Categories > Celebrities > My Chemical Romance > This blood that runs down your face, such a delicate disgrace.
Warning: This chapter could get nasty. Discretion is advised.
He aimlessly wanders through the hollow woods and the moonlight cast a glint on the river as he rubs his fingertips along the oak of old trees and rusted leaves. Impatientness begins to fills his body as he realized he had put his victim’s demise off far enough.
Two days. He figured that was enough for the pathetic cries over Ray to finally be put to rest. He took pride knowing his little puppets were shook up and fearful. That’s how it should be. Over those two days he began to overlook the situation, and he came to the conclusion, those assholes really did deserve it. Not once was there a shred of sorry from any of them. So now that the tables are turned, he would smiled knowing it would come out of their mouths sometime. But you know what? It’s too fucking late for apologies…
The crisp wind seemed to suddenly pick up, with autumn in tow, the leaves were now turning yellow and beginning to shrivel. The swish noises of the trees brought him momentarily solace as he walked back into civilization and stretched his limber muscles to prepare for another amazing show that would take tonight. He never though being center stage would feel this good. If only he had learned this when had the chance. But nothing could quite compare to the feeling of having complete control of directions, and knowing the satisfying quench for revenge was better than any event that had taken place of his life…
The street lights are his only source of seeing where he is going as he places his feet on the cold cement of the sidewalk. The house all round the block seemed to be dark and quiet. A common occurrence for the city, which he didn’t seem to mind. The darker, the better.
“Leeeeia.” He sang as he took the pleasure in walking over her grass. His foot prints disappeared, the further he went. The large house was hardly lit, he could see a light lit in Leia’s room, a smile plastered onto his face as his feet began to move once more. He imagined some cheesy horror music they use in movies. But this certainly wasn’t the case now was it? This was real…all real.
He saw Leia sitting on her bed with a sullen look and her hands cradled her stomach and she coughed a couple times. Her eyes were red and she looked like she had been crying. Xander focused on her more, and he realized she wasn’t crying. She was doing much more than he ever thought she was capable of. For a fraction of a second, he almost felt bad for her. But she was the one who caused much more pain, and he now knew her insides had matched her outsides.
“So that’s how girls keep their figure.” He appeared into her room, and he felt the familiar shock fill the air, and Leia’s body went rigid as she stared at him, with disbelief.
“Xander?” She asked and he nodded.
“Nice to see you again.” He smiled. She looked like she could’ve fainted right then and there.
“You’re not really here are you?” She said confused and her head began to ache. She looked back at him and he was still there. She closed her eyes, and he was still there. Her heart began to beat faster as he walked closer.
“Leia, Leia, Leia, why do you do it?” He chirped and she stayed silent.
“Do what?” She said softly. Xander leaned on her drawer and gave her a smirk.
“Don’t give me that Leia. You know what. All I can say is that how you treat your body?” He raised an eyebrow at her and she could only look down in shame as her secret spilled out. One she kept for many years.
“What do you want?” She became slightly irritated. He loved the sudden mood change.
“Oh, I’m just here to visit, say hello, and collect your soul and secrets.” He said simply.
“None of this is real. It can’t be. I’m just dreaming.” She said shaking her head.
“Yeah that’s what Ray thought too.” He put in and knew that was the icing on the cake.
“Ray?” She asked. He nodded.
“Ray. Such a sweet thing? A little broken if you ask me.” He giggled and she glared.
“Why are you doing this?” She said a little louder. He didn’t appreciate her tone of voice.
“Why do you think Leia? You thought you could just drop me in the river and pretend I ever existed? After everything you’ve put me through?” He glared.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” She replied. He laughed.
“Do not play with me sweetheart, you’re only proving how black you are inside. Tell me does it hurt much, when you hover over the toilet and vomit until bleed?” He asked and she gulped. He nodded.
“Bulimia Nervosa. Such a tragic thing to have…The effects are devastating.” He shook his head and Leia began to squeal as her skin began to change to an ugly burnt black.
“Your mouth gets bigger.” His mouth slanted up as he spoke. Leia’s cheek began to swell, and her gums began to bleed.
