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I heard something as I laid curled up against my warm, breathing pillow, but ignored the sound and dug my nose into my soft, long, and limb-y pillow.

Knock Knock Knock

"It's time to--" I heard a voice begin, and stop suddenly.

My eyes felt like they were glued shut. They were so heavy, but I pried them open and blinked blearily at the figure standing at my doorway. Tall, lazy posture, spiky, black hair: Shikamaru.

"Mm?" I asked.

"Time to go," he said, before he turned and walked out.

"Mmm," I whined, and I buried my face in my large, boney, pillow. I sighed and slid my legs across my pillow, and braced myself on both sides of it with my hands, and peered down into my pillows blue eyes.

I blinked a few times before I told him I'd be right back. Naruto waited until I was standing before he closed his eyes again, and curled up more into the blanket we were sharing.

I threw on some sandals, grabbed my keys and wallet, and walked out the door with Shika. Ino had dropped him off this morning, and it was now 11:30 A.M. Naruto and I still had a couple hours before we had to get to work.

Dropped off Shika at his store, and made my way back home. Last night's happenings running through my mind. Or at least, what I could remember. I really could not remember what happened. I remembered the drinking. I remembered the pouncing. I remembered a few of the conversations before they were pushed aside for more pouncing. I remembered Naruto getting sick. And that was it. Nothing else. It just seemed that I was missing pieces to the night. Perhaps Naruto would remember something.

When I got home, he was still curled up in bed. I quickly let my dogs out, checked on the majority of the animals, and took a pit stop in the bathroom.

I returned to my bed, and quietly crawled back over Naruto once I set my alarm on my end table. I pulled the cover over me and laid back. I soon had a Naruto blanket. He threw a limb or two over me, and he buried his nose into my hair.

We laid like that for a moment or two, and right when I was about to doze off again, Naruto began, "I gotta get going."

"Mm?"

"I have a few things to do before work."

"Mm."

"I don't want to go," he sounded like he was apologizing.

"Mm," I sounded like I accepted.

He nosed the top of my head one more time before he rolled away from me and stood up. He threw on his shoes and I watched from my spot in the bed. He looked back down at me and said he'd see me later. I, mm'd in response, and he smiled. It was a nice smile. He has a nice smile. It makes me laugh at times, and at others it infuriates me. And right now, was one of those bad times. What we did last night was so messed up. So wrong. It cannot happen again!

And he left.

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Driving to work was not fun. Not when you know you have to face a person that which you had done unspeakable things with the night before. Unspeakable for many reasons known. Work. Girlfriend. Etc.

I walked into the store and saw Naruto at the register. He smiled at me and I smiled back. I clocked in and walked into the office. I talked to the boss for a bit, going over the list of things to do for the night, before he let me go.

I walked out and Naruto flagged me over. He needed a manager's override, and after the customer left I looked up into his deep blue eyes. "I don't remember much of what happened last night."

"I don't either," he replied.

"It's unnerving, knowing some pieces of the night are lost to you." I shifted from one foot to the other, my eyes looking past Naruto, trying to conjure up what was lost.

"I don't remember anything," he said.

I looked back up at him. He had this lost look on his face. "Nothing?"

"Nothing." He almost looked like he could be telling the truth. He did drink a lot.

"Mm, well, I think we'll be taking vodka off our list of things to drink from now on," I said a bit bitterly.

He nodded in agreement and I walked off.

All day long I wondered if he was telling the truth. Or if he was just trying to get out of it. He was wiping the slate clean of me. We won't see each other outside of work anymore. That was it. He doesn't remember. Then it means it didn't happen. Fine. That's fine. If it's so fine why did I feel like it wasn't fine? Why did I want him to remember? Why did I want him to acknowledge the fact we made out, and he said things he shouldn't have. I wanted him to feel bad for what he started. I wanted him to feel guilty.

I wanted him to feel everything I felt.

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At the end of the night, Naruto and I both just said goodbye and left. I went home and Shikamaru had dinner ready.

