umm where do i stared am sceared that people are going to abandon me i know that know one stays for very long and that most of the time thay dont want to be in you life in the frist place. i cant rember the lass time i sleept a fall night. i thinks my mum wishs i was a poppler plactes bitch and not the 'emo' art freak in the back of the class. i feel like a huge disappointed to her every thing i do is wrong i think she would only be happy if i was the opposite to who i am. when i go to my dads i get yelled at for the littles thing so it not much better. its no like there druges or any thing they dont hit me and i have food to eat and a bed to sleep in so i have more then some people. i try every day to make my mum proud but i feel she only see the things wrong. i cant get out of bed in the morning coz i dont wont to face it all know i will never follow my dreams or be any body the only thing the keeps me going is music it why am still living still moving still breathing. i just wish i could run away but i cant i have to stay for the people i love my 2 best friends i wouold have run a long time ago but i keep finding thing to stop me. when my mum found out i was cutting all she did was take my to get a shot and didnt even asked why the one of the thing that makes me ask does she love me? so thats me that 'emo' art freak who cant get a boy friend who only have a hand fall of friends and most of them are back stabers so 2 really friends i think i am lucky to have them.
that it my life
really sorry about just spilling it all to you but i just need to get my pathetic life off my chest
xoxox
Author's response
I feel your pain. I used to try to make my mom proud and she always wanted more it wasn't enough I was good at martial arts, she wanted me to be a dancer, it wasnt enough that I was a dancer, she wanted a gymnast, it wasnt enough that I could draw well and got A's and B's in all advanced classes, she wanted someon who was normal. I learned a while ago that some people really are impossible to please.
Most likely you've ben born into the incredibly difficult situation of having one of them as a mom. And on the friend front, I totally get what you mean. People are so gossip-y. I'm casually friends with a lot of the kids in my school but I'm only clos friends with a few. And I dont even feel real close fo them anymore.
I hope you're okay and that things get better between you and your mom. And always remember, being an emo art freak is awesome, and if you ever need to vent I'm here for you.
Love you lots!
Annabel xoxoxo