Don't feel guilty. It's okay if you don't always feel like socializing with people. We understand here.
And it's okay to be scared for people you don't know. I've felt like that before. It's normal.
Finally, I'm also proud that you didn't cut. It makes me happy to hear that.
:)
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(has no idea what to say, which makes this reply pointless, but is smiling now)
xoxo