since I'd drank any liquor. Was that my last drink though? You'll have to keep reading to find out xP
(#) izziebella 2009-01-01 07:19:54 PMYeah I agree with Dondon too. I think that it would do well on it's own.
Yeah, I was wondering about Cat/Gerard too. I was like, wow she had to deal with alcoholic gerard and then he got clean and dumped her...? But I guess I really don't know what was going on with them so, I can't really say much about it.
I really liked this chapter too. mean It's pretty deep and I really like Cat (in the story) She seems really sweet and supportive.
I can't wait to see what happens next.
Author's responseYeah ... of course in the role of "Kat" for me we have ... iwillstakeyourheart (who every bit as caring and supportive)! Like I said to dondon, who knows how the real Kat dealt with the situation. But it makes for good "fanfic", right? lol
(#) iwillstakeyourheart 2009-01-01 07:42:26 PMDay 6. Yeah. That was a rough one. I can only hope that the real Kat was able to provide the real Gerard with some form of comfort and stability during that time. He had to have something to hold on to, to get it though it, right? Well, at least that's how I think about it.
This one was a tough one to read. Even worse than the last chapter I think. I knew what lay in store when I got to the end of Day 5. You're not pulling any punches that's for sure, but you're still managing to thread the line between fiction and reality and make this a very moving and believable piece in general (in regards to your question at the end, I think it stands up no matter how you look at it or what kind of "inside information" you might have before reading it).
Author's response(((hugs you again and doesn't give a shit about the PDA factor)))
- Wow three days would still be quite hard I could imagine.
Haha, cliffhanger! Well I will deffo keep reading to find out if a last drink happens lol
Author's responseYeah ... going from drinking shitloads to drinking nothing was crazy. I think the hospital visit did play a major role though. I mean, once you go through that (even if you don't actually remember it happening), you're just like, "oh shit!" The only thing keeping you from just downing whole bottles of booze after something like that is you don't want a repeat. At least that's what I was thinking about that. It like any other addiction though. Like smoking ... you convince yourself you absolutely NEED that cig, but if you can just make it a little past that, you're ok.
- i think its great that u put a personal thing on this an stuff
im thirsty :/ i woke up and its like 2 in the afternoon blah but anway i really feel bad for gerard i slipped up on the first day if you get what i mean by that
i feel like i wanna take the pain away from him sniffles
Author's responseYeah, I get slip ups.
(#) HellOnHigh9 2009-01-01 11:51:13 PMAnother good update, it's pretty intense what's being written.
You mentioned Gerard finding his own edge here, for some reason it reminded me of Nikki Sixx from Motley Crue and the night he nearly died. I've read the motley crue biography and it's well worth reading. He came so close to like the edge to only it wasn't really so much alcohol he was battling it was drugs, he overdosed on heroin or something and well he was bought back by a shot of adrenaline to his heart hence the song 'Kickstart my heart' lol. Totally rambling. lol.
I feel so bad for Gerard right now and I want to cry. I applaud him for what he did and for what Kat did for him, I also applaud you and Iwillstakeyourheart. It's cool that you were able to do what Gerard did and that Iwillstakeyourheart stuck by you through it.
If this had just been a standalone fic or whatever else it would be doing just as well as it's doing now.
Can't wait for Day7.
Author's responseThere's a lot of rockstars that have an "edge" story! I'm really glad that neither Gerard or myself were ever strung out on some thing heroin though.
And thanks for the note, Cat.
(#) MCArmyWife 2009-01-02 08:08:54 AMThis story is so deep and written with such feeling I would read it no matter who the main "character" was.
Like some have said, I do wonder about Kat and what role she actually played in this part of his life. He's said he flew back to New York while they were in CA making BP so that would have been in 2006. He's said they were together 6 years. She must have been with him through some very rough times. It's sad when people who have been together like that break apart. Okay I'm rattling again. LOL. Just know I believe this to be one of the best stories I've ever read!
Author's responseThank you, truly. And you know I think that "We Like Movies" is like the best story ever too!
During making BP Gerard flew back to deal with the Eliza thing I was pretty sure ... he had broken up with Kat before he got with her.
- Hey this is really really well written, it's amazing. I defantly would still read it if it wasn't about Gerard, or if it was about him and you hadn't told us that you were writing from personal experiance. It wouldn't matter either way, i would still be deeply impressed.
I feel for Kat in this story, and for iwillstakeyourheart in real life, they both seem awsome people. I went through some thing simerler to this with my Dad and his drinking, so although it's not quite the same situation with family as it is for a couple i really emperthise with Kat here.
By the way, reading what you and iwillstakeyourheart say to each other here is so cute, the love is inspiring. Im gonna stop rambling now, so awsome fic, can't wait to read more.
Author's responseThank you!
Honestly, I feel kinda, I dunno, sappy or something sometimes posting notes to my wife here. I mean, it's not like she's not just sitting in the other room! We talk a lot about the shit I write too. And we're both kinda reliving parts of this story.
I'm glad all the emotion and intensity is coming out in the writing and that everyone who's been leaving a review is getting something out of it. It means a lot to me.
(p.s. You should finish your story xD )
(#) MCArmyWife 2009-01-02 01:15:54 PMWell if you listen to Eliza's story he broke up with Kat to be with her. Okay I know Eliza's story is pretty much her "vision" of it. He's said that he and Kat just fell out of love and that it wasn't anyone's fault. However, it's not hard to figure that Eliza was always there just waiting for her chance. I remember the photo's of her being with Gerard on Halloween 2006 and then she was with him at the SNL show in Nov. Okay, now I have to ask myself why on earth any of this matter? LOL. If I figure out why, I'll get back to you. I need a hobby
Author's responselol. Well it is like a good mystery, right? And there's the fact that Gerard isn't your "average dude" in many ways ... like in the relationship department. And of course he won't talk about that shit (can't blame him there ... and he doesn't write fanfic to get shit off his chest like I do! LMAO)