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Chapter 1 - Sirius
1 reviewIn the dark days before Halloween 1981, Remus and Sirius allow suspicion and mistrust to come between them. SLASH
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I can hardly stand to look at him now. Cannot bear to touch him. And yet my love for him still consumes me.
How could he? How could he have done this terrible thing - why could he not have trusted me?
What was he offered that was better than what we have? Had.
My beloved Remus. How could he become a Death Eater? How could he have become something that is so decidedly against his nature? Why did we not see it?
And I still have to ask - what was he offered?
Acceptance? He has that from those who care about him. But not from the community in general. And he craves that acceptance.
Love? He has love - is loved. Not only by me, but also by James and Lily. Not to mention Peter and the rest of the order. Remus is just naturally loveable. But then, he also craves love like he craves acceptance.
Perhaps he's been offered a way to tame the wolf.
That he would find irresistible.
We've not made love for a couple of months now. I can't bear to touch him. Knowing what he has become. Wondering when he will betray us all.
He has no idea what we have kept from him. No idea the pain I feel as I prepare myself to do what has to be done.
No idea that I feel like my heart has been torn to shreds. And yet I will love him beyond the day I die.
How could he? How could he have done this terrible thing - why could he not have trusted me?
What was he offered that was better than what we have? Had.
My beloved Remus. How could he become a Death Eater? How could he have become something that is so decidedly against his nature? Why did we not see it?
And I still have to ask - what was he offered?
Acceptance? He has that from those who care about him. But not from the community in general. And he craves that acceptance.
Love? He has love - is loved. Not only by me, but also by James and Lily. Not to mention Peter and the rest of the order. Remus is just naturally loveable. But then, he also craves love like he craves acceptance.
Perhaps he's been offered a way to tame the wolf.
That he would find irresistible.
We've not made love for a couple of months now. I can't bear to touch him. Knowing what he has become. Wondering when he will betray us all.
He has no idea what we have kept from him. No idea the pain I feel as I prepare myself to do what has to be done.
No idea that I feel like my heart has been torn to shreds. And yet I will love him beyond the day I die.
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