Sweetheart, please stop stressing. If your life is that hectic, than don't guilt yourself into hobbies that you aren't enjoying. Honestly. Nobody here will begrudge you some space and time to decompress. Take care of yourself and write when you want. A chapter that you enjoy writing is a chapter that we enjoy reading. And a good fanfiction is worth waiting forever on. If you decide this works, than choose one story and put the other two on hiatus. Or choose your two favorites to write and put the other away for a few months. From the author's notes that you've been posting, I think that this story is the one that you're most worried over, so lay down your pencil and just write what you want. Please, your own physical an mental health is the most important thing. Don't work yourself up over something as inconsequential as Frerard when you have a whole life outside of the Internet to live. As always, you are lovely and always a pleasure to read. Good luck.