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Bob dropped Frankie off at his house; I mean I guess that's where he left him. I don't really know, cause when I woke up we were pulling into my driveway and Frankie was gone. I rubbed my eyes a little and yawned getting out of the car. Bob said something about coming in but I told him it wasn't a good idea. Especially since he left his car unattended in front of Lia's house.

She was so pissed at him too, after everything that happened. She's liable to come home and smash a brick through his car window... He laughed a little; but then when he realized that I wasn't joking he made a face and took off down the block...

I went inside alone and collapsed on my bed. I was still high from before and my head was pounding from fighting with Lia. I took two aspirin and fell asleep. I woke up an hour later starving. I went to the kitchen but the only thing I could find was a frozen pizza. Whatever. I put it into the oven and stood there watching it in the oven, waiting for the cheese to melt.

I just couldn't believe what had happened. How could Lia think I was fucking her dad? After everything...she knew I always thought of her dad like he was mine... and he was mine... Bastard...how could just deny everything? My mom would not have lied about that. I could still hear Lia's voice...your mom was a druggie and a whore My mom never did drugs? Did she? Damn it! Its not like she would've told me. I was just a kid when she died...Fuck...

The cheese was starting to melt and bubble a little. I turned the oven off and was about to pull it out when the phone rang. I picked it up with out even checking the caller ID. "Hello?"

"Fighting." Was all Gerard said. It wasn't a question, just a statement.

"What?" I asked a little confused.

"You were fighting?" He says like he can't believe it. Damn you Frankie! What did he do run home and call Gerard! He can be such a little bitch sometimes!

"Hey I was just going to call you and say the same thing!" I tease Gerard. I mean he was fighting too.

"Elle!" Gerard laughs a little. I sat down at the kitchen table and pulled the phone closer to my ear. I was so glad it was him on the phone, just the sound of his voice made everything better.

"Are you coming over?" I said softly. God how I needed him...

"Uh I cant." He said hesitantly. "I just... why the hell did you go over there anyway Elle." I can hear him sigh.

"To the motel?" I say getting up and pulling the hot pizza out of the oven.

"Well yeah!" He laughs again and I smile imagining his face.

"I don't know I guess I wasn't thinking." I sigh. Gerard doesn't say anything. "I guess I just wanted to know what he'd say...." I said looking down at the pizza I put on my dish.

"Well, what did he say?" Gerard says.

"He denied it." I replied. Remembering Bills words, I was suddenly not hungry anymore. "He said that he never slept with her and a whole bunch of crap." I sighed.

"Aw baby." Gerard said softly.

"I mean what the fuck Gerard. You think he would be fucking man enough to say something! Anything! But he fucking denied it! He made it sound like my mom was just making shit up! That she tried to pin it on him for his fucking money. Like he ever gave me or my mom a goddamn penny. My papa paid for everything. He was fucking interning for my papa back then. He didn't have shit." I said getting a little worked up again.

"Well you didn't really think that he was just going to admit-" Gerard stopped talking suddenly. There was someone talking in the background. "I'll be there in a minute." I hear him say faintly to someone.

"Did you get in trouble for getting suspended?" I asked him when he picked the phone back up to his ear.

"Naw. My mom was a little pissed though." He laughed.

"Cause you were fighting?" I ask poking the cheese on the pizza a little. It was kinda slimey...

"No, not really the fighting part..." he laughed a little. "It was more cause it was in school... you know she's says if I don't graduate high school I'm going to end up in jail!" he laughed again.

"Well she's right you know!" I tease him as I light up a cigarette.

"Come on Elle." He protests.

"Fighting is no good." I tell him. Especially fighting with Paul over bullshit...

"Look whose talking!" He laughs.

"Hey at least I kept my fight out of school and in the parking lot where it belongs." I laugh. He was about to say something back when some one started talking in the background again.

"Hold on." He says covering the phone a little. I roll my eyes and poke at the pizza on my dish. It was getting cold now...

"So if you're not in trouble- cant you come over then?" I say when he picks back up.

"Naw, my grandmas here for dinner." He sighs. "she says to tell you hello."

Me? Tell me hello? "Your grandma said hello?" I say confused.

"Well yeah." He laughed a little. "She knows I'm talking to you."

"Oh" I say.

"She wants you to come over so she can make you dinner one day- she's says your too skinny!" he laughs a little.
He was talking about me to his grandmother? I guess that makes sense. I mean I am his girlfriend right? I could see where this is headed though...

He wants me to meet his family... I don't think I can... A strange feeling came over me... He was home with his family, getting ready to eat and they're all happy and together and I'm sitting here- alone, with a cold pizza now... I'm suddenly feeling sick again...

"Elle?" His voice cut into my thoughts. "You okay?" He says.

