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Title: Of Twins, Fish Poo, And The Top God Only Knows How Many Reasons Why I’d Rather Be A Girl: Chapter Eight: First Kiss

Author: Allison Wonderland

Rating: NC-17

Summary: Kiri thinks his best friend Trinity could never love him because he is not a girl like his twin sister Kari but during an accidental sleepover he finds out differently. One shot.

Warning(s): Language, homosexuality, sex with a minor.

Disclaimer: Mine. Slimy paws are to be kept off unless I have given my permission otherwise.

Note(s): Inspired by the manga Because I’m A Boy by Asia Watanabe

Trinity looks absolutely shocked and I'm sure he is absolutely disgusted as well.

So I do the only thing I can think of to do, at least at the moment. I'm panicking because oh my god Trinity knows I'm in love with him. I jump out of the bathtub still completely naked which is the last thing I ever want Trinity to see because if he sees what I don't have on my chest and what I do have between my legs there will be even less of a chance of him loving me.

Because I'm a fucking boy.

I streak out the door into Kari's room just because I need to get away from Trinity. BUt I can't stay in my sister's bedroom because that's too obvious. I hear Trinity's voice calling me as I run to my favorite hiding place. I open the door to my parents' bedroom and crawl under their bed.

There's not much space to hide under here, barely enough room to slip in between the floor and the bed frame. But I feel safe here. I always have. Gradually my heartbeat slows and I try to tell myself that Trinity did not hear anything.

I'm not very persuasive.

And then I hear footsteps on the hardwood floor. Trinity's footsteps. The light comes on and I see a silhouette outside the dust ruffle before it's lifted up and I find myself staring at Trinity.

"There you are," he says as if he has been looking for me for hours when I know for a fact that it has been perhaps two minutes. "I wondered where you'd gone." Trinity makes a gesture with one hand. "Come out of there."

I shake my head.

"Kiri, you're being a little drama queen again. Come on."

I shake my head again.

"What's wrong?"

He should know. He was there.

"Do you think I'm mad at you? Is that it?"

I nod. That's part of it.

"I'm not mad, Kiri-Kitty. And even if I was it's not like I'd ever hurt you or anything, right?"

Trinity doesn't look angry. In fact he seems a little...sad? And he's right about not hurting me. I know he would never do something like that. Besides, he's still calling me Kiri-Kitty. So when he holds his hand out to me I take it and let him pull me out from under the bed and out into the open where I immediately sit up with my back against the bed, my knees drawn up against my chest, and my arms wrapped around them. Trinity has already seen me naked but I'm trying to hide my flat chest and not so flat nether regions from him anyway, even though I know now there is no chance of him ever wanting me.

Trinity sits down beside me and our shoulders brush together. Or my shoulder brushes against his arm. I'm so much smaller than Trinity that it's almost comical. "Now isn't this better?" he asks.

I shrug then, gathering my courage, I ask, "How long were you there?"

Trinity gives me a gentle smile. "Long enough," he says.

I sniffle. Another tear slides down my cheek.

To my surprise I feel a large, calloused, gentle hand cup my chin and Trinity wipes the tear away with his thumb. "Don't cry, Kiri," he whispers. He sounds almost like he's going to cry himself.

"Why...umm..." The words I want to say won't come out. "How can you stand to touch me after...that?" I ask in a whisper.

Trinity doesn't answer for such a long time that the silence threatens to become awkward. "Because of this," he says finally. THen he leans in close to me...

So close...

Closer...

Closer...

Closer...

My eyes widen. He can't...He isn't...

But he can and he is.

My eyes slip shut all on their own as Trinity - my best friend who I've wanted forever - touches my lips with his own.