Wow and most of my friends, even myself think we have it bad. Im really sorry(um girl or guy) honestly I thought this was going to be some sappy crap story about somebody whose parents dont let them stay out late or your girlfriend/boyfriend broke up with you. But honestly you really have some bad and i should know because my friend was exactly in the same situations as, but you know now shes getting help and is homeschooled and all that stuff. Hope you take care man and please dont take your life keep going before you know it you'll be out of there and you can even be an athiest.
Peace, Love, Empathy