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Study hall was just about over and I still hadn't mentioned anything about what happened in the club last night. I don't know why really. I know it sounds lame but I didn't have a chance. After we agreed that everything was fine I used the payphone and called Mr. Reefer to find out about how my annulments going. I still hadn't even done the blood test yet. He wasn't in so I left a message.

Then I called the insurance company to find out about my car. It didn't look like they were gonna fix it-They said it was too badly damaged or some shit. When I hung up I told Gerard that I was just gonna go buy another car when I got home.

He said that I just cant do that. I said why not. He said I don't have enough money to just go out and buy a car-that he's seen my checking account and that maybe if I didn't spend so much fucking money on shoes I'd have enough money for a new car. I told him I had a savings account too and I think I did have enough money in it. He said come over after school and help me sort through it. I didn't really need his help but I wanted to spend time with him so I agreed.

We were kinda waiting by the door for the bell to ring. Jessica was still all over Dave. Gerard didn't even glance over. That just made me more certain that it was all about Paul and not her. I couldn't help but smile at him.

Mr. S happened to walk by the doorway. He paused and took a step back. "Elle um when did you get here?" He said looking over at me. He didn't say anything to Gerard. Gerard just stared at him.

"I've been here." I said and Mr. S frowned.

"I came here looking for you a little while ago and you weren't here." He says.

"I was sitting in the back on the floor." I said plainly. Mr. Samuel looked me over and Gerard glared at him a little.

"The floor?" He kinda chuckled. I shrugged. Gerard reached over and took my hand and squeezed it a little. "Uh I really wanted to talk to you. Why don't you come with me Elle?" He says and I look over at Gerard.

"I'm suppose to go to math class." I say coughing a little. My mind was racing. I wanted to talk to Mikey see if Lia called and left a message last night. If she did then Mikey didn't tell Gerard. Cause there's no way that he's just letting it go... is there? Mr. S was saying something. I totally tuned him out. "huh?" I say looking up at him. He just nodded. I looked over at Gerard. He looked down. What the fuck did I miss? The bell started ringing. No of us moved.

Finally Gerard leant over. "Go head I'll meet you outside your class before lunch." Gerard says and leans over and kisses me. Right on the mouth, hard too. Right in front of Mr. Samuel. I just stood there a little shocked. Mostly cause I didn't know what the fuck I missed. He walked off and Mr. Samuel motioned for me to follow him out. So I did.

We get back to his office and I sit and look at Mr. Samuel. He's pulling out that fucking file thing again. "I thought you turned that in." I say and he laughed a little.

"Elle you ran out of here so fast on Friday, I had to ask for an extension." He says and I frown remembering. "Now you want to tell me why you got so upset?" He says and I shift in my chair a little.

"They gave you an extension?" I say leaning forward trying to peek in his folder. He leant it back a little.

"I believe we were talking about a kiss." He says picking up his pencil.

"Oh not that again please!" I say a little frustrated. "I told you I'm not gay. I'm not bi... Didn't you just see me kiss Gerard? My boyfriend? He's a guy!" I say and Mr. S leans back in his chair a little.

"Yes I did Elle and I must say you looked a little uncomfortable." He says and I make a face.

"That's cause I was confused." I say and he nods.

"That's why we're talking openly Elle, help you straighten out some of your confusion." He says and I can't help but laugh a little.

"No I mean I couldn't hear I was confused cause I didn't hear." I say and Mr. S frowns.

"So you're saying you're not confused about your sexuality you have hearing issues?" he says mocking me.

I look at back as seriously as I could and nod. He slid his chair closer to the desk. "Okay Elle, um you do realize you are wearing boys clothes." He says nodding at them. I just shook my head a little. This was unfucking believable!  "Those are boys clothing right?" He continues looking me over. "the jeans the shirt? Those are men's clothes correct?" he says.

"Yeah but that's only cause I have to." I say and Mr. S slides his chair closer now and leans forward on the desk.

"No Elle you don't have to. You want to." He says and I burst out laughing. He leans back a little irritated.

"Mr. S..." I said after I had caught my breath. "Please.. I can't do this." I say and he shuts his folder. "I know you're trying to help but I cant." I say shaking my head at him.

"Elle I'm gonna give you a book." He says reaching into his desk. He pulls out a rather large book and places it on the desk. Just read it over and see if things don't become a little clearer afterwards. He pushes it over towards me and I read the cover.

"The Gay & Lesbian Self-Esteem Book: A Guide to Loving Ourselves."  I read and smile a little. He nods encouragingly. "Okay Mr. S, I'll read your book. But you gotta do something for me." I say and he looks at me hesitantly. "I know you said you don't know where Nick is or anything about him but maybe you know someone who does?" I say and he frowns. "Aw come on you said my mom was popular right.?" I whine a little." You gotta know someone who knew her and who knew him too." I insist.

"I'll think about Elle." He says.

I push the book back. "Then I'll think about reading this." I say folding my arms.

"Take the book Elle." He says as the bell rings." Ill see what I can do" Mr. S says and I jump up and hug him. "No promises though." He calls out as I leave smiling. Clutching my 'book'.