"Yeah. I was just thinking." I say shaking my head a little. My voice must've sounded funny though.

"I'm just gonna come over Elle." Gerard says.

"No don't." I protest.

"Elle." He sighs.

"I'm fine Gerard- really." I lie. " I'm just about to eat too." I say dumping the cold pizza into the trashcan.

"I don't like thinking that you're sitting there all alone right now." Gerard says softly.

"Ha!... Lia was right." I laugh a little.

"About what?" he says roughly.

"You guys all feel sorry for me-cause I'm all alone." I said biting my lip a little, trying not to cry. I can hear him take a breath but he doesn't say anything. "I'm not afraid you know." I said to him loudly. "I'm not afraid of being alone.-I don't always need someone protecting me- holding my hand." I said and I hear him exhale a little.

"That's not what I meant Elle." He said and I rolled my eyes a little.

"Look just tell your grandma I said hi back and tell Mikey I'm going to pick him up at 7:30 sharp tomorrow." I say taking another drag off my cigarette.

"For what?" He says sounding confused.

"For school!" I laugh. "You know WE have to go to school!"

"You're going to drive him to school!" Gerard laughs a little.

"Well yeah." I say plainly. "Its kinda my fault you got suspended." Gerard didn't answer me. I can hear Mikey telling him their mom said dinner was ready. "Just go." I tell him and he tries to protest. "No really Gerard I'll see you tomorrow morning." I say quickly and hang up.


The next morning I figured I better stop and get Frankie to bring him to school too. I didn't call to let him know or anything. When I got there he was just coming out the door. I think he was going to walk. He smiled as he got in.

"Don't even look at me." I said pretending to still be mad.

"Aw come on" Frankie laughed. "I said I was sorry!" He said reaching over to turn on the radio. I swear its like he's obsessed with music, he's always fucking playing with the radio.

"You fucking called Gerard yesterday!" I laughed a little. He looked over at me like I was crazy.

"No I didn't." He said shaking his head no.

"Frankie!" I yelled a little. I can't believe he's lying! "You told him what happened yesterday!" I insist.

He still shaking his head no. "I called this morning to see if uh...if he was gonna bring me to school and he said that maybe you'd come by since you were coming for Mikey." Frankie said looking out the window.

"So who told him what happened?" I ask totally confused.

Frankie pulled out a cigarette and was trying to light it but the window was open and kept blowing his lighter flame out. He was trying to cover it with his hand. He mumbled a little. All I could make out was something something Lia.

"Yeah, who told him about what happened with Lia?" I repeat.

"I just said!" He exclaimed pulling his hand from his mouth. "Lia did."

"When!" I yell.

"She went right over there yesterday-" Frankie said and I slammed on the brakes halfway down Gerard's block.

Frankie wasn't wearing his seatbelt and he slammed into the dashboard. "What the fuck!" he yelled rubbing his arm.

"She went over there!" I hissed. "After she fucking left us in the parking lot she went to Gerard's!" I say to him. He just looked at me and didn't say anything. "How do you know that Frankie?" I say and he just keeps looking at me blankly. "Frankie I swear to God you better start talking." I say biting my lip a little.

"Its not a big deal!" Frankie says trying to calm me down. "When I called him this morning about getting a ride I was going to tell him what happened but he already knew."

"Cause Lia was there." I say remembering his conversation with me last night. I wonder if she was there. Eating with his family? I could fell tears welling up in my eyes. Frankie reached over and squeezed my hand. I pulled it from him and rubbed my eyes a little leaning my head forward into my hands. "I don't believe this." I sighed. "I don't believe she went there... I mean how long was she there?" I ask him and he shrugs. "Well was she fucking there all night!" I yell at Frankie.

"No!" He laughed a little. "Gerard would NOT do that to you Elle." Frankie said giving me a weak smile. I rolled my eyes. Gerard was a guy... Guys are weak... and Lias a bitch... she only went there cause she knew it would hurt me, like it hurt her when Bob told her to leave me alone... "I don't think she was there that long." Frankie added trying to reassure me.

"How do you know that? Is that what he said?" I laughed a little at him.

"Well, his mom was home." He said shaking his head a little as he thought.

"And his grandma was there." I sigh.

"See!" he exclaims " And his grandma doesn't like Lia. She would've made her leave." Frankie says confidently.

"Why?" I ask wrinkling my eyebrows a little. Frankie took a drag from his cigarette. "Cause she doesn't like her?" I say a little confused. Frankie nods.

"Cause the last time I was there and Lia came by, his grandma got pissed at Gerard cause I guess she thought he was hooking back up with her again."

I just sat there looking at Frankie. I heard the words come out of his mouth, but they made no sense...

"Again?" I say reaching over and grabbing Frankie's arm- hard. He winced a little.

"Did you just say hooking up-with her! - again !!!!"