(#) ONotz 2011-06-06
I'm so sorry for your Papa. I had to move here because, well i'm not proud, but i started cutting because i was the loner at school. I had one friend, and i felt alone because we had a fight. I took it out on myself. I didn't relize how many friends i really did have because a girl named Rachel told the principal because she didn't want me gone. My parents found out and we moved in with my Aunt Rhonda until we get a house. At this time not even MCR could help because my dad said i coulden't listen to them anymore. He see's why i have to now, he said i could again. I really hope this years better, i don't want to let my heros down again.
Author's response
Aww, hun; why didn't you tell me? As untrue as it may seem, cutting gets you no where and afterword you're just in a bit more pain then you started off in. I used to cut and I haven't cut once since I heard my first My Chem song. I know that there are so many things that can come up that make cutting seem like the best way to cope, but you just have to try not to. I remember sitting in the dark in my room and thinking 'No, I can't end this now. I told my readers suicide isn't the answer, if I hang myself now I'll be such a hypocrite.' If you ever feel like you're getting sucked back into it you can email me and I promise, as soon as I see it I will write back. I'm trying to come up with a better way for you to contact me in an emergency. I'm gonna ask my dad if I could give you his number and he'll call me day or night if you call. My parents have done the same thing with taking away music. Well, it was mainly my mom and it wasn't supposed to be for my well being. She said it was just fun to take away things that are important to me. I always listen to Skylines and Turnstiles when I'm upset. To me it just seems so brutally honest and I love the wording. And as stupid as it seems, hearing Gerard say 'You're not in this alone' makes me feel better. I hope this year is better for you too. I don't think they'd feel let down, I think they'd just want to help you.
Love you!
Annie
xoxox