“Stop it please!” She shrieked and he only laughed.
“But that would only end the fun, and we’re just getting started.” He snarled and she whimpered as her skin went back to normal and her mouth felt sore.
“Tell me something Leia. Do your peers know what you do to stay thin? The disgusting acts you do to make sure food doesn’t dissolve into your system? That you’re destroying your body everyday and night?”
“Do they?!” He snapped when she didn’t answer.
“No!” She began to cry and he bit his lip.
“What do you want from me? Is this about that night?” She whimpered. He scoffed.
“No Leia it’s about the time you stole my cookie.” He said sarcastically.
“Do you recall the Valentine’s day dance?” He suddenly questioned, and Leia’s hands began to shake from her crying.
“Yes.” She whispered. He nodded.
“I could still remember the exact moment you pushed me into the punch bowl. I was soaked with red punch and all you could do was sit back and laugh.” He looked at her and she looked away.
“What about the night we went to Bob’s house? I was listening to him speak, when I felt you and Tati place candle wax on my favorite jacket. What is so fucking hilarious then Leia? All the humiliation you caused me? Now for your sake I’m not going to down the list of pain you caused. But I think the one we should discuss is the one you truly thought you could away from. Did you really think karma wouldn’t come back to bite you in the ass for what you have done?”
“Leia, you always were foolish. Falling behind the things that you thought could make you feel better about yourself, when it only destroyed you. So let’s have it. How long have you been puking your guts out?” He asked and she began to sob.
“12 years old? 13 years old? What?”
“11.” She whispered and he nodded.
“That’s a little young to be starting, how did you manage to keep it from your parents?”
“I don’t know.” She replied.
“Lies wasn’t it?” He hissed and she nodded.
“That’s all you ever hear these days. Such a shame no one knows how to tell the truth.”
“Please just leave me alone.” She sobbed.
“I wish I could do that sweet pea, but you see, you owe me.”
“I don’t owe you anything.” She snapped. He glared and in one second he was in her face.
“Don’t you dare tempt me. I should bash her head against that mirror, but I’m not that type. You ruined my life and you didn’t give a shit when I fell in that river.” He said harshly.
“It was an accident!” She cried.
“That’s what they all say. It was no damn accident when you’ll fully aware the rope could snap. And did you care?”
“Yes.”
“Don’t lie to me Leia.”
“I’m not!”
“Like I’d really trust you now.” He hissed and she gulped.
“But before we end this little show, I think you should understand what is gonna happen if you continue to empty yourself.” He smirked and she Leia screamed as her whole body was rotten and her mouth was decaying and her body looked like it had been charred.
“Please make it stop!”
“I’m just reminding you what happens. Not so pretty is it? Now your outsides match your insides!” He smiled. She continued to wail.
“Who knew looking pretty costed you so much?”
“I always knew you had a black heart. I was so silly to believe you would ever like me, accept me. You were never going to were you?”
“I wanted to, I didn’t think it hurt you so badly.” She pleaded.
“Didn’t think? Of course not. Well it did Leia. A lot. And now you get you understand the humiliation. I’m assuming you were about to start nightly ritual? Well excuse me if I interrupted. Carry on.” He motioned with his hand and Leia’s body began to move and her tears spilled onto the floor as she reached the toilet and her hands grabbed onto it. Her finger went deep into her throat and Her body heaved and spilled out everything she had into the bowl. Bright crimson flowing down from her mouth and into the swirl as her body continued to heave creating a mess outside the bowl and onto the floor.
“Nothing left inside of you. Glad to see you feel it too.” He smirked and her body got weaker with each second. He left the room and eventually the house. Leia’s body fell to the floor. She cried as her throat burned, and blood seeped out of her mouth. Her eyes rolled into the back of her head, and her heart began to stop beating. A minute later, who body went limp and there was no more movement…
When Xander reached the street, he inhaled a deep breath and smiled.
“The secrets just keep spilling and spilling. I wonder what my other puppets are keeping from me?” He asked himself as he looked at the houses on the block. Now realizing that not everything looks as perfect as it seems. That behind closed doors, every person was different…..
