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Franks POV..

I couldn't believe what had just happened... my body ached all over as I tucked my knees into my chest and tried to stop myself crying.

I knew it wasn't his fault but I couldn't help but want to get away from him in case he woke up.
I was scared he would do it again.

With great effort I sat up, the pain in my body was overwhelming but it didn't compare to the pain I felt for Gee, I knew he would wake up later feeling guilty, he wasn't a bad person, he really wasn't but the pain wouldn't go away.

I took a few shaky steps towards the door, sighing and taking a last glance at Gee on the bed before opening the door and stumbling out the room.

I had no idea what to do, I couldn't go home, if my dad saw me like this he would surely kick me out and I had nowhere else to go.

Tears fell down my face and I closed my eyes tight.
I just wanted Gee back, I wanted him to tell me he loved me and hug me tight.

I found my legs managing to drag along to Mikey's bedroom door and I tapped lightly.

There was no answer but I could hear slightly muffled sobs from inside.
I pushed the door open slightly and saw Mikey curled up in a ball on his bed with his hands over his ear, crying.

"Mikey.." I said quietly and tried my best to stumble over to him.
He looked up and more tears fell from his eyes when he saw me.

"My..god..frank" Mikey whispered when he saw all the nail cuts and blood that covered me, running over to me and throwing his arms around me.
I let the pain consume my body and collapsed in Mikey's arms.
"I...d..didn't know...wh...where else to go" I stuttered through more tears.
"I..know he didn't mean it" I told Mikey and he carried me over to his bed, laying me down gently, running his fingers softly over all my injuries.

"I know...ssshh...I know" Mikey whispered

It was then it dawned on me why I had found Mikey like that, he had heard me, he had heard everything.

I was past caring who or what happened to me so I settled for Mikey's caring touch and soothing voice.

"If I hadn't been there Mikey...it wouldn't have happened" I said quietly
"Don't think that Frank...it would have happened regardless, it isn't your fault" he replied but I didn't believe him.
It wasn't just that Gee had done this but he said my dad didn't treat me right either, I was beginning to give up on happiness.

I hadn't expected sleep at all, my head was drowning in flashes of Gee scraping his nails down my skin and one sentence that haunted my thoughts...
'Merry christmas little whore' Gee had said

It made me shiver and Mikey's warm arms gripped around me tighter.

"Mikey why are you being so nice to me?" I said sadly
"I tried to warn him, I did, but he didn't listen to me, but I have never seen him this bad, you didn't deserve to have to live that Frank, I could hear you screaming, pleading and begging but if I had come in to stop him, he would have been worse to you" Mikey said softly in my ear with a shudder.

"Thank you Mikey, I know you did all you could" I replied

"He has really done it now" Mikey muttered to himself
"I still love him, I still trust him" I said quietly to him

Mikey tensed slightly at my words.
"He really doesn't deserve you Frank, he is gonna hurt you way worse if you put all your trust and love onto him, you deserve better" Mikey mumbled, hugging me tighter still.

A strange feeling built up inside me for Mikey.
I shook my head, pushing out my thoughts, he was Gees brother, I couldn't.

Mikey leaned over me and kissed my cheek gently, giving me butterflies.
I turned my head to meet his lips and kissed them softly before turning it back and curling myself up.
I felt Mikey’s warm breath against the back of my neck and I knew he wasn't going to sleep either.

Eventually is was late enough in the morning to get up and I felt Mikey stirring behind me.
He gave me an awkward smile as he sat up, I stayed curled up, the light from the window was shining into his room and I didn't want to see the state I was in.

He padded over to my side of the bed and kneeled down, meeting his face with mine.
He looked into my eyes and I met his chocolate coloured eyes behind his glasses.

"Honey you will have to get up and sort this out" he whispered and my stomach flipped at the name 'honey'.

I sat up slowly, fighting the never-ending pain my body was giving me.
I got to my feet shakily and I saw Mikey gasp, his eyes brimming with tears.

It was worse than I realised, my whole body was covered with cuts, scratches and bruises, combined with red blood smears, I didn't look very appealing, in fact I looked utterly disgusting.

