Oh boy.
Why does your brother blame you?
Whatever happened I'm sure it's not your fault. Neither of you are at fault.
I bet the last thing she wanted was for her death to hurt those she cared about.
I know me saying this isn't going to help but I don't know what to say and I don't want to say nothing because I know you're hurting.
I wish suicide didn't happen but it does, way too often.
Author's response
He wasn't there to stop her. I couldn't break down her door. Soooo thus is the blame. You are very kind. It's gonna take a while for me to stop blaming myself. Saying anything helps me.