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"Uh is Elle home?" A girls voice calls out. I peek around Lia. Fuck.. It's Sara... Chrissy and Frankie are coming up the steps behind her.

"What are you doing here?" I say softly to her.

"You said this morning we could come over and do our homework here?" Sara says hesitatingly. Oh. fuck... That must've been what she was asking me in the bathroom. I wasn't listening and I said okay... "Is it still okay?" She asks raising her eyebrows at me.

"Oh... I....I guess..." I say pulling the blanket around me closer, making a face at her. There was a real cold breeze coming into the house now.

"I told you she was sick!" Mikey calls out from the bottom of the steps... I didn't even see him there... " That's why she left school! You guys we should just go to the library and leave her alone." Mikey says to Frankie. Aw Mikey... he's so fucking sweet...

"Oh fuck schools over!" Lia cries out. "Frankie can you go run down to my house and get Bob for me." She says and he shakes his head no. "Aw come on Frankie!" She yells. "I told him to come over after school! He's going to think I fucking ditched him!" She cries out. Frankie shakes his head again like he doesn't give a fuck. "I ordered pizza..." She said sweetly trying to bribe him. "It should be here any minute!- please!" She begs.

"All right fine" he moans ands says something to Chrissy in her ear before running off. Lia holds the door open for Sara and Chrissy and of course Mikey...

"Are you sure you want us to come in?" Mikey says coming up the steps slowly. I nod a little.

"Of course silly or she wouldn't have offered." Chrissy giggled. Lia got a strange look on her face.

"You MUST be Chrissy." She said smiling a little evilly at her. Fuck... This was not going to go well... Lia hates perky people more than I do...

"Yeah!" Chrissy says cheerfully.

"Uh you guys can go do your homework in the kitchen at the table." I say motioning Mikey towards it with my good arm. He nodded and walked towards it. Chrissy was behind him. Sara too, then she turned back.

"Oh I called Ray and he said he and Gerard will be over in a little bit." She says smiling at me. Lia perked up at the sound of Rays name...

"Ray?" She said raising her eyebrow slightly.

"Yeah." Sara said blushing a little.

"You know Ray?" Lia was giving her a funny look. Oh fuck...

"He's kinda my boyfriend!" Sara giggled and blushed a little more. An evil smile crept across Lia's face. This was not good... Oh poor Sara....

"That's so sweet." Lia said mocking her a little. "You must be Sara!" Lia said holding out her hand to her. Sara took it and shook it a little. "I'm uh... Elle's sister." Lia says smirking a little.

"Okay um..." I say pushing Lia towards the kitchen too. "Lets go in the kitchen please."
When we walked in Chrissy had her books spread out on the table and it looked like Mikey was helping her with something.

"Oh I'll never figure it out!" Chrissy giggled touching Mikey's arm. She was totally flirting with him. I frowned at them both. They were too busy to notice though. Sara sat next to them and opened her notebook.

"Oh my god Elle! They're actually going to do their homework!" Lia laughed shaking her head at them. I shrugged. Lia still had that creepy smile on her face... I don't need this... I mean really... Now I got to be a fucking babysitter to Lia. Make sure she doesn't kill Sara...or Chrissy for that matter... I reach into the cabinet and pull down the bottle of vodka.

I slipped my papas blanket off of my shoulders and folded it over my arm covering the bandage. I didn't feel like explaining... Explaining what I don't know... I guess I didn't feel like lying- especially not to Mikey... I managed to open the bottle with one hand. I don't even know how... I leant back against the counter near the sink and took a long drink from it.

I just wanted to forget... Make everything seem less real... Lia kinda had her back to me. She was saying something to Sara... Sara looked a little uneasy at what ever Lia was saying... fuck... I took another gulp as Lia turned towards me. She saw the bottle in my hand and got real angry.

"What the fuck is wrong with you!" She said loudly coming towards me and grabbing the bottle from my hand. She caught me totally off guard. I just stood there. They all looked up at us from the table..."You can't drink." She hissed a little. "You're..." Her voice trailed off. She frowned and put the bottle down on the counter. I think she was looking for the cap... She didn't know I tossed it in the sink.

"Why the hell not?!" I yell at her. "Tell me why not!" I repeat. "Am I suppose to care... Really just leave me alone okay!" I say to her squeezing my eyes shut a little.

Mikey asked if we were okay. Lia shrugged... Then she lights a cigarette up... She looked a little frustrated with me... I don't know if it was from losing so much blood or what. But the vodka had hit me hard... I had never been so drunk, so fast from so little...I slumped against the counter. Mikey had turned back to his notebook. He said something about helping me with my math but I shook my head no...

