Sam, I love you so fucking much.
God. It hurt to read this.
But now I think I know you a little better.
You are really tough. Badass mofo. :)
And I'm sorry you've been hurt and that you've been through shit. For what it's worth, I'm sorry.
I don't ever want you to feel bad. You are beautiful and strong and weird and funny and nice and please, never try to kill yourself again.
I do love you. I give like ten billion fucks about you. :)