So beautiful. I'm really sorry for your loss. I have lost a loved one too. And that is probably the only reason I am still here; because it was my life or their life. And suicide would be fuck selfish to them.
We'll all get through it someday.
I bet Josh is really proud of you, for everything, especially making thousands of people cry their eyes out at this. (:
OK I am rambling. bye
lina xo