"Its alright...it doesn't hurt that much" I said to a tearful Mikey.
A slight draft came in, making me shiver.

"My clothes are...uh...in G..Gees room.." I said quietly, sitting on the floor with my knees tucked into my chest.

"Don't worry honey...I'll go get them, just stay here and don't go anywhere. Promise me?" he said worryingly
"I promise Mikey" I replied and he strolled out the room.

I picked my pathetic body of the floor and stood by the door.

I could hear mumbling coming from Gee's room but couldn't make out what they were saying until the voices began to rise.

"Just tell me where the fuck he is Mikey!" Gee shouted
"Gerard give him some time! You fucking raped him! He is terrified of you!" Mikey shouted back, my body quivering at the mention of the word 'rape'.

"I just have to speak to him! Its none of you fucking business anyway!" Gee retorted and I heard footsteps coming towards the door.

"Don't you dare go in there Gerard!" Mikey shouted after him, I could hear the fear in his voice.

I took a few steps back, preparing myself.

There was a short silence before Gee came bursting into the room.
He put his hand out for me but I couldn't bring myself to take it.

"Frankie baby I am so sorry! My god what the fuck have I done to you!" he said, horror flooding his face.

Something inside me snapped, I didn't want him near me but I couldn't bring myself to hurt him like that.

"I'm so sick of everyone pretending they care! Just please please leave me alone! I don't want anyone hurt because of me, I don't want anyone feeling guilty because of me!" I cried, stumbling past Gee and Mikey, to the bathroom, locking the door behind me and collapsing on the cold floor.

"Gerard just leave him alone for now, please, just for a while. Let him sort himself out" Mikey said softly in the room next door.
"Just stay out of this Mikey" Gee said and padded back to his room.

A small knock on the door startled me.
"Frank, I know you are upset, please just tell me you are okay" Mikey's soothing voice said.

"I'm okay Mikey..." I said, barely above a whisper but he heard me.
"If you wanna talk about it, I'm here...your clothes are at the door." He said softly and I scrambled along the floor to unlock the door, then returning to my position on the tiled bathroom floor.

There was a pause before Mikey slowly pushed open the door and stuck his head around the door.
"Aw honey.." He whispered and shuffled over to me, locking the door behind him and kneeling down beside me.

"I understand you have no reason at all to trust or believe that anybody cares for you right now Frank but I need you to know that, as twisted as it seems, I care, more than you will ever know" he said and placed a small kiss on the top of my head.

Despite everything, I knew he was telling the truth and I needed him more than anything, I never doubted that I would always be as safe as possible with Mikey and that calmed me down somehow.

I pulled myself up and rested my head in his chest. He put his arms around me and rocked me back and forth.

"Mikey..." I mumbled into his neck
"Yeah" he said uncertainly

"Will...you..uh come home with me...we can celebrate christmas proper...but just don't judge me on what you see.." I asked quietly, unsure of his reply and terrified in case he said no.
"Of course I will honey and I would never ever judge you Frank but...you have to speak to Gerard sometime, its breaking his heart." He said worryingly about his brother.

"I will. Tomorrow." I lied and kissed Mikey’s cheek.
It hurt to know I was hurting Gee but I was too scared to face his temper right now.

He smiled and took me hand to get me to my feet gently.
"Lets get you dressed then Frank" he announced and handed me my clothes.

I quickly pulled on my old clothes and Mikey took my hand tightly as he opened the bathroom door.

We crept down the stairs and out the door before Gee heard us.
I hesitated at the door, not wanting to leave Gee but knowing I also couldn't go and see him anyway.

We walked the short distance to my house and I opened the front door as quietly as I could.
He wasn't home.
I sighed in relief and relaxed.
Mikey noticed my reaction and as he looked around my house I knew he put 2 and 2 together, Gee had probably already told him.

"Its okay Frank" he assured me.
"So you wanna see my room? Its not much.." I said sadly but Mikey gave me a huge smile
"Lead they way!" he said

I took him upstairs, past the bathroom that, I had spent all day and worn out the my hands cleaning and was already a mess again, making a mental note to reclean it before my dad got home later.

