That's no reason for blame to be applied. He's just in a bad place, but there is no reason to make you feel worse than you obviously already do (which is also for no reason)- you seriously don't deserve to put yourself through this, no one does.
If you need to talk then email me. kristi699@live.com
I'm always willing to talk about anything, or help in any way that I can.
You'll make it through this. I promise.