personally, i don't appreciate u using gee to get out your own personal story, but at least ur getting it out, and while u r, let me share something.
i have never cut- ever, simply cuz i am terrefied of needles and stuff like that going in contact of my skin.
but one of my guy friends last year openeed up to me about his adiction to pain, he cut a lot, his upper arms and his hips and legs,and back. slowly, he began to stop and finally qiut, and i was there for him all the way through.
sadly, he got a new girlfriend this year and she's very controling and i can't really talk to him as much, so we have drifted apart, but sometimes i honestly think i saved his life, because his scars were really bad.
idk, maybe this'll help, if you ever want to talk, i'm here 4 ya!