He aimlessly wanders through the hollow woods and the moonlight cast a glint on the river as he rubs his fingertips along the oak of old trees and rusted leaves. Impatientness begins to fills his body as he realized he had put his victim’s demise off far enough.
Two days. He figured that was enough for the pathetic cries over Ray to finally be put to rest. He took pride knowing his little puppets were shook up and fearful. That’s how it should be. Over those two days he began to overlook the situation, and he came to the conclusion, those assholes really did deserve it. Not once was there a shred of sorry from any of them. So now that the tables are turned, he would smiled knowing it would come out of their mouths sometime. But you know what? It’s too fucking late for apologies…
The crisp wind seemed to suddenly pick up, with autumn in tow, the leaves were now turning yellow and beginning to shrivel. The swish noises of the trees brought him momentarily solace as he walked back into civilization and stretched his limber muscles to prepare for another amazing show that would take tonight. He never though being center stage would feel this good. If only he had learned this when had the chance. But nothing could quite compare to the feeling of having complete control of directions, and knowing the satisfying quench for revenge was better than any event that had taken place of his life…
The street lights are his only source of seeing where he is going as he places his feet on the cold cement of the sidewalk. The house all round the block seemed to be dark and quiet. A common occurrence for the city, which he didn’t seem to mind. The darker, the better.
“Leeeeia.” He sang as he took the pleasure in walking over her grass. His foot prints disappeared, the further he went. The large house was hardly lit, he could see a light lit in Leia’s room, a smile plastered onto his face as his feet began to move once more. He imagined some cheesy horror music they use in movies. But this certainly wasn’t the case now was it? This was real…all real.
He saw Leia sitting on her bed with a sullen look and her hands cradled her stomach and she coughed a couple times. Her eyes were red and she looked like she had been crying. Xander focused on her more, and he realized she wasn’t crying. She was doing much more than he ever thought she was capable of. For a fraction of a second, he almost felt bad for her. But she was the one who caused much more pain, and he now knew her insides had matched her outsides.
“So that’s how girls keep their figure.” He appeared into her room, and he felt the familiar shock fill the air, and Leia’s body went rigid as she stared at him, with disbelief.
“Xander?” She asked and he nodded.
“Nice to see you again.” He smiled. She looked like she could’ve fainted right then and there.
“You’re not really here are you?” She said confused and her head began to ache. She looked back at him and he was still there. She closed her eyes, and he was still there. Her heart began to beat faster as he walked closer.
“Leia, Leia, Leia, why do you do it?” He chirped and she stayed silent.
“Do what?” She said softly. Xander leaned on her drawer and gave her a smirk.
“Don’t give me that Leia. You know what. All I can say is that how you treat your body?” He raised an eyebrow at her and she could only look down in shame as her secret spilled out. One she kept for many years.
“What do you want?” She became slightly irritated. He loved the sudden mood change.
“Oh, I’m just here to visit, say hello, and collect your soul and secrets.” He said simply.
“None of this is real. It can’t be. I’m just dreaming.” She said shaking her head.
“Yeah that’s what Ray thought too.” He put in and knew that was the icing on the cake.
“Ray?” She asked. He nodded.
“Ray. Such a sweet thing? A little broken if you ask me.” He giggled and she glared.
“Why are you doing this?” She said a little louder. He didn’t appreciate her tone of voice.
“Why do you think Leia? You thought you could just drop me in the river and pretend I ever existed? After everything you’ve put me through?” He glared.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” She replied. He laughed.
“Do not play with me sweetheart, you’re only proving how black you are inside. Tell me does it hurt much, when you hover over the toilet and vomit until bleed?” He asked and she gulped. He nodded.
“Bulimia Nervosa. Such a tragic thing to have…The effects are devastating.” He shook his head and Leia began to squeal as her skin began to change to an ugly burnt black.
“Your mouth gets bigger.” His mouth slanted up as he spoke. Leia’s cheek began to swell, and her gums began to bleed.
“Stop it please!” She shrieked and he only laughed.