I opened a creaky door into my room and pulled Mikey in with me.
My room was awful compared to Mikey's postered and warm, creative room.
My room had only 3 posters on the wall, stuck up with gum that seemed like a good option at the time, a worn out bed stood in the corner with batman pillows covering most of it and an old wardrobe at one side that didn't have much but my clothes and Gee's comics.

I found that the less I owned and the less I cared about, the less I had to lose.

"I know its not much Mikey but..." I began
"No its beautiful honey!" he said and hugged me reassuringly.

"Thanks" I muttered and quickly went into my wardrobe to pick out some new clothes, changing then turning to Mikey who had gone red.

"You didn't mind me getting changed did you Mikey?" I teased
"No no...your house" he muttered

I smiled and walked over to him, my arms reaching around his waist in a hug.
He hugged me back and rested his head in my hair.

"You're a really good...friend.." I struggled to say as I knew it was building up to something more in my head.
"So are you frank" Mikey replied bluntly after a pause, dropping his arms from around me.

"I have been so stupid... so stupid" Mikey muttered to himself, pulling away from me.
"Mikey what's wrong?" I asked, concerned.

"I was stupid to hope you thought of me as you did for Gerard before he...you know" he mumbled in my direction
"But mikey...I do...that's what scares me..." I muttered, trying to meet his distracted eyes.

He looked up at me, surprised and his eyes lit up.
"Frank you are so gorgeous, I have never wanted to care for anyone so much in all my life, you are like a porcelain doll I am terrified I'll break." He said quickly, taking a small step towards me.

My heart skipped a beat, like it does in movies but the my body seemed to remind me of the complications.
"But mikey...you are gee's brother...I can't hurt him like that...but I don't wanna hurt anyone else..im sick sick sick of it!" I muttered, getting my stupid self worked up again.

"Ssshh its okay...if you love Gee..stay with him, don't worry about me Frank, I will be fine. You have to stop worrying about everyone around you and more to what you are doing to yourself honey...you are hurting yourself more than anyone else" Mikey explained

I cuddled into him and pressed my lips to his own, making sure I kept in control of myself, parting my lips with his, he wrapped his arms around my waist and I ran my fingers down the careful outline of his jaw.

He was the flawless one, not me.
I was the messed up naive kid that couldn't help but fall for the wrong people.

"I want you" I whispered in his ear before cuddling close to him and dropping light kisses down his neck.

He ran his fingers up my back and pulled of my shirt, pulling me over to the bed gently.

My whole head started to flood with images of what had happened with Gee, my mind going into panic as I scrambled away from Mikey.

"No! No! I'm sorry! Please! No!" I screamed, not seeing where I was but just the horror of the night and Gee's voice echoing through my mind as if it were on a loop.

'Merry christmas little whore' it repeated, taunting me.

I curled into a corner, screaming and shaking.
I felt the pain, as if it were still brand new, so much pain, I couldn't help but scream it out.

It slowly started to fade and I could make sense of what was around me, Mikey was crying, trying to calm me down and rocking me tightly to his chest.
"Mikey?" I mumbled
"I'm here honey..I'm here" he said soothingly

"I'm so so sorry I didn't mean to.." He said before I interrupted him
"Mikey Way don't you dare blame yourself!" I said, trying to maintain a serious frowning expression.

Mikey smirked and held me closer, kissing the top of my head.
"You are so adorable when you try to be serious honey" he said

"Well I do mean it you know" I said, smiling at him
"It wasn't your fault.." I said quietly

"Wow frank, Gee really has made a mess...I didn't realize it was so bad" he mumbled
"I'm sorry..I wanted to..but I couldn't" I replied and cuddled up to his chest.
"I know honey, I know, its okay" he soothed

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A/N i hope you like hhow the story is going. i am so sorry i havent posted in like forever..i didnt get any reviews on my last chapter so it didnt give me much encouragement to write anymore so please let me know if you like it cause i ahve written loads more and i hope the two chapters i hhave posted will make up for it :) please review thankies
xo Stazzia