umm i sorry i dunno what that could be but it dosent sound good i think you sound maybe go see a doctor :/
a family friend who was like a nan to my just die of cancer so i know whats that like so if you ever need to talk about anything am here just ask and you can have my MSN or tweeter :)
and please dont do any thing stupid i know what it feel like to think it would be easyer if you just give up but it not trust me :)
xoxo