Not. Even. A. Fanfic.No, I'm not going to kill myself. Just have to breathe.
(#) Mynameisnotimportant 2012-02-29 06:25:38 PMHave you ever read The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy? If so, remember rule number one. If not, here is rule Number one:
You sound deeper in the Black than I ever was. Shit, kid. What the hell happened? If music isn't doing it anymore, then find something else. Find small joys in small things, as fucktastic as that sounds. Like microwave popcorn.
Microwave popcorn is honestly the best thing ever. Just stick a flat packet of seeds into a microwave, wait three minutes, and hey presto, a warm bag of buttery goodness.
Take it one day at a time. Do something that makes your day every day. That's how I did it. I've got the scars to prove it.
Jump on the bed. Buy yourself some bath crayons and just colour the hell outta your shower.
Best of all, find some extremely poorly written fanfics. For some reason, the complete lack of grammar and rational thought involved immediately makes you feel better.
Mmm, and join a martial arts thing. Beating the shit out of others is therapeutic.
So. What's rule number one?
And for the love of God, do not off yourself. NO. THAT IS BAD. NO SUICIDE YOU. One day at a time, okay? Baby steps.
I hope you did not say you don't matter. I call bullshit! What what what are you doing? You do so matter. You just don't realize it yet.
You still there? Leave! Begone! Go watch Monty Python, that's bound to perk you up in no time!
Send me a thingy if it gets worse, m'kay? I'll listen, I swear to God.
(#) TERRIBLETEEN 2012-02-29 06:25:41 PMI think i know who you are.......or...i know somebody just like you, just remember your actions show your friends what they mean to you, and if you hurt you, you hurt them too. The sky may be dark now, whetre there are only stars, little points to not do something, but its still an option, but one day , the sun will come back again, and your world will still have clouds, but there will be a hell of a lot more light.
TT seal of approval,
PS Is your KillJoy name Heartbroken Hellraiser?
- I can't advise you in any way or make you feel better or comfort you, but I can tell you this, you aren't alone. I can relate to every line in this post.
You aren't the only person out here that's unhappy and lost. I wish the best to you and I hope you find relief from everything that's causing all of this stress and unhappiness.
(#) xxKilljoysxx 2012-02-29 07:57:01 PMDon't give in like that, darling. I know I can't understand like you do, but I know how it feels to be in the dark and alone, and to feel like your alive but with no direction, like you're just going around in these circles to a point where you can't tolerate anyone or anything and you just want it all to stop spinning so you can take a breath. I know you hear this all the time but it does get better. I know how impossible it seems for life to change like that but when you're through the darkness you'll see it's something you can't truely see untill then. Someone or something will come along to pick you up from the ground, I promise. This isn't it, this isn't all that living has to offer. Were all in this game togther, and were all just trying to make it through, and everyone gets a little beat up along the way. You've got to look past everything, take a breath, and close you eyes so you can see clearer what lays infront of you. There's so much more I wish I could tell you, I just want you to know that you're a member of the mcrmy and we all care here. Each and everyone of us are torn up inside that you feel like this, hon. If you fall well pick you up off the ground, we have faith in you and we all give one another strength to get through the jaggard times which we all have. Well be waiting here for you, we won't give up, well be here for you. All you need to do is talk to us and we won't let you down.
Much love, Romy xo