Oh, poor Alex! So, love the story and hope you are okay and all, and I think the re-humanising of the interent is cool. I personally think that mokeys sit at compuers and type and stuff. Anyway, here goes, something no one knows.
Erm, I`km actually more afraid of living than dying, because I`m afraid I`ll screw everything up just like my parents have. I`m afraid I`ll never follow my dreams `cause they are constantly holding me back and want me to be "Normal" 9which I`m not, apparently) I`m afraid that I`ll go through life not really living it, ya know. But I`m also afraid I`ll never be glod enough for my mum and dad. Even just yesterday my dad told me I`ll never make it to Uni `cause I find it hard to actually get out of bed in the mornig beacuse I`m up most of the night. What noone knows is that I can`t sleep at night cause I`m worried about what is going in in my shitty life at the moment. And even when I do get to sleep, I have nightmares. So, yeah, but the worst part is, my everyone thinks I love my parnets and that they are actually good parent, when I..well, not quite hate them,, but not far off. So, yeah they`re my biggest fears. Sorry for going on so long, but it feels good to get it off your chest, ya know?
xoxodakota
Author's response
I understand the whole thing about being afraid that you won't follow your dreams. I kinda feel the same way. And about unencouraging parents, I get that too. For awhile I let it get to me and took it to heart.
Eventually, I just said "you can't hold me back, I won't let you anymore". I'm assuming that by Uni you mean University (it could mean something completely different). If it means Univerisity, I'm sure you can get in! You seem really intelligent, and really you can do anything you put your mind too. It still hurts when parents tell you that you can't do something, but not letting it get to you helps you do it anyway.
Thank you for putting yourself out there. It means alot to me. I hope you have a great day!
Love you!
Anabe
Sorry, I'm typing on my iPod, so my sign off got messed up.
Love you!
Annabel xoxoxox