I'm not really sure if this is like a MAJOR thing in my life but I don't believe in God. My whole family does and they are very religious and they think I am too. The really weird thing is that I still go to church (I choose too) I'm not really sure why. My belief is that if there really is a God, he is an unloving and deaf God. Am I weird for still choosing to go to church? It makes me feel shitty and normal at the same time. And I've caught myself glaring at the pastor and the congergation alot lol. I don't really have anyone to talk to because the last time I tried that it blew up in my face. My mom thinks that I've changed from what I was (a cutting, drinking, and smoking emo freak) but I've just gotten alot better at hiding it.
On a different note I'm sorry for not reviewing your story lately. My mom decided that I shouldn't go on the Internet so she took my computer away. So right now everyone in my house is asleep and I'm on the computer lol. Anyways I love this so far! And why were Alx and Frank making out so heavyly?
Author's response
I'm not religious either. I'm forced to go to church, but I tend to just day dream the whole time. I get what you mean about a deaf, unloving God, that's pretty deep. If you like going to church than you should if you don't then...well...don't. I get what you mean about getting better at hiding things. I'm an insomniac and so I don't sleep. Ever. Well...once in a while I do, but not often. About three hours a day? Yeah, about three. Anyway my mom says she'll punish me severely if I don't sleep, and she does, so I got better at hiding it.
I have to warn you, every cigerette you smoke takes about seven minutes off your life. I know, I know, you've probably heard that before but, well, yeah.
My mom didn't even know that I had been cutting until a while after I stopped. And no problem about not reviewing. I honestly haven't had ANY computer access in a while so I've horribly neglected my story so, I'm sorry. My mom actually took apart my computer and I litteraly couldn't put it back together anymore (I'm at my dad's house right now). It's great to hear from you again by the way!
And about Alex, she's just stressed and would do anything to forget about her home life. Next couple chapters explain it better.