I understand Kitty, things have been very crap for me as well. I've been dumped and been to 2 funerals since we last spoke (mostly the reason I'm pissed off and depressed most of the time)
And as for you Ryan, please stop worrying, I know I don't know you or is close to you like the others on here but I'm sure you're a very nice person. I was like you once; constantly worrying about my appearance, threatened by the fact I would never find anyone looking the way I did, but in the end looks have nothing to do with it. Now I don't know the reason why you're doing this but I'm sure it's not worth it.