I made my way to social studies and ducked in just as the bell rang. Ray sees me but didn't say anything. The bell finally rang and I look up and Gerard is standing in the doorway. As promised. Fuck I love him...

I walk out and Gerard is frowning a little. He doesn't say anything until we're past the gate. Ray is walking with us now.

"Did you hug Mr. Samuel?" He finally says and Ray frowns a little looking down at me.

"what?" I gasp.

"I went by and I thought I saw you hugging him when the bell rang Elle." He tells me.

"Oh yeah cause he's gonna find me someone who knows Nick!" I say happily.

"He's just fucking around with you Elle." Gerard scowls.

"No!" I protest.

"He's trying to get in your pants Elle. How come you don't see this!" Gerard kinda yells at me.

I laughed. "Gerard you are so far off you have no idea." I say and he looks at Ray for some support. "No I'm serious. He's thinks I'm a fucking lesbian see." I say holding out the book to Ray. Ray reads it and chuckles a little. We were halfway to my house. I couldn't wait to get home and change...

Ray hands the book to Gerard. He makes a face. "Why does he..." His voice trailed off as he laughed a little.

"I don't know some how the fucking kiss with Lia came up and-"

Gerard cut me off. "Wait what do you mean somehow it came up?" He laughed. "You had to have fucking told him right?" He says handing me my book back. I frown as I take it from him.

"It was an accident!' I protest.

"How do you accidentally mention something like that?" Gerard laughs. "I mean you don't hear me going around accidentally mentioning that I kissed Bob!" He says and as soon as he said it he stopped walking.

"What!!" Ray screeched.

"oooh ha ha!" I tease him. "Looks like you just did." I laugh. He reaches over and grabs me and pulls me close and tickles me a little.

"You're gonna get it." He teases me.

"Wait you and Bob kissed?" Ray says to Gerard still shaking his head a little. Gerard just ignored him.

"So according to Mr. S one kiss is all it takes to turn?" Gerard says letting go of me a little.

"No it's not just that." I sigh and they both look at me. "Well the fact that I showed up today dressed like a guy didn't help." I say shrugging a little.

"Yeah I was gonna ask you about that?" Ray laughed a little.

"um me too." Gerard says pulling out my keys. We were standing on my porch now. He was waiting for me to answer before he opened the door.

"Those are Frankie's pants right?" Ray says looking at them.

"Yes." I say plainly.

"And you're wearing them because..." Gerard encourages me.

"Cause Bobs didn't fit me." I say shrugging a little. Gerard rolls his eyes a little.

"what happened to your pants Elle." He says and I just look at him.

"Nothing." I say truthfully too.

"When you left me" Gerard says pulling my face close to his. "You were wearing pants... were you not?" He says and I nod. "and when you got to Bobs house?"

"I didn't have any." I say looking down. Ray snickered a little.

"Cause you left them..." Gerard encouraged me.

"I left them at the club. But I swear I wasn't doing anything wrong- you can ask Bob!" I cry out and he just looked at me.

"I already talked to Bob Elle." Gerard said opening the front door. Ray took off into the kitchen. I just stood there looking at Gerard.  "We have last period together you know." He says and I continued to look down. "What I don't get is why I had to hear it from him." He says and I look up at him. His face is expressionless. "Didn't I fucking ask you if there was anything else?" He says as we walk in. I nod a little.

"I didn't lie! I just didn't..." I stammer.

"You just didn't tell the truth... the WHOLE truth." He scoffs at me. "If we're gonna have a relationship Elle you need to be completely honest with me." He says and I nod. He shakes his head a little and pulls me towards him. He wraps his arms around me and hugs me a little and then leans back and holds up his finger. "That's one Elle." He says firmly.

"One what?" I say panicking a little. "One strike?" I say and he half smiles. "Wait how many do I get?"  I say and just looks down at me. I think it's three...I'm not sure... Fuck...

"Come on I'll help you change." He says winking at me a little, pulling me to my room.

My room was still a mess from before. I grabbed a shirt and jeans and started changing. Gerard sat on the bed and didn't say anything. It was like all of a sudden his mood changed.

"What happened with Jay yesterday?" He says as I slip my shirt over my head. I sat down on the stool by my vanity and started brushing my hair.

"Nothing. We went to the club and that was it... Well he popped open my door lock it was creepy-"I started to say and Gerard got up off the bed and came towards me.

He leant over my shoulder and looked at me in the mirror. "Did you kiss him Elle?" He says with a weird tone to his voice. His eyes were locked on mine in the mirror.

"No I didn't kiss him." I say remembering. Jay kissed me on my neck. I never kissed him back not on his lips not on his neck not anywhere.

Gerard reached over and grabbed the back of my neck. His flashed a bright green for a second. He twisted my head a little and pulled the hair from my neck and pushed me towards the mirror. There on my neck was a red and purple hickey. Right where Jay kissed me... fuck...He mustve seen it when I took my shirt off before...

"You didn't kiss him but he sure as hell kissed you." He hissed in my ear. He released his grip on me suddenly and stepped back towards the door in anger. I was in shock. I was just frozen sitting there...

"That's two..." He calls out slamming the door as he left...