okay, so this is my mcr thing, and you can use it if you want.
Okay, so I used to be a popular, I guess you could say me and my best friend Rachel were the two original populars, and I think that it's sad that I was like 5, and we already were homophobic prats with the 'coolest' clothes possible that a five year old could have.
So yeah, basically it was a couple of years after that in P3 that my life became suckish. Two gangs (that's what the groups are called to us) joined up, me and Rachel (our other friend, Iona, Rebeca and Chloe all moved) were one gang, then Isla, Hannah, Becky, Abbie and Nikki were the other gang, we joined up and it was Hannah, Isla and Rachel and they quickly ruined my life, how they practically abandoned me causing my first dose of depression at 7. In that year I'm pretty sure my Grandpa died aswell. And that messed me up aswell, seeing as in my family he was the only one I loved except from my father.
The next year was easier, except from the fact that my best friend was in a totally different class. But I hung out with Abbie and Nikki that year.
Then in P5 a new kid came along, after I had made my awkward reunion with Rachel as my bff.
Shannon was the newbie that year so yeah, she was basically the last one that made my life hell. In that year from 9-10 years of age, I was in nothing but complete misery.
Getting bullied by my so called best friends, just for being different, just for liking to dress in "weird" clothes, aka one that were black, navy, dark blue and red. Just for listening to queen. Then another new kid came along, her name was Georgia, unlike me she didn't make the wrong decision, she hung out with Ellie and Beth. She was clever, unlike me.
Still in P5 and nearer the end the biggest arguement happened,
"I thought you were my friend!"
"I thought you were mine but you're not acting very much like one!"
"That's because I'm not!"
Well, guess what, I still remember that arguement the one probably caused by the fact that I would hang out with the "weird boys" that were my friends aswell. At that moment in time I just wanted to scream at you, to just shout, if only I wasn't so afraid of life and death, so I ran outside and just sat down on the steps. I couldn't cry, I wanted to but I couldn't, I would only hear screaming in my ears and I could only feel the numbness taking over my entire body.
I knew what they were saying, I knew what my best friends were saying, "that stupid little idiot." "she deserves to cry" "she deserves to die, to fall dead right now."
and then it ended. our friendship was over. I started distancing myself from everyone. trying to get rid of that screaming arguement ringing in my ears. the numbness never released me.
It only faded gradually and stopped, so that I knew vagually what was going on around me.
I had a new group of friends, I still hung out with the "weird boys" Sid, Fraser, Nicholas, Liam, Brendon, John and Reuben, all members of the pokemon club that I was secratery to and Sid and Fraser were joint leaders for that.
My new gang had Ellie, Beth and Georgia in it.
They helped me, but not much, cos I was still the stay at home kid that played the sims and the sims 2 all the time trying to perfect someones life if I couldn't perfect, or even protect mine.
and after being so miserable for so long, I thought nothing would get me through that, but then I was a youtuber.
I was searching the sims 2 on youtube and I saw a video called "cancer - the sims 2" I thought it would be someone just sying that their sim had gotten cancer, but when I heard the piano and vocals I was amazed, and some of that numbness faded away. I listened to that once and thena month later I wanted to hear it again, those amazing vocals. So I watched the video again, and it was even more amazing then the first time. so I just searched "cancer - sims 2" and I found video saying, "cancer-mcr-the sims 2"
so I watched that and then I just searched MCR, and then I watched the video of teenagers, and it was bloody amazing. for the first time in years of complete numbness and depression , those three videos fixed that, and I was smiling, I was smiling and that numbness swept away, and the screaming arguement that still rung in my ears swept away, that arguement that had been haunting me for an entire year, just stopped. And I was so happy that I could cry again, and that I could smile again.
And I've kept fighting the numbness away by listening to those two songs on repeat, Cancer and Teenagers.
So, here I sit now, telling you my story. Of how My Chemical Romance saved my life.
It's been a year and a half since I heard that zong, and at twelve years old here I sit, typing away, and listening to those two songs on repeatt, Cancer and Teenagers, fighting away the numbness and screaming that threatings to come back all the time, almost crying, by remembering how MCR saved my life.