Just then Frankie came walking back in the kitchen Bob was following him. Ray and Gerard were close behind.
"Hey!" Ray says looking over at Lia then at Sara nervously. Lia smiled widely at him. "What's going on?" Ray said his voice cracking a little as he sat next to Sara. I don't think he liked the idea of Lia being in the same room as Sara either...I just shrugged at him.

"Hey did you guys make up?" Frankie says to me and Lia. "Cause if you're wanna fight again I need to get my camera ready." He laughs a little.

Lia slaps his arm. "Shut the fuck up" she tells him walking towards Bob. The kitchen wasn't very large and there were so many people in it now... Lia had her back to me and she saying something to Bob about her being sorry. I heard the doorbell ring. I was going to go answer it but Lia said she would that it was probably the pizza. She took the money from me and headed down the hall...I reached over and grabbed the vodka bottle when she walked out and took another gulp as Gerard came towards me. He leant over and kissed my cheek slightly.

"You feeling okay baby? Mikey said you were sick.." He said softly stroking my cheek. I nodded and handed him the vodka bottle. He took a drink from it too but first he reached up and felt my forehead. I guess to see if I had a temperature...

Frankie sat down at the table next to Chrissy. They were all sitting now. Everyone except me and Gerard, we were by the counter. Bob was kinda in the doorway. Lia came back in with the pizza just as I was taking another gulp from the bottle.

"Fuck!" She yells slamming the pizza down onto the counter. She reached around Gerard and tried to pull the bottle from me. I knew she was going to try to take it again. I pulled back, but I guess being drunk and weak and all. I kinda fell back into the counter as she tore it away from me.

"I told you to fuck off." I yelled at her as I fell to the floor.

"Shit." Gerard said reaching his hand down for me to take it.

"I need to talk to you Gerard." Lia said loudly grabbing his arm that he had outstretched for me... He pulled it away from her.

"Fuck Lia! What is your problem!" He yells at her.

"That's Lia?" I hear Sara say softly. She was looking at Ray like what the fuck didn't you say anything. Ray was tapping his pencil on the table. I guess trying to come up with something. Every one else was watching Gerard yell at Lia. I was sitting on the floor. I couldn't get up...

"You're fucking crazy!" He yells. "There's something seriously wrong with you... she's suppose to be you're fucking friend" He yells at her, she continued to pull on his arm.

Bob walked over and held his hand out for me. I shook my head no. I liked being on the floor... Everyone else sat at the table silently...no one moved...

"Gerard please its important" she says tugging him towards the doorway again.

"Why the fuck do you hate me so much!" He yells at her.

"I don't hate you." She says letting go of his arm.

"You've done nothing but try to come between us." He says to Lia reaching for me again.

"Leave her alone Gerard." I say softly as he grabbed my good arm and lifted me up. I slumped against the counter.

"Naw..." He says shaking his head at me...He turned back to Lia. "I've had enough of you." He tells her pointing his finger at her. "You're a fucking bitch.. You say you're her friend but you do nothing but hurt her to get back at me- your sick. You know. You like seeing her like this.- fucking sick because of you and you're fucking insanity!" He yells at Lia stepping towards her.

"Hey!" Bob yells loudly. Gerard stepped back and shook his head at her.

"You think this is because of me!" Lia yells back at him. "You think I don't care for her!" She shrieks. "I care for her more than you could imagine!" She says slamming her hands on his chest.

"You turned your back on her when it counted." Gerard hissed at her. "What kind of fucking friend are you... what kinda sister does that!" He laughed a little.

"Turned MY back!" Lia screamed at him. "You don't even fucking know what's going on!" She continued to scream.

Sara looked horrified. Ray was looking down. Mikey looked like he was going to get up and say something...

"No you don't know Lia." He yelled back "Or you wouldn't be fucking irritating her all the times with your fucking bullshit games...That's what you want?"He yells at her. "You want to see her like this- all fucked up." He scowls at her.

I couldn't take it anymore. Hearing them talk about me like I was some kinda toy they both wanted to play with. I tried to take a step forward and fell.

"Elle." Gerard said softly reaching for me.

Bob went over to say something to Lia. She was shaking her head no at him. "No she needs ME!" Lia was insisting to him.

"I can't take this anymore." I say holding back tears. Gerard grabbed my left arm. I screamed out in pain pulling it back from him. Mikey stood up now and was standing over Gerard's shoulder looking down at me.

"Baby what happened..." Gerard said looking at the massive bandage Lia wrapped on my arm.

"I...I..." I stuttered a little.

"I cut myself...."