“But that would only end the fun, and we’re just getting started.” He snarled and she whimpered as her skin went back to normal and her mouth felt sore.
“Tell me something Leia. Do your peers know what you do to stay thin? The disgusting acts you do to make sure food doesn’t dissolve into your system? That you’re destroying your body everyday and night?”
“Do they?!” He snapped when she didn’t answer.
“No!” She began to cry and he bit his lip.
“What do you want from me? Is this about that night?” She whimpered. He scoffed.
“No Leia it’s about the time you stole my cookie.” He said sarcastically.
“Do you recall the Valentine’s day dance?” He suddenly questioned, and Leia’s hands began to shake from her crying.
“Yes.” She whispered. He nodded.
“I could still remember the exact moment you pushed me into the punch bowl. I was soaked with red punch and all you could do was sit back and laugh.” He looked at her and she looked away.
“What about the night we went to Bob’s house? I was listening to him speak, when I felt you and Tati place candle wax on my favorite jacket. What is so fucking hilarious then Leia? All the humiliation you caused me? Now for your sake I’m not going to down the list of pain you caused. But I think the one we should discuss is the one you truly thought you could away from. Did you really think karma wouldn’t come back to bite you in the ass for what you have done?”
“Leia, you always were foolish. Falling behind the things that you thought could make you feel better about yourself, when it only destroyed you. So let’s have it. How long have you been puking your guts out?” He asked and she began to sob.
“12 years old? 13 years old? What?”
“11.” She whispered and he nodded.
“That’s a little young to be starting, how did you manage to keep it from your parents?”
“I don’t know.” She replied.
“Lies wasn’t it?” He hissed and she nodded.
“That’s all you ever hear these days. Such a shame no one knows how to tell the truth.”
“Please just leave me alone.” She sobbed.
“I wish I could do that sweet pea, but you see, you owe me.”
“I don’t owe you anything.” She snapped. He glared and in one second he was in her face.
“Don’t you dare tempt me. I should bash her head against that mirror, but I’m not that type. You ruined my life and you didn’t give a shit when I fell in that river.” He said harshly.
“It was an accident!” She cried.
“That’s what they all say. It was no damn accident when you’ll fully aware the rope could snap. And did you care?”
“Yes.”
“Don’t lie to me Leia.”
“I’m not!”
“Like I’d really trust you now.” He hissed and she gulped.
“But before we end this little show, I think you should understand what is gonna happen if you continue to empty yourself.” He smirked and she Leia screamed as her whole body was rotten and her mouth was decaying and her body looked like it had been charred.
“Please make it stop!”
“I’m just reminding you what happens. Not so pretty is it? Now your outsides match your insides!” He smiled. She continued to wail.
“Who knew looking pretty costed you so much?”
“I always knew you had a black heart. I was so silly to believe you would ever like me, accept me. You were never going to were you?”
“I wanted to, I didn’t think it hurt you so badly.” She pleaded.
“Didn’t think? Of course not. Well it did Leia. A lot. And now you get you understand the humiliation. I’m assuming you were about to start nightly ritual? Well excuse me if I interrupted. Carry on.” He motioned with his hand and Leia’s body began to move and her tears spilled onto the floor as she reached the toilet and her hands grabbed onto it. Her finger went deep into her throat and Her body heaved and spilled out everything she had into the bowl. Bright crimson flowing down from her mouth and into the swirl as her body continued to heave creating a mess outside the bowl and onto the floor.
“Nothing left inside of you. Glad to see you feel it too.” He smirked and her body got weaker with each second. He left the room and eventually the house. Leia’s body fell to the floor. She cried as her throat burned, and blood seeped out of her mouth. Her eyes rolled into the back of her head, and her heart began to stop beating. A minute later, who body went limp and there was no more movement…
When Xander reached the street, he inhaled a deep breath and smiled.
“The secrets just keep spilling and spilling. I wonder what my other puppets are keeping from me?” He asked himself as he looked at the houses on the block. Now realizing that not everything looks as perfect as it seems. That behind closed doors, every person was different…..
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