We sat and ate and watched Adult Swim. It looked like we had missed quite a few episodes. With Naruto over, I don't watch it like I usually do with Shika, and with Shika busy at work at night, and me and Naruto hiding out in my bedroom, we've missed out on our anime time. We fell back into our usual state of comfort, joked around, and talked about the shows we were watching.

Then, the phone rang. I looked at the caller ID, and it was Naruto. Needless to say, I was shocked. I picked up and I heard Shika sigh beside me.

"Hello?"

"Hey," Naruto's voice came through.

"What's going on?" Something was up.

"Not a lot. I'm just over at the gas station. What are you doing?"

Ah, gas station. That means he's nearby. He called, so that means he wants to come over.

"Watching anime with Shika."

"Watching cartoons, you mean?" I could hear the smirk on the other end of the phone.

I couldn't help but grind out, "A-ni-me!"

He chuckled and I laughed back. "Yeah, yeah. What are you doing?"

"Nothin'."

I sighed audibly into the phone. "Comin' over?"

"Sure, just give me a minute to say bye to everyone." I could hear the smile in his voice, and could just picture his face. Blue eyes sparkling, fangs bared in a wide smile.

I couldn't believe he wanted to come over, even after the incident the night before. It kind of made me mad, but it was kind of good. We could talk. Yes, talking would be good. And no alcohol involved this time!

After saying goodbye to Naruto, I went back to watching TV with Shika. Naruto showed up about ten minutes later, and the dogs went crazy, as usual. He calmed them down after he took his usual spot on the love seat, and waved over at me. I waved back and turned back to the show.

Our nightly shows finally ended, and Naruto and I stood to go into my room. We bid Shika a goodnight and headed out.

We took our usual places in my bed, and I turned on my music as usual. Why wasn't I lashing out at him? Why do I just fall into this sense of comfort... security, when he's around?

I felt a hand rub gently up my back, and I turned to look at him laying back on my pillows, his lips curved upwards slightly. I couldn't help but scowl down at him and turn back to my computer.

"What??" Naruto yelled. He sat up and leaned forward, trying to look into my eyes. My long, dark bangs hung brilliantly, hiding all my features. "Sasuke?" He actually sounds... hurt? concerned? It was sort of, kind of, sweet.

I felt the heat before the palm touched my shoulder, and he started to gently rub circles, not knowing what to do, I'm sure. I couldn't help but smirk now. It was rather amusing having Naruto worried about me.

“Hey, did I do something?” he leaned up and rested his chin on my shoulder.

Yes! Lots of things! So many things I don’t know where to begin! But, I just shrugged my shoulders because I didn’t know what to say.

He reached around my sides and attempted a tickle attack, but I held back any emotion. Damnit, I wanted him frustrated! Just like me! And he was. He was huffing like a six year old.

Naruto grabbed hold of my shoulders and pulled me down to lay beside him. He curled his arm so I’d have to turn into the warmth of his body. He rested his lips against my head and asked me in a hushed tone, “What’s wrong? Please tell me.”

I finally gave in. “I.. I like us, together. But we shouldn’t be. And I hate that. I keep giving in to you thinking it might end up the way I want it to, but I know it won’t. And, it hurts, knowing that.”

“I’m sorry,” he whispered.

“No you’re not,” I whispered back.

He chuckled back at me and pushed me over so he could look down at me. “I really am. It’s hard for me to decide. I mean, I know I should do the right thing, and stay with Hinata and the baby, but, my feelings are with you. I don’t feel like this with her. When I’m with you, I, really like who I am.”

See, why does he have to go and say things like that? It makes me want to ravish him and never stop until we are both spent and exhausted until the following day.

He lowered his face to mine, and our lips met and my body already began to tingle in want. I raised my head to meet his lips more forcefully, take him in, and hold on tightly.

The kiss ended and he laid his head on my chest. “I want you more than anything,” he whispered into my shirt.

“I know,” my words muffled by his blonde locks against my lips.

We both sighed in content and quickly fell asleep.

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TBC….